𝖳𝗐𝗈 𝖽𝖺𝗒𝗌 𝖻𝖾𝖿𝗈𝗋𝖾⎯⎯  𝖳𝗁𝖾 𝖣𝖺𝗒

𝕵une walks over to the couch, already dreading the fact that in two days she will be back home.

Never could she have ever imagined that home would become a place that she'd avoid, that she'd run from.

Never could she have ever imagined that the boy she's spent years yearning over, wanting and crying herself to sleep over would be the catalyst of her growing disdain for the place she grew up.

It's sad to think about how much she hates her childhood home at this point because what has that house ever given her? Sure, she's found a lifelong friendship there with Luke, a family — she knows that if it weren't for the Hugheses then she would have surely grown up very lonely, what with her mother usually busy with work, her grandfather visiting on special occasions because he has his own business to look after and her father pretending she doesn't exist (not that she wants him around anymore — well, she does but she really just wants a dad) and almost no close friends from school keeping her company.

She found people who were willing to accept and love her the way she is.

She found Jack.

And oh how lucky she is for that opportunity, she could never regret meeting him but loving him to the point where all that's on her mind all day is thoughts of him, him, him?

Now, that is simply tragic.

She misses him terribly.

And there has not been a day since she arrived at Flint that she has not cried over him.

Except now her tears are not being shed for what he could be to her but now, her heart is breaking for what he cannot be to her.

He wants to talk, sure. Yet how could she, after years of living in the shadow of everyone he's loved and cherished, ever hope to be one of them?

And even worse, how could she hope to be the only one for him?

Because this summer has made one thing painfully clear for her, she is incapable of ever moving on from Jack.

Her love for him might dim over time if her worst fears are true and he truly does not plan on choosing her but she will never really let go of the idea of what they could've been.

And the even worse part? She's now had a taste of him so how could she ever love someone enough to not look at Jack and think about every childish dream she's had about him?

Her eyes catch onto the framed photograph over the mantle of her grandparents from their honeymoon and a lump forms in her throat at the sight of their wide smiles, arms around each other as they sit over a blanket on a Hawaiian beach.

There is a small bump showing over her grandmother's swimsuit — her grandparents had been only engaged when her mother had been conceived and during her grandparents' wedding, her grandmother had been about twenty weeks pregnant — and she fights the tears threatening to spill down her cheeks.

June never met her grandma because she passed away of cancer a year before June was born but she's seen how much her gramps loved his wife.

Loves her even now. He never remarried and though he's sort of moved past the pain, he still misses her dearly.

For June, all she's ever known of her romantic love was her parents' until she realised that there was in fact very little love there — on her dad's side anyway.

And yet she's a hopeless romantic so she has kept wishing and believing that someday she'll experience the kind of love her grandparents did.

Jack feels like that kind of love for her. The kind that completely consumes you in the best way possible and the kind which you never stop fighting to save, never walk away from because you know that's your person.

But then again, no one's ever really chosen her so why would Jack?

"You know, I used to think she was absolutely unreal. That somehow, I'd wished for her and she'd been made for me".

She startles and glances back finding her grandfather approaching her with a slight smile.

"She was simply . . . . perfect. I could never feel worthy of her but somehow, she chose me so I guess I was kinda lucky, huh?", he comes to stand beside her and gazes solemnly at the framed photograph of him with his late wife.

"You never forget that . . . ", he clears his throat, looking down at June who's trying to blink away her tears, "feeling. And she's been gone for so long but I can never regret meeting her. She changed my life".

"Hmm", June looks away, words failing her as her glassy eyes attempt to keep herself from sobbing.

"I know you ran away. And I think I can guess why. But I hope you know that whatever it is that you have with Jack", he sighs, "is worth it".

"I just don't know what I'd do if he—", she screws her eyes shut, "if he doesn't want me. I've spent too much time doing this, I can't—I'm not capable of coping with him . . . . not feeling the same way".

"Oh, June Bug", her gramps wraps his arms around her and pulls her into his chest, and she allows herself to sag against him, be held and swallow down her tears.

"I don't know what's going on in his head but he does feel a lot about you", he whispers, kissing the top of her head and she exhales.

"What if he doesn't?".

"Right now, you just need to hope for the best. You don't run away, June. Hell, you can't even go to bed without resolving an argument, you face things".

She pulls her head back, looking up with tired eyes.

"Maybe I don't want to face this. It would be too much".

"Nothing's too much for you. And you know I've got your back. I've got you, kid. I'm here for you if you need someone to fall back on", he brushes his thumb under her eyes to wipe the stray tears that have escaped her eyes.

She smiles half-heartedly and leans her head on his shoulder, relaxing in the bear hug that she's always loved about him.

𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗍𝗁𝗋𝖾𝖾 𝗆𝗎𝗌𝗄𝖾𝗍𝖾𝖾𝗋𝗌

( 𝖾𝗆𝗆𝖺 , 𝖼𝗁𝖾𝗅𝗌 , 𝗃𝗎𝗇𝖾 )

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
@ june ur going back in 2 days
right?

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
yes

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
how are u feeling

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
exhausted

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
trying not to lose my mind

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
oh baby 😞

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
u call me no matter ok? if he hurts
u i WILL hurt him.

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
i don't think he's gonna hurt her, em

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
i don't trust him

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
:/

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
june, he is NOT going to hurt u
i promise!!! i've seen him and
that man is DOWN BAD FOR U

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
we need to be prepared for
every scenario

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
emma, stop being negative

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
i'm being REALISTIC.

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
u guys know i have anxiety right

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
sorry bae i love u i hope u
know that

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
i do, i love u too <3

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
i'd just rather not keep overthinking
about this

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
let's talk about something else
then!!

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
u have to watch chicago med, june
ur going to looovvveeee dr rhodes

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
i genuinely CANNOT stop thinking
about him

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
i am choosing to not be offended
by that

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
LMAO

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
@ chels i'll start watching it soon 😭

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
he's so hot i would let him break
my back no joke

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
girl.

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
he's fictional, emma

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
i KNOW? but why does she keep
simping over men all the time
i get that she's attracted to them
but woman u have a GIRLFRIEND
AND IM SO MUCH BETTER THAN
A MAN

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
u just don't get it bc ur gay

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
ur gay too?

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
NO UR A LESBIAN U DONT
UNDERSTAND

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
DO U WANT A MAN THEN

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
NO? MEN SCARE ME

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
WHY U ALWAYSSS SIMPING OVER
THEM THEN

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
THEY'RE WEIRD

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
emma come on 😭😭😭

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
NO I DONT UNDERSTAND

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
bitch i'm bi i can do whatever
i want

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
but i only want u 😔

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
ok

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
wait i just looked him up and holy SHIT

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
he can run me over.

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
see i knew u'd see it!!!

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
like i'd let him hit even if i didn't
have daddy issues

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
right? he's so YUM ITS INSANE

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
wait he's kinda good looking

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
ur only NOW noticing it? i sent
u like fifteen pics the other night

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
i was sleepy and i wasn't in the
mood to look at a man

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
😔

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
i think i'll start watching it tonight

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
yes! text me to rant if u want!
i'm always awake!

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
u gotta fix ur sleep schedule bae...

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
she's right, chels

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
u guys are supposed to support me.

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
we just worry 🤷🏼‍♀️

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
don't, we'll be sleeping in the same
bed soon and i promise i'll fix it
then 🤭

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
don't think there will be a lot of
sleeping involved xxx

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
i'm literally still here.

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
does sex scare u june bug

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
kys ❤️

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
i will keep myself safe dw ❤️

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
emma, leave her alone 😭

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
@ june ignore her she drinks

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
that is correct

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
IM CRYING

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
oh no don't cry ur so sexy haha x

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
ur very unstable

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
thank u

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
😦

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
😘

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
😚😚😚

𝗷𝘂𝗻𝗲
...

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
😍😍😍😍

𝗰𝗵𝗲𝗹𝘀
🥰🥰🥰🥰

( 𝗃𝖺𝖼𝗄 𝗁𝗎𝗀𝗁𝖾𝗌. , 𝖾𝗆𝗆𝖺 )

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
hi

𝗷𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗵𝘂𝗴𝗵𝗲𝘀.
oh hi emma

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
just texting to let u know that if u
make her cry again i will ruin
ur life like u have no idea what
i'm capable of i am never ever
going to let u experience peace
if u break her heart AGAIN.

𝗷𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗵𝘂𝗴𝗵𝗲𝘀.
again? we're talking about june, right?

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
who else would we be talking
about, jack.

𝗷𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗵𝘂𝗴𝗵𝗲𝘀.
when did i break her heart?
she ran away, she never even
talked to me

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
u know what that's not my place to
tell u about but jsyk u have hurt her
multiple times over the years and
i'm not sure if it's been intentional
or ur just that dumb but she has
invested too much into u and ur
nonsense so u better make it worth
it or leave her alone.

𝗷𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗵𝘂𝗴𝗵𝗲𝘀.
i don't plan on hurting her. ever.

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
ok? that's the least u can do

𝗷𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗵𝘂𝗴𝗵𝗲𝘀.
idk what you want me to say

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
i want u to say nothing i simply need
u to understand that june is the best
thing that has ever happened to u

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
so u better act like it

𝗷𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗵𝘂𝗴𝗵𝗲𝘀.
i already know that, emma

𝗷𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗵𝘂𝗴𝗵𝗲𝘀.
trust me, i do

𝗷𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗵𝘂𝗴𝗵𝗲𝘀.
you have no idea how much
i miss her

𝗷𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗵𝘂𝗴𝗵𝗲𝘀.
you actually don't know even
a fraction of what i feel about her

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
yeah what DO U feel about her

𝗷𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗵𝘂𝗴𝗵𝗲𝘀.
i don't want to discuss this with
you, at least not before i tell june

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
ok

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
i would kill for her, u got that?

𝗷𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗵𝘂𝗴𝗵𝗲𝘀.
yes

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
good

𝗷𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗵𝘂𝗴𝗵𝗲𝘀.
i'm so glad she has you

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
can't say the same about u but we'll
see if my opinion changes soon

𝗷𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗵𝘂𝗴𝗵𝗲𝘀.
i hope it will

𝗲𝗺𝗺𝗮
sure

***
last time i updated was on jack's birthday so happy pride now ig i love you all soooo much 😭