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For: @Repressed-Emo
Warning: Angst.

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Today 00:16

Hey, doll. Just wanted to say hi. I know it's late and all but I couldn't stop thinking about you. It's like that everyday for me.

Anyway... the boys are good. They're really enjoying school now and their teachers said they're coping really well. Which is great.

They just miss you.

And I miss you too.
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Yesterday 23:58

Hey, doll. Just wanted to say hi. I know it's kinda late and all but I couldn't stop thinking about you. It's like that everyday for me.

Anyway... the boys are good. They're really enjoying school now and their teachers said they're coping really well. Which is good.

They just miss you.

And I miss you too.

Today 07:19

I know you would reply if you could. Don't worry about it. I'm not upset.

Today 21:00

Bronx drew a family portrait at school today. He was so proud of it; you would be proud of it, too. It has all of us in it, even the dogs. Oh, and he drew you as an angel – which is really fitting 'cause that's what you are to us.

He left it on the table next to your side of the bed so that you can see it when you come back.

So come back soon, okay?

Please.
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Sunday 23:58

Hey, doll. Just wanted to say hi. I know it's late and all but I couldn't stop thinking about you. It's like that everyday for me.

Anyway... the boys are good. They're really enjoying school now and their teachers said they're coping really well. Which is good.

They just miss you.

And I miss you too.

Yesterday 07:19

I know you would reply if you could. Don't worry about it. I'm not upset.

Yesterday 21:00

Bronx drew a family portrait at school today. He was so proud of it; you would be proud of it, too. It has all of us in it, even the dogs. Oh, and he drew you as an angel – which is really fitting 'cause that's what you are to us.

He left it on the table next to your side of the bed so that you can see it when you come back.

So come back soon, okay?

Please.

Today 22:00

The latest episode of (your favorite show) was INSANE! I recorded it for you so you can watch it later.
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Monday 07:19

I know you would reply if you could. Don't worry about it. I'm not upset.

Monday 21:27

Bronx drew a family portrait at school today. He was so proud of it; you would be proud of it, too. It has all of us in it, even the dogs. Oh, and he drew you as an angel – which is really fitting 'cause that's what you are to us.

He left it on the table next to your side of the bed so that you can see it when you come back.

So come back soon, okay?

Please.

Yesterday 22:01

The latest episode of (your favorite show) was INSANE! I recorded it for you so you can watch it later.

Today 14:37

Saint's class had a 'bring your parents to school' thing today. He was really bummed out that he had to take me instead of you. Clear favouritism, there. Gonna have to have a chat about that.

I told him that if you could've been there, you would've. So... make it up to him, okay?

You've always been the better parent.
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Mon, 27 January 21:27

Bronx drew a family portrait at school today. He was so proud of it; you would be proud of it, too. It has all of us in it, even the dogs. Oh, and he drew you as an angel – which is really fitting 'cause that's what you are to us.

He left it on the table next to your side of the bed so that you can see it when you come back.

So come back soon, okay?

Please.

Tues, 28 January 22:01

The latest episode of (your favorite show) was INSANE! I recorded it for you so you can watch it later.

Wed, 29 January 14:37

Saint's class had a 'bring your parents to school' thing today. He was really bummed out that he had to take me instead of you. Clear favouritism, there. Gonna have to have a chat about that.

I told him that if you could've been there, you would've. So... make it up to him, okay? Maybe take him to the waterpark or something.

You've always been the better parent.

Today 21:53

Just found both of the boys crying in their beds.

They miss you.
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Tues, 28 January 22:01

The latest episode of (your favorite show) was INSANE! I recorded it for you so you can watch it later.

Wed, 29 January 14:37

Saint's class had a 'bring your parents to school' thing today. He was really bummed out that he had to take me instead of you. Clear favouritism, there. Gonna have to have a chat about that.

I told him that if you could've been there, you would've. So... make it up to him, okay? Maybe take him to the waterpark or something.

You've always been the better parent.

Thur, 6 February 21:53

Just found both of the boys crying in their beds.

They miss you.

Today 22:48

Please come back.

Please.
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Wed, 29 January 14:37

Saint's class had a 'bring your parents to school' thing today. He was really bummed out that he had to take me instead of you. Clear favouritism, there. Gonna have to have a chat about that.

I told him that if you could've been there, you would've. So... make it up to him, okay? Maybe take him to the waterpark or something.

You've always been the better parent.

Thur, 6 February 21:53

Just found both of the boys crying in their beds.

They miss you.

Sat, 15 February 22:48

Please come back.

Please.

Today 00:33

I love you.
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"You want another?" Pete asked, holding up his empty beer bottle and sliding off of his seat.

"Yeah, thanks," Joe nodded, handing his bottle to his friend to toss away.

Pete obliged, walking off into the kitchen area. He'd left his cellphone on the tabletop, unlocked. The bright screen caught Joe's eye, and he chewed on his lip as he debated over whether or not to look through it.

From the second Joe had stepped into the house, he could tell that his friend was distracted, his mind clearly a million miles away. That wasn't uncommon for Pete, but this kind of aloofness was different, unlike the bassist's usual day-dreaminess.

It only worsened when the pair sat down to have a drink. Pete paid virtually no attention to anything Joe had said to him; he didn't even make an effort to pretend to listen. All he did was sit there, thumbing through his phone and taking occasional sips from his beer.

So now that there was an opportunity to find out why, of course Joe was going to take it.

Reaching over the table, the guitarist hastily snatched up the device, quickly searching for an explanation as to his friend's inattentiveness.

But when he found it, he wished that he hadn't.

"What are you doing?" Pete asked accusatorily, frowning as he rushed forward.

Joe lifted his head to look at his friend. "I think the question should be: what are you doing?"

Angrily, Pete grabbed his phone from Joe's hand, grumbling under his breath. "That's none of your fucking business."

"Are you kidding?" Joe gawked, "Dude, you're my best friend; your self-destruction is my business."

"It's not self-destruction."

"She's been dead for almost two years, Pete."

Pete snapped. "You don't think I know that?" he hissed, "You don't think I- FUCK!"

He lashed out, kicking one of the chairs, sending it skidding across the floor. Letting his emotions out in full force, the bassist sat himself down, holding his head in his hands as the tears fell.

"I just miss her so fucking much."

"I know, man, I know," Joe whispered, rubbing his friend's back soothingly as he moved to stand sit next to him.

"We all do. And I know it's hard, but you've gotta be strong. Not for you, but for them," Joe pointed a finger upstairs, "Your boys. Her boys This, what you're doing..." he pushed the cellphone across to the other side of the table, "It's not healthy, Pete. You're killing yourself. They already lost their mother, don't let them lose you, too."

After a little while and some sniffling, Pete straightened up, wiping the wetness off of his face with the hem of his t-shirt.

"You're right," he said softly, nodding lightly. He then looked to his friend with a crooked grin. "Knew there was a reason I keep you around."

Joe rolled his eyes and stood up. "Yeah," he scoffed, "you keep me around."

Pete laughed softly. "Hey, you hungry?"

"I could eat."

"Alright could you grab the boys for me? We can try out that new steakhouse on main."

Joe held his hands up, clearly thrilled. "So no more."

Watching his friend head up the stairs, Pete drew in a deep breath. Once Joe was out of sight, he reached for the phone and began typing one last message to you.

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Thur, 6 February 21:53

Just found both of the boys crying in their beds.

They miss you.

Sat, 15 February 22:48

Please come back.

Please.

Yesterday 00:33

I love you.

Today 19:28

Love of my life. I know that there's no way you could ever read this, and I know that you're not coming back. I know that being without you will never get easier. But most of all, I know that you'll always be with us, watching over us, loving us. And we promise to never stop loving you. You were the best thing that has ever happened to me; you saved me, you made me a better man and best of all, you gave me the two greatest gifts I could've ever asked for. I made a promise to you a long time ago to be the best father I could be, and I'm promising you now that I will always make good on my word. For you. Because you always made sure you were the best version of yourself – for us. I could never thank you enough for that. I love you, doll.

I will love you until the end of time.
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