"It's not enough to know what's right unless I'm strong enough to do it."

Juliet's POV

I left the library shortly after Remus had read the passage about the Imperius Curse, and I had gotten that odd, funky feeling in my body. It was almost as if I wasn't supposed to be reading it; as if I wasn't supposed to know. Of course, Remus asked if I was alright, but I quickly made a lame excuse about meeting Lily later so that I could get out of there.

Without being suspicious I left the library in a hurry and nearly ran back to my dorm. To my luck, neither Marlene, Alice, or Lily were present inside the dorm, so I had the freedom to panic all by myself.

Extreme anxiousness came over me, and I began to work up a sweat now inside my dorm. I was so overwhelmed and confused, and why was I feeling this way? What happened to the happiness and bliss I was feeling earlier. Oh, bring it back, please, bring it back!

I have no idea what's happening to me! I just wanted everything to go back to normal! Nothing seems right now, and I have no idea what to do. I kept pondering and contemplating about the uncomfortable feeling through my body, until Lily, Marlene, and Alice had all returned to our dorm room.

When the three of them came in, I was standing in front of one of the windows of our dorm room, with it open, feeling the fresh cool air blow through my face.

"Oh, hey guys," I said once my roommates were back in the room. Alice and Marlene acted like usual, but Lily walked over to me and I could feel her sense that something was wrong with me. Like she knew that my happiness had recently been replaced with confusion for no obvious reason.

"Hey Juliet," she started while I was still facing the open window, "I just got back from talking with Remus." She paused and slightly hesitated before saying again, "He told me that you were acting off today, and I just wanted to make sure you were alright--"

Regardless, I interrupted Lily with a sentence of my own. "Have you ever felt so happy for no reason at all, and then have it taken away all at once, being replaced with confusion and hysteria for a reason you don't know? Have you ever felt like even though everything in your life seems normal, something feels wrong and you can't put your finger on it?"

I started tearing up from my confession of the unexplained current fear, gaining the attention of Alice and Marlene.

"Oh Juliet," Lily said, comforting me, "you know we'll always be here for you whenever you need it," she said, Alice and Marlene nodding along with her.

I felt as if I was a balloon, and all of my thoughts and confusion in my head was the air inside of it, and the balloon is only one ounce of fear away from completely exploding and completely spiraling out of control. My friends brought me in for a hug, and I felt slightly calmer. But the fear and confusion were still there throughout the night, and I tossed and turned trying to make it go away. It didn't work.

Fast forward to breakfast time: I was sitting at the Gryffindor table with Lily, Remus, Sirius, James, and Peter in the middle of the Great Hall, quietly picking at the little food I had placed on my plate. While Peter was talking about something for his Defense Against the Dark Arts project, I tuned him out and thought about all of those feelings I had practically oozed out in my dorm room last night.

I knew that Lily was looking at me in a different way right now; she had clearly not seen any of this coming since I have always been a happy girl in the many years I have known her. Regardless, I did my best to act like I normally had for the past seven years at school, but it didn't seem to work very well, at least for Lily and Remus.

Lily has a certain way of knowing when something's wrong with a person, you can tell by the way that she looks at you that she knows something's up, even when you don't even know it yourself. I guess it's the perks of knowing someone for the past ten-ish years of your life.

Remus, on the other hand, looked at me with his big brown eyes and I could sense that he knew I was upset. Even since we revealed our lycanthropy to each other, we've both gotten to know each other much better, even though we had already known each other so much already. And in addition to that, both Lily, Zoe, and probably more of our close friends are under the assumption that Remus fancies me for some reason. I don't really know how else that would affect this, except for the fact that he cares more about me now. And I still don't know how to address the whole Remus supposedly fancying me thing, because I already have so much going on inside my head! I don't think I can take another second of this hysteria!

And I guess he really did care about me, because he asked to speak with me after breakfast, alone. But I told him that I'd talk to him after classes since we had three of them today. But at least it was a Friday, and I could sleep in the next morning.

The three classes that I had today were Potions, Charms, and Astronomy. None of which were with Remus. Anyways, Potions was a drag as usual, and we had class time to work on our paper about the history of Amortentia, the most powerful love potion in the world. Next, I had my Charms class, where we took a test on our current unit. Due to the many things clogging my head at the moment, I had trouble taking the test, but my spirits were slightly lifted when James used one of the charms we had just learned to prank our teacher during the test. Finally, I had Astronomy, where we started a new unit on constellations. Overall, a pretty boring yet typical day at Hogwarts.

I spent some time studying alone in my dorm room after classes were over, still very distracted by the many thoughts I was having. After completing my Potions paper, I headed down to the library to meet Remus, since he wanted to talk.

Walking through aisles and passed many bookshelves, I finally made it to the secluded corner in which Remus and I usually meet for studying. I found him sitting down at the table, reading a book that I couldn't see.

"Hi, Remus."

"Hey, Jules."

Word Count: 1172

a/n: i'm on spring break right now so i might post another chapter shortly