arabella, bellamy, clarke, and raven were in front of the dropship, waiting for the grounders to return for them. 

arabella and bellamy's heads turned to the sound of rustling from a bush near clarke and raven. 

"someone's coming." raven whispered, tightly holding her rifle. "there." she pointed out towards the gate.

bellamy raised his gun, immediately looking around.  

"oh, my god." arabella muttered, seeing finn standing at the gate, his arms raised in surrender. 

"no." arabella heard clarke say as the boy turned around to look at the four. 

clarke got up on her feet and ran over. "finn!" she cried out. but, it was too late. the grounders had already grabbed him. the four stood and watched as the grounders took finn away.

...

after a while, the group made it back to camp jaha. arabella stood with clarke and raven. the grounders were yelling, but arabella couldn't tell if they were actually cheering for finally getting what they wanted. clarke and raven were distraught, but they couldn't exactly go marching over to an army of grounders. 

"what is that?" raven asked, referring to the tall object the grounders were putting into the ground. 

"it's for finn." clarke whispered. "they want us to watch."

"we're gonna get him." bellamy spoke up from beside kane, arabella in front of him. "we'll get in close and we'll hit them hard."

"we can't walk into an army of grounders, bellamy." arabella turned to him. "they'll kill us before we even get close to finn."

 "she's right." marcus said. "there are thousands of them." he paused for a moment. "even if we could kill hundreds, they'd still wipe out this camp and your friend would still die." the man finished, his hand on arabella's shoulder. "i am not losing you again." he said to the girl.

"we have to try." bellamy murmured. 

"abby." raven said loudly, turning to the woman next to arabella. "abby, we have to do something."

abby looked at raven for a few moments. "no, raven."

raven's head turned back to the grounder army, her eyes glassy. clarke leaned forward slightly, sending bellamy a look, which arabella noticed. 

the girl turned round to the man behind her. "i swear to god, bellamy if you try something, i will kill you before the grounders get to you." she said angrily in a hushed whisper. "i won't lose you."

the two watched as clarke walked away, he glanced back down at arabella and took her hand, following after clarke. 

"bellamy." arabella scolded. 

"just come on." he simply said.

the two caught up to clarke, raven at their side also. 

"take this." clarke said, handing her gun to bellamy.

"clarke, what are you doing?" arabella said in a panic.

"i'm gonna talk to the commander." she replied, quickly walking towards the gate.

"what else do you have to say?" bellamy chimed in. 

"i don't know." clarke snapped. "i don't know."

"clarke, it's a death wish." arabella threw her hands in the air with frustration.

"give me your hand." raven spoke up, making the three turn to her. raven pulled clarke's hand towards her and slid a knife into the sleeve of her jacket.

"you must be fucking kidding me." arabella covered her face with her hands. 

"if she won't let him go, kill her." raven whispered. "things will go crazy, and we'll grab you and finn." she paused for a moment, taking in a breath. "clarke. you have to help him. i owe him my life."

arabella laughed dryly for a moment. "you know what? if you guys wanna get yourselves killed. be my fucking guest." her jaw hardened as she walked away from the three.

she understood they wanted finn back, but the commander was tough and she had an entire army behind her. clarke wouldn't last two seconds after she killed the woman, and arabella couldn't watch her best friend die. she was pissed at bellamy for even letting them get into that sort of danger. she was pissed at clarke because she was willing to die for finn and then raven because she was blind by love for someone who didn't even love her back, and because she held a gun up at her.

arabella sat down at one of the tables, her hands shaking as she clutched them together. the girl wished bellamy would've come after her and soothed her by telling her he wasn't going to do anything stupid, but... he didn't

"i can basically see the anger radiating from you." murphy's voice spoke up from behind her, sitting himself next to her on the table.

"do you never know when to give up?" arabella asked, tilting her head at the boy.

"not when i want my best friend back." he said softly, a small smile ghosting his lips. "thank you, for today... standing in front of raven's gun."

arabella shrugged, facing him for a moment. "you might be a murderer, but you didn't cause a war with grounders." she softly laughed.

"i am sorry, bells." murphy's voice sounded hurt like he truly did regret what he did. "i was angry about what had happened and i wanted revenge."

arabella nodded, a saddened look on her face. "i tried to stop them, you know that right?" she asked him, facing him properly this time. 

"i know you did, don't worry. i guess i was pretty pissed about you and bellamy too, but, i promise i'm over that." he explained. "i just want my best friend back, or did clarke take my spot?" he joked, smirking at the girl.

"yeah, clarke's my best friend." arabella told him. "but who says i can't have more than one?" she laughed softly, her hands no longer shaking and the anger had dispersed into the air.

murphy's body shook softly with laughter. "i think i can cope with that." he nodded with a grin. "so, what got you all pissed off?"

"take a guess." arabella told him, her voice laced with annoyance.

"bellamy, clarke, and raven?" he guessed with a shrug.

she pointed at him with a smile. "correct." she said quickly. "they're willing to risk their lives for him and finn doesn't even want them to! it was totally different for you when they hung you for something you didn't even do." she ranted on.

murphy nodded as she spoke. "well if you were in finn's situation, would you want them to risk their lives for you?" he asked.

arabella didn't even need to think of her answer. "no, of course not, but i wouldn't kill eighteen innocent grounders." 

"but if you did... they'd do anything to get you back, and i'd be with them on it no matter what you did, arabella." 

murphy's words stuck in arabella's head, maybe she had been too harsh on them.

"and if bellamy was in that situation..." he trailed off.

arabella stared at murphy. "i'd be in the same position as clarke and raven... probably worse." she said slowly. guilt wrapped around her body thinking back to how she had been treating them, shockingly enough, it was murphy who made her come to the realization. 

a stretch of silence was in the air until murphy spoke. "you aren't a bad person for not caring about what happens to finn. you know that right?" he asked the girl.

she was silent for a moment, a small frown on her face, and she shrugged. "i just didn't want anyone i actually cared about to die because of what he did..." the girl trailed off for a moment, her vision being blurred by unshed tears. "why do i feel like a monster for not caring?"

murphy's face softened at the sound of her voice, he shook his head. "you aren't a monster, bella. you just feel differently to other people, but it'll never make you less of a person for something that is out of your control."

a single tear fell down her face before she quickly wiped it away and dug her sleeves into her eyes to rid the tears from her eyes. she looked at murphy, chewing on the inside of her cheek. "this." she gestured between the two of them. "is why you were my best friend." she laughed, but it half sounded like a sob.

"are." he corrected with a smile.

arabella laughed again, rolling her eyes. "fine. this is why you are my best friend." 

murphy sent her a smile. "you think the grounders... killed finn yet?" he asked.

arabella drew in a breath and released it. "let's find out, i guess." she stood up waiting for murphy to follow.

the two made their way through the crowd, raven was practically stood inside the fence, bellamy a couple of feet away from her. arabella saw clarke standing in front of finn, she was holding his face and then she kissed him.

bellamy's eyes were on arabella and murphy, a feeling of jealousy as he looked at the two. arabella's eyes locked onto bellamy's, she stared at him for a moment before sending him a small smile, which he returned before looking back over at clarke and finn, her head rested on his shoulder, then a few moments later finn's head slumped down.

arabella's eyes widened for a moment as she watched clarke slowly step away from finn, his whole body limp. she moved away from him, revealing his blood-soaked shirt.

"no!" raven cried out.

arabella immediately ran to raven, the older girl falling into her arms. "you're okay. you're okay." arabella whispered to raven, her voice soft. 

"no! no!" raven cried out again, sobs shaking her body. 

the two girls sat on the ground, arabella's arms wrapped around raven as the girl sobbed into arabella's chest. arabella looked up at bellamy, her eyes glassy once again, but not for finn, for raven. 

arabella couldn't imagine losing bellamy, as crazy as it may sound, arabella would probably kill herself before she could even shed a tear. loving someone was dangerous, whether you're on a space station or on the ground it doesn't matter, love will always end up consuming your soul, love will always be one of the most powerful feelings.

the arcadian's knew how to deal with the loss of their people, they always have. but it'll always be different when it's someone who has your heart in their hand. arabella knew raven wouldn't recover from finn's death, she would lash out, she won't be the same. but, then again... nobody's been the same since they landed on earth.