Joseph

Monday, December 21, 2002

Night

The sound of beeping played in my ear, and I could hear distant talking and walking around. There was a pain in my stomach and I opened my eyes. My vision was so blurry, only being filled by light blue and white. As I felt around the bed, fear gripped my heart. "Lance?" I sobbed as tears streamed down my cheeks. The beeping grew louder, and someone opened the door.

"He's awake! Notify the family!" they yelled.

"Where am I?" I asked, looking at the outline of whoever it was. "Where's my fiancé?"

"He's fine, just calm down, okay? Do you remember anything?"

I hissed in pain as a headache erupted in my head. She came to my side and a sharp pain struck my shoulder. Everything in me felt a little better. "Where's my family?" I groaned, feeling around my bed.

"They're on their way, okay? Just relax..." Her muffled voice scared me and Lance was the only thing is wanted.

"No... I want my husband..." I murmured, breaking into a sob. "Is he okay?"

I couldn't see anything, and looking into the light for too long only gave me a headache. "He'll be fine, I promise; my name is Sherry." 

"Sherry, what happened to me? Why isn't he here?"

"You were in a car crash. I'm going to go check for him, okay?"

I nodded, and she walked out the door. Silence filled the air, and an overwhelming sadness soared through my body as I imagined the worst-case scenario. I couldn't stop crying; I'm not sure what it was, but every thought hit me hard. Not knowing anything scared me... my heart raced as the door opened. "He's on his way, okay? Just calm down..."

Calming down was difficult. Something just kept making me cry harder and harder. This was the most hurt I'd ever felt, and I couldn't figure out why. Nothing happened, but everything happened all at once. Seconds felt like hours, and my frustration shot up. "WHERE IS HE!"

"Joseph, you're experiencing symptoms of coma, okay? Just breathe."

I buried my face in my hands and sobbed like I'd never sobbed before. "Is he upset with me?"

Trying to get out of bed only resulted in her pushing me back down. "Hey! Just lie down, please."

Whatever she gave me kicked in, and it only clouded my mind more. "Who are you again?"

"I'm Sherry. I'm a nurse."

"Sherry, I love him so much..."

"I know. I need you to stay in bed and I'll go get him, okay?"

"Can you tell him I love him? And that I'm sorry for whatever I did?"

"Yes, I'll tell him. I'll be back," she rushed, walking out the room.

Trying to control my emotions was hard. I wanted to cry and cry. My dad, Lance, and my mother was all I wanted. The deafening silence in the room only added to my discomfort. "Nurse?" I called out. Her name couldn't stick to my brain and it only annoyed me. There were some footsteps before the door opened.

Lance walked in and he looked completely different. He had dark circles under his eyes and his normally clean-shaven face was now covered in stubble. "Jose?" I tried to get out of bed, but a massive wave of dizziness went through my head. He pushed me back down, sitting beside me. "Just lay down, please?"

I rubbed his stubble while gazing up at his cute smile. "I'm sorry for whatever I did..."

He pulled me into his arms. "You didn't do anything Jose, I could never be upset with you..."

"I thought you were hurt... I thought something happened to you..." I stressed sluggishly, wrapping my arms around him. "Don't leave me again..."

"I won't Joseph, I promise." He snapped, kissing my head. "What do you remember?"

"I proposed to you at the party, and—" my eyes welled up with tears as I searched around my head, getting nothing. "I don't know..."

His arms felt like armor itself as he pulled me to his chest, pecking my head. When I was with him, every emotion in my body felt better, but there was still fear in my heart. I knew nothing, and the drowsiness didn't help that. "Look at me, Jose." Gazing at him made me even more upset; I truly loved him, and my mind was a whirlpool of different bad scenarios. "I know you're scared, but I'm here and I'm not going anywhere."

I swiftly pressed my lips against his, letting every bottled-up emotion out. He was amazing in every way, but I knew I couldn't do what I wanted in this room. Our lips parted ways, and I moved his hair out of his face. Taking in every aspect of him. "Never, ever cut your hair..."

He smiled, rubbing my arm. "Why?"

"It's my favorite thing about you, other than your face and... body..." My everything felt tired and I closed my eyes snuggling into him. "Everything about you is my favorite thing"

"What part of my body do you like the most, Jose?" He giggled.

"Your ass, it's really nice..."

"Really? Thought you like daddy's dick?" he teased.

"Don't say that you're gonna make me hard," I sighed. "And I do, but sometimes I wanna..."

"Wanna what Jose?"

"Eat your ass."

He busted out laughing, kissing my head. "I can't wait to tell you about this when you're not high..."

"Whatever... just sit still and let me sleep on you!" I whined.

His hand continuously grazed my arm and the kisses he planted on my head. Just made me feel safe and loved. "Jose?"

"Hmm?"

"I love you."

That simple sentence made me warm inside. It felt so good to have him back in my life. He always knew how to make everything around me better. "I love you more..." I murmured. The sound of his soft heartbeat filled my ear, and all of my worries faded away.

"Can I get up and turn off the light?" he asked, kissing the top of my head.

"No."

"Why Jose?"

"Cause I said so!" I snapped.

He chuckled, running his hand through my hair. "I don't get a say, huh?"

"No, you stay with me."

"Jose, I just wanna turn off the light..."

"I said no Lance. That's the end of it!"

His hand went back to rubbing my arm. "You're bossy when you're high."

"Just turn off the light and come straight back to this bed."

"Yes, master," he joked pecking my lips. He got out of the bed, and I heard the light switch flip. I felt his body lay beside me and he swiftly pulled me into his arms. "I love you, Joseph"

"I love you more..."

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