One Month Later | September 12th, 2021 |

"Where are you Nana?" Jayda mumbled, holding Cyncere in her arms, laying in her bed with him.

"I'm not 'bouta stay there if you keep accusing me of shit Jay. I'm tired of you repeating the same shit to me even when I try to show you that I'm not doing nothing." He said, trying not to sound as frustrated as he was.

"I'm sorry. I won't bring it back up just come back home please." She rubbed Cyncere's scalp, listening to the rain showers that was happening outside of her window.

"Nah. I need a break Jayda." He told her, and a frown placed upon her face as she sat up.

"What?" She laid Cyncere under her covers, standing up from her bed.

"Not break from our relationship, just from the nagging you doing about bullshit. You ain't trusting me right now, all we been doing is arguing lately. Maybe we need some space. I been all under you every damn day and you still finding some shit to question me about." He placed her on speakerphone, his phone becoming hot.

"Nau'Jour because you've been acting different. It's not like I've been accusing you of cheating or something. I'm trying to figure out what's been bothering you and you're just drowning yourself into some sort of depression instead of talking to me."

"You been sad as hell and you can't even front like you haven't. I've been trying to figure out if it's me, and since you told me it wasn't, I'm trying to get you to open up about what it is. Just tell me that you don't wanna talk about it instead of trying to make it seem like I'm going crazy or something." She ranted, and the line went silent for a few seconds.

"You want a break from me because I wanna help you Nana? That's fine. If you want some space, I can respect that. But don't make it seem like we're taking a break because of only me. You've been unintentionally rude to me for weeks now and I haven't said anything about it."

"You only leave my house to go to the studio now, you don't hang out with your friends. I know you aren't cheating on me Na, the thought never crossed my mind. But there IS something that's wrong, and I'm your girlfriend and best friend for a reason. You're sad and I want to know why."

"But if you feel like space would be the answer, then that's okay. If it's me, I'm sorry. I don't mean to crowd you or pester you. I'm scared that you'll leave me, so I'm just trying to prevent that. I'm sorry." Tears were now falling from her eyes, and she wiped her face, becoming upset with herself.

"Baby don't cry please." He sighed, and she sniffed, trying to stop her tears from falling.

"I'm always fucking something up, it never fails I'm literally always ruining shit. I'm so sorry. Will you just come home? I'll stop. Ok? I won't bring it up anymore but I need you. Please come home Nana." She wiped her face, leaning over her kitchen counter as thunder crashed.

"Jayda I-I don't wanna be there right now mama. I just need a few hours, okay? I'm sorry." His voice rasped into the phone, and she covered her face, nodding though he couldn't see her.

"Okay. That's fine, I'm sorry too. I'm sorry if it feels like I'm pressuring you to get over how you feel, those aren't my intentions." She mumbled, clearing her throat after her voice cracked.

"It's okay baby. I'm not taking a break from you, aight? I'll come in the morning as soon as the storm over. I'll be there before you wake up, I promise." He told her, and she sniffed, wiping her eyes once more.

"Are you sure? You can take a break if you n-."

"I'm sure. I love you." He cut her off so that she didn't make herself any sadder, and a pout graced her face.

"I love you more baby." She replied, and once he blew a kiss, she returned it, then ended the call.

As soon as the call ended, she broke down, sitting against the counter on the floor, burying her face into her hands.

She felt like she always self sabotaged her life. Every time she had something good, she ruined it. She didn't know what it was, or why she blamed herself every time.

She loved Nau'Jour with everything in her, and she knew him like the back of her hand. The last few weeks he'd been acting different, and not like his usual goofy, happy self.

She'd checked to see if anyone died in his family, if he'd had any bad music dealings, if he was having problems with one of his friends, and she even checked with Von to see if he knew something or had said something to him. Everything came back clear, so she couldn't figure out what was wrong with him.

She was now realizing that maybe she was overcrowding him and should just let it go, but she didn't want him to feel like he was alone-whatever it was that had happened, she was there for him.

Hearing that he'd wanted a break had hurt her feelings, because she knew what came after a break. She didn't know how to take a break from the person she'd fell in love with.

He was everything to her, and she didn't want to be alone again. She didn't want to get left on her own, once again. She never wanted to feel like that again, but she figured that feeling would soon return if she kept bothering him.

She didn't know how to stop though. Was she just supposed to allow him to sulk in his sadness by himself? Would whatever this was ever pass? She didn't know. That's why she wanted to know what was wrong so that they could figure it out together.

Before she knew it, hours had passed and she was being picked up from the floor, making her stir in her sleep.

"It's just me baby." She could hear Toosii mumble to her, and her eyes fluttered open, seeing that he was carrying her to her room.

She wrapped her arms around his neck in a tight hug, and he returned it, rubbing her back. She laid her head on his shoulder, not saying anything as he held her.

"What you sleep on the floor for?" He placed her on the bathroom counter, and she didn't let him go, making him chuckle.

"It's not funny. I thought you were gonna leave me." She mumbled, holding him close to her body.

"You crazy Jayda. We getting married, remember?" He kissed all over her face, and she smiled, finally letting him go.

It would be random moments like these where he would return to his normal self, but it never lasted too long. She missed him, and he hadn't even went anywhere.

"Yeah, I remember." She wiped her mouth dry with a paper towel after brushing her teeth.

"The storm's not over?" She frowned as thunder crashed outside of her window, and she checked to make sure Cyn was still asleep, which he was.

"Nah. It slowed down some but then it picked right back up." He told her, holding a plastic bag out to her.

"What's this?" She asked, taking the bag from him and looking inside of it. "Pregnancy tests?" A frown placed upon her face, looking at him.

"Jayda you been emotional as hell lately." He told her, and her head tilted to the side.

"I'm always emotional. I'm a crybaby, we knew this already." She said, and he chuckled, nodding his head because it was true.

"Just take 'em." He waved her off, and she did as told, sitting down on the toilet to pee after removing three tests from the box.

"They rapid tests. It should show after a few seconds." He told her as she began peeing, and she nodded.

"You haven't had sex with me in a month. So I don't know how I'd be pregnant when I took tests last month." She mumbled, and his eyes roamed over her expression.

"Baby it's not because of you. Look at me." He reached to grab her face, and she sighed, pulling her head back from his grip.

"It's fine. I don't wanna talk about that anymore. I didn't mean to bring it up." She stopped that conversation before it could start, not wanting to question him again and make him upset with her.

He stared at her as she cleaned herself off, standing up afterwards. His eyes drifted to the tests, and he looked at her after seeing that they were positive.

"You pregnant mama." He softly grabbed her face, and Jayda pouted, trying not to cry once again. His tone wasn't as happy as she was expecting it to be.

"You don't sound happy about that." She allowed some tears to fall, avoiding his gaze. He didn't respond, and she slowly nodded her head, turning to walk out of the bathroom.

"I'm sorry. I won't keep it if you don't want it." She sniffed, using the back of her arm to wipe her face. She was tired of crying.

"Jayda I-is it mine?" He asked, and she stopped moving, turning to face him.

"What?" She frowned, trying to make sure that she heard that right.

"Nau'Jour who's fucking kid would this be if it wasn't y-." She stopped herself as she put the pieces together, and her eyes locked on his.

"You think I'm cheating on you with Von?" Her head jerked back at her own statement, confirming it once he looked away from her.

"Are you serious right now Armani?" A deep frown etched across her face, and he ran his hand down his.

"Jayda you been spending hella time wit' this nigga. Every other day you over there. Can you blame me for thinking otherwise?" He held a frown on his face as well, looking at her.

"Yes I can blame you! What the hell? All this time? This whole time you've been playing mad, has been over Dayvon?" She tried to make sure she was processing this correctly.

Before he could respond, she grabbed his hand to pull him out of her room, not wanting to wake Cyncere up.

"Are you deadass? You think I'm cheating, and on top of that, you think I'm pregnant by him? Do you take me as some type of sad hoe Armani?" She folded her arms, and he didn't respond, not knowing what to say.

"Is that why you haven't been fucking me? You think I'm giving pussy to him?" She began to click all of the pieces together, stepping back some because she was ready to get physical.

"Jayda I don't know what to think. How am I supposed to know what's happening when I'm not there?" He frowned, pulling his sweats up some.

"Nau'Jour I always ask you to come with me! Literally every time he calls, I ask you to go with me. And then you making it seem like I go to his house often, I'm there like every other three days, and I don't even be gone an hour. Why would I be cheating on you?" She was becoming upset because this didn't make sense to her at all.

"And now you can't talk because you're realizing how dumb you sound. Nau'Jour I love you! I do not, and I'm trying to make this as clear as possible in case it wasn't before, I don't want him. I'm building a friendship with him for the sake of my child, and if that has ever made you uncomfortable you should've told me."

"Anything that you don't agree with you know I'll dead that shit with no hesitation. The fact that you think I've been cheating on you for over a month and you never brought it up is crazy! Cheating?! On you? Are you being deadass? Nau'Jour when have I ever-why, would I ever cheat on you? You're perfect to me. I tell you that all the damn time." She wiped her face, no longer sad, she was mad now. She was trying her hardest not to hit him, she felt like he was playing her way too close.

"I've asked you countless of times am I the reason you've been acting different. You lied to me Nau'Jour. If you would've told me the truth the first time, this shit would've been solved a month ago. But instead you continued to lie and hide the way that you feel, and was just talkin' about a break. A break because you've formed some crazy ass accusation against me in your head." She scoffed in disbelief, shaking her head at him.

"Jayda every time you come back home from being over there you have his cologne all over you. I thought that maybe y'all was being closer than you was telling me." His frown remained, keeping his eyes on her.

"So why didn't you just tell me that? I hug him when I leave Nau'Jour. I've told you that before and asked was that a boundary that you didn't want crossed and you said it was fine. Why do you continue to let me do shit that you aren't okay with?" She frowned at him, gesturing with her hands.

"I don't know." He mumbled, running his hand down his face, now feeling bad. Jayda walked to stand in front of him, pulling his hand from his face.

"Call him. Ask him have I ever cheated on you with him. I never even give this nigga a real hug. His cologne is probably on me because his whole house smells like him. Matter fact, I'll call him." She walked past him, and he grabbed her arm, pulling her back.

"No because do you realize how stupid this all was Armani? We find out I'm pregnant with your child which is something you've been wanting, and you accuse it of being someone else's. I don't even want the fucking baby anymore. You can go home, we can take that break or whatever the fuck it was. I'm so pissed off with you right now." She pulled herself from his grip, still holding a frown on her face.

"So you gone kill my kid?" He asked, and her head jerked back.

"Did I say that? Why is that the only thing you took from that?"

"You just said you didn't want it. What else that mean?" He tilted his head, and she rolled her eyes.

"Yeah. I'ma abort it Nau'Jour. Move." She attempted to walk past him because he was pissing her off, and he blocked her way.

"If you kill my kid, I'ma kill you. Stop playing." He stood in front of her, and she rose an eyebrow.

"Is that supposed to scare me? It's not yours anyway, right? Apparently I've been having this cute little fun affair with Von, and it's his." She sarcastically smiled at him, before it dropped and she rolled her eyes.

"I'm not playing with you Jayda." He told her, and her frown returned. Now it felt like a challenge and she was actually considering it just for the simple fact that he was making dry threats.

"Ok. You gone follow me to the center?" She stepped past him, and he grabbed her wrist, holding it tight in his hand, making her hiss.

"Nau'Jour that hurts. Get off of me." She frowned, grabbing arm, and he pulled her body to be close to his, still holding on to her wrist.

"If you think I'm playing I want you to try it. I made a mistake with accusing you, I'm sorry. I should've talked to you about it but sometimes the mere thought of losing you scares me so I just let you do what you want. I don't wanna seem controlling. I should've spoke up about it, and I'm sorry that I didn't. But our kid don't have shit to do with what I did." He let her go, and she brought her wrist to her chest, rubbing it because it was now sore.

"Don't grab on me like that Nana. I'm serious." She swallowed the lump in her throat, seeing her wrist was lightly bruised with the imprint of his fingers.

"Mommy?" Cyncere's voice was laced with sadness, and she adverted her eyes, seeing that he was standing at the entrance of the living room.

"Hey baby. Why are you up so early?" She walked over to him, squatting to be at his level.

"You okay?"

"You okay?" Both of them asked one another at the same time, and once he started giggling, she smiled, completely forgetting about the sad mood Toosii had just put her in.

"I'm okay baby. Come on, let's go back to sleep." She mumbled, picking him up, and he wrapped his arms around her neck.

Jayda didn't say anything to Nau'Jour, and she didn't allow her thoughts to take over, instead just falling asleep with Cyncere, thinking about her pregnancy.

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