➪ꏳꀍꍏᖘ 030

I gaped,and gaped a little more.

My hands gripped the fabric of jungkook's hoodie into fists,as to where I was sure I'd be able to tear holes into the material if given enough contemplation.

Shock, abundant amounts of the shit coursed through my veins,and it tingled all over my nerve endings as jungkook grew even redder and redder the longer I gaped at him.

Never,not once in a million years had I thought,that words so fucking sincere,so sensual,and interestingly intriguing in a way it wasn't supposed to be,would pass the soft barrier of Jungkook's lips.

They still travel the confines of my head, muddling about in my brain as I tried to make sense of...of what I'd just heard.

That jungkook liked me.
Was quite addicted to my touch.

And that he was asking for a chance,a chance to prove him worthy of...

I don't know how to put it in literal words.

Silence stretched between us,up until he was circling my trembling hands in that of his,and a look of concern and dejection crossed his feature for a nimble moment, before all of it is concealed in concern once more.

"Darling,
Ar-are you okay?"
His voice sounds wobbly,and yet calm as he observes my features,he's eyes growing more closed off and distanced with whatever he sees.

I don't know if it might've been disgust.
Or horror.

Either way,both was quite the incredulous way of rejecting a mere man seeking to ask me out on a date.

"Uh-
Jungkook,gosh..."
I slowly climb off of his lap to settle beside him,and the hurt in his face is evident before it disappears,a mask of nonchalance returns.

"You're,quite uncomfortable with that I see."
He chuckles,albeit it sounds strangled and forced even to my own ears.

His hands loosens around mine,but I deter from letting him slip so easily away from me, instead I tangle our fingers together a little tighter.

"I'm not uncomfortable,just a little shocked,surprised.
I-i didn't realize that-"
I open and shut my mouth in an attempt to utter the correct words,but I seem to be failing continuously.

"That me,Jeon Jungkook,the guy that hoes around for the fun of it,could actually grow feelings other than lust and a deep instilled need to fuck,was possible?"
His chuckle is dark,and it sends a little of a shiver down my spine.

That is until I glance up and meet his bland expression, he's mask was up again,and the cocky smirk that I now know is a whole part of a facade is stretching across his lips.

I find myself not liking it.
I don't know why,why I even care that his closing off,but I do.
And it's feeling like a catastrophe happening in my chest until I can't stand it anymore.

"I didn't say that."
I say softly.

Rubbing soothing circles into the skin of his hands curled a little too tightly for my liking.

"But you thought it,I'm guessing?"
He smiles a half bashful smile.

"Well yes,but I'm-."
With a exasperated sigh,I give up and pull my legs closer to my chest, resting my chin on my knees to scrutinize jungkook.

His posture seems relaxed,but how could it be, awaiting on my answer like this.I spot the tension is his bulging neck,and the bunching up of his shoulders.

"It's fine if you don't want to,it's not my right to pressure you into any-"

He doesn't finish his sentence due to me holding a finger to his lips, mushing it into a pout,but the grace of a smile to my lips is as much prove of how amusing he looks.

I'm thrown by my ankles at what he does next though,the soft feel of his puckered lips kissing against the pad that has me flusteredly pulling away.

God help me that I grew blushing at mere affectionate touches like this, but I'm not even the slightest shy when I hold his dick in my hand.

"Fine then."

"F-fine then?"
Jungkook is at most confused,with the raise of his brows and the wrinkle of skin between them.
It does nothing to hide the little flicker of hope that glistens in his irises.

"Baby.
What I'm saying is yes."
I sigh softly,a small smile tilting the corners of my lips as jungkook's lips stretch into an excited smile.

"Y-you're.
I-I can take you out on a date?"
He asks, stuttering abit perhaps,but it's makes it all the cuter at how excited he is at something as simple as me granting him a chance.

It is pretty big tho,seeing as I haven't been on one purely for the pleasure of it in three years.
The hidden intent of quick ,time spared sex was always there.

"Jungkook.
This means that I'm trusting you,okay?"

He smiles and the skin beneath his eyes bunch up in the cutest form,I feel a little smile of my own when his hands clench around mine where it was still nestled on his thigh,pushed against where my legs were pulled up to my chin.

"And by that,comes a risk as well."

"I don't care about the risks Darling.
You'll always be worth it."
He speaks sincerely,and when I snuggle under his arm again,his chin sat on my silk scarf that covered my hair,I drift off into my mind as we continue to watch the show.

I didn't want to lose this thing with Jungguk.It was satisfactory,and he was something better then what I've had it years,perhaps better.

His friendship.
His thoughtful and sweet gestures.
His laugh and humor that comes with it.All of the traits that I found attractive at this point,amounted to his gorgeous sex appeal,and his sweet personality itself.

I hoped he wouldn't mess it up,I didn't want to experience the shitty feelings of my past young dumb relationships again,I would let myself be used and abused like that again.
I refused to be seen as vulnerable and weak as that by a mere stupid man again.

But Jeon Jungkook wasn't stupid.
Far from it actually,and slowly yet surely,he was breaking through the walls, determined to reach me.

Let's see how long it's lasts before he too,realizes my standards are unforgiving.

Even if I was crossing my fingers and hoping to die,in hopes that Jungkook wouldn't become one of the past.

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