THE UMBRELLA ACADEMY
fraught || five hargreeves x reader

CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX: I WANT TO GO BACK

Written By: peachyhxlland

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You held your gaze without moving. You were unable to feel anything because you were too horrified. It seemed as though the ringing in your ears would never stop. Your eyes were fixated on what was in front of you despite your desire to turn them away.

Luther's dead body laying on Sloane's lap.

While looking down at her husband with grief, Sloane was sobbing hysterically. As tears eventually began to fall from your eyes, you clasped your mouth with one palm. You had to recover from your shock for a time before you could start crying.

Diego and Lila were also present in the room and were horrified by what had happened. With her hands stained with Luther's blood, Allison was sobbing and sitting on the ground.

"Oh my God, Luther." A voice that you recognized as Viktor's came from behind you. Five stood in the middle of you and Viktor. "What happened?" He asked in shock.

"He went to go get ice." Sloane croaked. "I couldn't—he didn't come back. I... I don't know." She couldn't form any words anymore and started weeping.

You wanted to hold someone. You needed someone to hold you. You felt suffocated. You told yourself that dealing with another death was going to be too much for you.

"It must have been him," Lila stated when she noticed the portal's door opened. "The guardian."

Diego nodded. "She's right. Whatever did this had a long curved blade." He informed as he slightly crouched down to check on Luther's wounds.

"How... how can you be sure?" Viktor asked.

"I don't know much, but I know knives."

The ringing grew louder in your ears, and you bent down and clutched your head. 'Stop... stop, stop!' You sobbed quietly. 'This must be a dream. This must be a dream. End it. End it.'

As you tremble in anguish, Five and Klaus assisted you in standing up. Despite the fact that he could see you were making some progress and moving on, Five was aware of your continued vulnerability to the subject of death. The fact that Luther passed away didn't help.

"This is not real, is it?" You asked as tears continued to stream down your face. "Tell me it isn't real. Please."

"No, (Y/n), sweetie..." Lila said in sadness when she noticed the river of your own tears on your cheeks. "It's... it's real."

You sobbed as you held to Klaus while your eyes were tightly shut. As he grievously stared at Luther, Klaus rubbed your back in comfort.

"Children, what's going on?" Reginald entered the room as Five and Viktor turned around to look at him. Reginald let out a loud gasp. "Oh, God! Luther."

Five looked at Reginald suspiciously, meaning he has figured out who it was who made a deal with him.

"If we attacked first, he would still be alive," Ben stated.

The sound of crashing and breaking down in the lobby caused your eyes to widen. The building started to shake. "Oh, God..." You gasped in realization when you pulled away from Klaus. "Chet and Mr. Pennycrumb!"

Five snapped his head towards your direction until an explosion was heard outside. Ben glanced out the door to observe the commotion outside. In horror, he widened his eyes to see that the hotel was already being destroyed by the Kugelblitz. "G-Guys? Hey, guys!" He yelled and quickly got inside while Five checked what he saw. You stood beside Five and you felt your knees giving in.

"Mr. Pennycrumb..." You softly whispered in horror, your heart aching and shattering at the thought of him being consumed by the Kugelblitz. You and Five exchanged looks, devasted that the two of you were unable to save the dog you both loved so much.

"What are we gonna do with Luther?" Sloane asked loudly.

Reginald made a hasty approach to the doorway to another world. "Into the passage! It's the only way!" He exclaimed. As soon as the tunnel opened, Ben and Lila went inside.

When Viktor noticed Diego picking up a weapon, he immediately stopped him. "You agreed to stay!" He reminded Diego.

"They killed Luther, all right?" Diego replied and hurried through the door. Sighing, Viktor went inside after him.

"Come on, children! Hurry!" Reginald exclaimed in hurry.

Sloane shook her head as she stayed on the floor. "We can't leave him." She whispered.

Allison quickly knelt down to face Sloane. "We go now, or we're gonna die." She stated.

"No, God!"

"Yes, yes, we have to go! Come on."

Sloane stared down at Luther for a moment before giving him one last kiss. She was helped into the tunnel by Allison, who then hauled her up. You stayed behind along with Klaus, Five, and Reginald. Klaus took hold of your hand. "Baby sis, come on!"

You looked up at him in panic and Klaus gave you a reassuring smile. "I'll follow, I promise. I'll be there." He gave you a long kiss on the forehead before helping you get on the tunnel. "Hurry!" Klaus encouraged.

"Go, go, go!" Reginald kept yelling.

Klaus turned to face Five, grabbing his arm. "Come on! What are you waiting for?" He exclaimed to his brother.

Five glared at Reginald. "This isn't over!"

As soon as Five got inside, Reginald stood by the door. "Get in the tunnel!" Klaus yelled before being stopped by Reginald. "Wait!" Reginald exclaimed.

Klaus looked at him in confusion. "What? What are you doing?"

"You've done a fine job bringing me back into the family fold," Reginald stated in a hurry. "You're just more trouble than you're worth. Sorry, Klaus."

Reginald shoved Klaus away and instantly closed the door. "No, Dad!" Klaus screamed. He was too late. The door locked as soon as Reginald shut it, making it impossible for Klaus to enter from the other side.

Nevertheless, Klaus sprang up and made an unsuccessful attempt to open the door. He strained until he gave up. "Shit!" He yelled out loud. Klaus turned to face the white buffalo head hanging on the wall after taking a quick look at Luther's body.

Klaus cast a quick glimpse at the Kugelblitz that was now approaching the room so he quickly ran to the white buffalo decor, jumped up, and spun around while spreading his arms wide. When Klaus felt the white buffalo's horn pierce right through his chest, he cried out in pain. Before the Kugelblitz could take him, he took his last breath and stared into nothingness.

Meanwhile, you and the others cautiously walked through the tunnel into the other dimension. You felt claustrophobic with the tunnel being brightly lit up and covered in mirrors. Because of your disorganized mental state, it was difficult for you to focus.

The majority of you emerged from the tunnel once Lila finally kicked the door open. You saw the same room from before but different at the same time. Now that the white buffalo head decoration has altered, its buttock and tail are in view.

While Lila and Diego were checking outside the room, Viktor panted. "Let's never do that again."

"What, narrowly escape the apocalypse?" Five questioned.

"It's kind of our thing, isn't it?" Diego replied as he walked away from the door. Waiting for Klaus to arrive, you cast your gaze toward the tunnel. 'He promised...' You clutched on his dog tag, pleading for him to be here.

Allison stared at the white buffalo's buttock decor. "There's something very wrong about that." She commented.

"Same suite, just ass-backward," Lila explained.

"No hyperbole there." Five added.

"This is some hardcore Alice in Wonderland shit," Ben replied as he lightly played with the tail.

"Yeah, it only gets weirder," Diego muttered.

You gasped in shock as Reginald sprung from the runnel and shut the door behind him right away. Out of breath, Reginald panted. "At last, the other side."

"Wait. Where's Klaus?" You asked in worry, your heart racing. 'No, no, no...'

"Children, I'm sorry, but your brother... I did all I could, but he didn't make it through in time." Reginald said in fake sympathy. "The Kugelblitz has claimed its last victim."

"No, he was right behind me when I entered the tunnel." Five argued.

"We need to go back." You walked towards Reginald but Reginald shook his head. "There's nothing to go back to."

"I want to go back." You hissed, your eyes blazing red as tears streamed down your face.

"(Y/n)," You were pulled away from Reginald by Diego, who put down his weapon and gripped your shoulder. "Come on, calm down."

"Children, there will be time for tears later," Reginald announced. "Right now, we have to keep moving." He rushed out of the room, leaving the others in the room.

Viktor shook his head in disbelief. "Wait. Luther and Klaus?"

The others were silent as they mourned for those who had passed away. You shook your head as you made your way to the tunnel door and leaned your forehead against it. Because of all the crying, you were severely dehydrated as you grieved. You held onto Klaus' dog tag. "H-He promised..." You cried out. "Klaus promised he'll follow. H-He promised he'll be here."

You turned around as you clutched your hands on your arms, in an effort to hug and comfort yourself. "He promised. He promised. He promised..." You repeated quietly. Without caring if the others were shocked to see him hugging someone, Five sprinted over to you and gave you a tight hug. He couldn't care less in the slightest. He was concerned about how torn up you were.

When he heard your broken wails and felt your nails clawing at his back, Five clenched his jaw. His two brothers had also passed away, thus he was unable to offer any consoling words. He thought that you would feel at least a little lighter after his hug and stop being so miserable.

Your sobbing intensified as you knelt down on the ground, and Five knelt down next to you while still holding you as if you were a porcelain doll that may break at any moment. As he hugged you, Viktor joined the embrace out of sorrow and rubbed your back to soothe you. Diego put his hand on your shoulder as he sighed and bent down. With more remorse written all over her face than before, Allison took a short shaky breath and then did the same thing with Diego. Sloane and Lila joined the embrace right away. Ben was standing by himself and was observing the situation.

It broke his heart to hear your sobs. This is a new sensation for him. Ben had no idea that a simple cry could make his heart feel like it was being torn to bits. However, it wasn't a simple cry. It was heavy. It hurt and was torturous. It was agonizing. Ben laid a hand on your back while he let out a loud sigh. Although he was cold, an asshole, and a hard shell to crack, he still felt sympathy. Ben had no idea how to soothe you, so he just gave your back a gentle rub.

Five quickly became aware of your receding cries after a few minutes. While Five continued to hold you, the others started to disperse. Your head was resting against his cheek and Five shifted a little to view your face. Your own tears dried on your cheeks, leaving stains. Your eyes were all red and puffy as you stared into nothingness.

And as Five assumed, he saw your eyes were lifeless, emotionless, and dull. Your eyes seemed to have lost their hue. As if you were dead. But Five knew you were still alive and breathing.

But everybody knew how you felt on the inside. Both lifeless and numb.

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I WAS A CRYING MESS AFTER WRITING THIS CHAPTER. I placed myself in the show (like I was in the show) so what I felt about the episode, I write it down as (Y/n)'s. I was in an emotional wreck with this episode and almost attacked the television screen.

Say it with me: Fuck you, Sir Reginald Hargreeves! <33

p.s. I'm actually surprised how most of you assumed that (Y/n) was going to die in this chapter lmao