Biana~

I thought about you today. And how much I screwed up. And how much I-

Never mind.

Like you're reading this anyways.

I wish you were here. But I don't want you to have to go through this. You would never deserve to see the things I see. Sometimes I hate my life, you know? You and Linh were the only good things in it.

And now you're both gone. You're gone. I don't want to admit I miss you. Because saying it would make it true. All too true. Exillium isn't as bad as it was before. But I'm just so angry. This whole thing is so stupid.

So, so, stupid.

Sorry, I just realized I haven't even asked you how you've been. Not very polite of me, huh? So, how have you been? Sometimes I wonder if you miss me as much as I miss you. If you even care at all. I'm still so sorry. I wish I got a chance to fix what I'd said. You're not selfish, I am. You're perfect. And you deserve better than me.

You deserve someone like Dex.

Dex.

The stars looked beautiful tonight. The one good thing about Exillium are the stars. Always so much brighter without the lights or sparkles in the elven cities. The stars remind me of you. Always so beautiful. A light in your darkness.

But always so far away. So unreachable. Always above you. Superior to you and everything you've done. Always reminding you that they deserve more than to look down at our broken earth. That they deserve more than you. So much more than you.

I hate my heart sometimes.

But sometimes I love it.

My heart found you.

I would rather live with my heart broken, then not have you.

Goodnight, Biana. You'll always be the star in my empty night sky.

~Tam

Anddddd that's only the first letter. Get ready for a tear-fest.. 😭