tw: swearing??
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someone out there must have hated you real bad.

that was the only thing in your mind as you tossed around again, trying to sleep.

since that fight with the shredder it looked like your racing thoughts had gotten thousands times worse; you couldn't sleep more then four hours at night and you were pretty sure you were starting to go crazy.

it all started when one morning you had got up from your bed earlier then usual, you had used your feet to drag you towards the bathroom and you had stopped yourself in front of the sink, still looking down.

you opened the water cupping your hands under it before splashing your face with the cold liquid like every day.

it was your way of 'really' waking you up.

you had put your arms in both sides of the sink before tilting your head up to look at yourself in the mirror.

your breath had got caught in your throat as you looked at your reflection.

your pupils weren't round anymore, they were splitted.

your skin had started to take a greenish color and your face had slowly deformed.

your heart was beating like it had never done before, you almost screamed at the sight of your new face quickly scraping it with your hands.

but after some seconds you slowly put them back down just to realise that everything was normal.

you were still, you.

you had moved your face near the mirror to look at everything, trying to see any difference but nothing.

you had sighed before letting out a little laugh, that sounded more hysterical then happy.

you had took a deep breath before slowly walking out of the little room ready to pretend like nothing had happened.

since that moment you started to have those vision even more, everywhere you went.

some times you looked down at your hands only to see them transforms, you had to move your eyes elsewhere and distract yourself to make it stop.

it kept on happening and you didn't know what to do to make it stop, it was tiring.

still there were some positive things about those days, for example your leg was completely healed.

the boys had gave you a really bad lecture as soon as you had woken up, telling you all about how you should've told them about it and how worried they all were for you.

it was a pain in the arse, but you knew they were right.

after some hugs here and there to make all of them realise that you were all safe donnie had took another look at all of your injuries.

he told you that your leg would've healed a lot faster if you didn't kept on reopening the cut everyday by fighting.

he followed his sentence with an hard glare in your direction that had made you nervously chuckle while looking down ashamed.

the rest was almost all good and now, after all those days, you could say that you were good, except for some livid here and there.

you spent that times taking good care of the turtles, looking at their plastron and their shells everyday to make sure that they were all healing too.

they appreciated it, you had always been the more stressed about the others well being and they were more than happy to help you calm those nerves by making you looking after them.

still it wasn't enough and that's way that night you found yourself looking up at the ceiling, again.

you had had some sort of deja vu as your mind took you back to months prior when you were thinking about how different your life could've been.

in this period of time your mind changed and you found yourself thinking everyday a little more about how easier it would've been if master splinter hadn't found you.

if he had left you to some one else, to someone human.

and you felt bad asking that to yourself.

so you pretended like everything was fine, until you closed the doors of your room and it was just you and yourself, no one else.

until your mind had nothing that stopped it from breaking you.

-☆彡

you didn't know that, on that day, someone else was having trouble sleeping.

splinter had just woke up, his erratic breathing echoing in his room, he could feel his deep breaths like they were in his brain.

he looked in front of him not daring to move as he tried to calm himself.

'it was just a dream' he repeated again and again in his head.

but to him he looked real, too real.

the way all his sons had fight till the end, protecting one another.

he had watched as they died one after an other, and he couldn't do anything about it.

but the worst part was when he saw who was killing his children, the shredder.

even in his sleep his enemy found ways to torment him, and this time he had gone deep, too far.

he had took you.

in his dream when splinter had turned around, facing the shredder a shadow could be seen behind him, and you had come out.

you had been covered in blood but he had knew it hadn't been yours; and when he had watched the shredder put and hand on your shoulder and murmuring something in your ears he had knew that it had been you.

you had killed his sons.

he looked at you slowly walking towards him, your eyes dark and angry.

your warm energy had left completely leaving only darkness and the shredder had took advantage of it,making you take his side.

splinter knew that it was just a dream.

but he felt like there was something telling him that it had some truth behind it, that it wasn't something made only from his conscious but it was a true possibility.

so he had to prevent it.

that was his exact thought when he decided to stop all of you from going up to the surface.

"where are you going?"

"heading out for our evening patrol." answered leo.

"there will be no patrol." responded your sensei really serious.

you and leo looke at him not understanding what was happening.

"last time you fought the shredder, you barely escaped with your lives." he responded making you cringe at the thought.

"but, sensei, next time, we'll be ready."  said raphael.

your sensei took his sons in his arms, not in the kind way that a father should, but in a way that he couldn't escape and his wrist was bend to hurt.

raphael's name came out of your mouth before you could think and you watched in horror as splinter ignored you talking over you.

"yes because you will stay down here until you are ready. no patrol, no games, no rest. there is only training! starting now!"

he let go of your friend pushing him towards you and his brothers, he fall in your arms and you tried your best to hold him up.

he turned around and you all looked at the sensei scared.

"to the dojo!" he screamed making you run to the room in question.

he proceed to make you all train as hard as he could, all night, without stopping. 

you felt like if you blinked you would've fall asleep and you were sure the only think keeping you up was the stressed face of the other brothers.

they all stand still around you, they looked almost afraid maybe because it was the first time you were training like that.

them against you.

"sensei are you sure this is a good idea-" the little look you gave in donnie direction as soon as he said those words was full of love and you tried to tell him that it was okay, that there probably was a reason behind all of it.

he grunted moving his head from left to right in a hard but little motion before hearing his sensei talking back with a 'yes'.

you took a deep breath before they all jumped at you.

you were too tired to fully understand and the only thing that you could remember vividly from the fight was that you lost it.

you were about to leave the dojo, done with all of that.

"where are you going?" he angrily questioned.

"to get some water" you responded unsure.

"no water, you need more training, you all do" he shouted.

"more, sensei?" tried to say mikey from his place down on the ground, you melted at the tiredness in his voice.

"yes, more! there is no intention in your strikes. do it again! we will practice all night if we have to."

you groaned under your breath, tilting your head down.

"we have been practicing all night." made him notice donatello.

"pizza" you heard mikey murmur.

you turned around just to see him asleep, he was snoring and everything and it made you smile a little.

the way he could fall asleep everywhere at anytime was almost fascinating.

"wake him up!"

"gladly" said raphael before doing just what his sensei said.

he took mikey by his upper half and with a movement he throw him on the other side, efficiently waking him up.

"the shredder" you heard him scream scared and you crouched near him taking his head in your hand.

you made him look at you in the eyes before kindly smiling hoping to give him comfort.

"it's okay mikey you were just having a nightmare"

at your voice mikey's eyes grow big, you were making him feel something that he thought he could never experience.

a type of love different from the kind he was sure could be seen in raphael's eyes right now.

he was feeling comforted and it made him feel a lot better.

was that what a mother's love feels like? or was it just your big sister's instinct acting up?

he didn't know but it was sure that he loved the way you were holding him, like he would break if you held a little to strong.

you let go of his head just to let him take leo's hand to get up.

"aren't we all?" asked leo.

right, while for mikey it felt like hours it had been a seconds and you all were still in the dojo begging for a break.

you heard a pained sound from behind you and you turned around just to see raph holding his side and donnie painting slightly.

"sensei, can we rest for a sec?" asked donnie who had just woke his brother from the heart eyes that he was sending in your direction.

"rest?" questioned master splinter pretending to think about it before angrily raising his voice "the shredder will not rest until you are all dead!"

you felt something click inside you and you were sure if death stare could kill he would have been dead long before.

"sensei, we've been training nonstop for weeks with hardly any sleep. they need a break." talked leo doing a step to get in front of you, blocking yours sensei from seeing your expression.

"oh, like you don't?" snarky remarked raphael making you connect back with reality.

"that's right, raph. i don't."

"oh please leo, if i wasn't half as tired as i am right now i would've kicked your ass, something i've never done more then twice a month." you said from  between the two brothers.

leo shrugged in response dismissing you with an hand.

"you're wrong, i don't need. a break." he marked the last words looking at raph to make his point.

"ah, well, then, i'll give you one." replied the red masked turtle.

"oh yeah right, because you definitely aren't about to fall asleep like mickey did five seconds ago" you talked not moving from your spot while blocking them from one another.

"enough!" shouted your sensei again making you all flinch "if I were the shredder, none of you would be breathing right now. understand?"

then he took in your appearance and the way you were all breathing heavily.

"perhaps a brief rest is in order. we will resume later." he said and you took both raph and leo by their shell to drag them out of here.

"let's go boys" you sing-songed with a smirk making donnie and mickey follow right behind you.

you pushed them in the living room before taking the remote from the ground.

you turned on space heroes and you threw the object in your hand against leo almost hitting him in the face.

no, definitely hitting him in the face.

"ouch, [name]! what was that for?" he asked holding his head while looking at the screen.

"to prove my point, you need rest." you remarked making raph chuckle from his place on the sofa.

he was with one of his arms on the back of the couch, the other down on his stomach, his legs slightly opened as he fully relaxed.

"and don't think i'm not talking about you too, you hothead" you pointed a finger in his direction and he smirked.

"shut up and come here, you need rest too"

"oh yeah?" you asked slowly walking towards him.

"yeah, we definitely kicked your butt." he said before opening his arms to make you sit right near him.

"if you say so" you chanted while ignoring his silent request walking right behind the sofa.

"oh i know so-" he tried to  say before you took his head and put a finger under his chin just like splinter had teached you.

he started to make exaggerated pained sound and leo tried to shush him while mikey laughed on the floor and donnie snickered looking at the both of you.

"say it!" you screamed between your laughs.

"al right, all right, we all need rest"

you continued, letting him know you wanted to hear more.

"you were amazing and i was stupid because i sucked" he said starting to laugh himself.

"and...." you teased.

"you are thousand times better than all of us and we should all kneel for you cause you deserve it" he said all in one breath and you finally let him go.

"there you go" you said snickering after kissing his cheek.

you didn't know why you did that but it came natural, and with time you had learned to trust your instincts.

you jumped over the sofa before sitting right next to him like he had asked you to do before, missing the blush that appeared on his face.

after some times the laughter died down and you looked at donnie as he got up.

you made eye contact and he groaned as he noticed the begging look you were sending him.

"what?" he asked pretending to be mad.

"water please" you begged with puppy eyes.

"alright" he replied before walking in the kitchen.

your request was followed by three 'me too' screamed from around you and you chuckled as donnie growled back at them.

"it's all right dee, no need to get your pants in a twist" teased raphael making you jokingly hit him behind his head.

"shush guys, this episode is epic!" said leo still not moving his eyes from the tv.

"oh really? here i thought you were watching it for the twelfth time just because it sucked " you said as mickey continued to laugh, the sound filling the room.

a smile was evident in all your faces even on donnie's while he walked back in, as he had herd everything from the other room.

he gave you the glass keeping the other for himself making all the brothers mad as he had thought only about you and him.

he didn't sit down, instead going into his lab.

"try to get some rest" you screamed making him fake nod, he didn't even tourn around, just looking in front of him as he walked towards the door of his lab.

"if you don't i'll make the boys point all their hits at you for the rest of the month."

"yes ma'am" he said nervously stopping himself from doing another step.

you nodded proudly to yourself making him walk faster to his place.

raph gave you a little push on the side and you moved your focus on him, he pointed the item on your side and you took the comic to put it in his hands.

you got up from your place and he looked at you confused as he watched you walk away.

leo finally moved his eyes from the screen only to share one of his famous knowing glance with mikey.

nothing was said as leo continued to look interested at the screen while practicing some moves with his katanas.

you walked back in moment after and you tried your best to keep everything in your hands balanced.

you gave the boys their glass of water, the first was mikey as he was the one sitting more near the kitchen.

the second was leo who didn't even looked at you, muttering a thanks.

and the last one was raph, after you gave him his glass you put your hand in your shirt.

he looked at you really lost, not knowing what was going on.

seconds after you gave him the answer as you took out spike from under it letting him stay on raphael's laps.

the noise from the tv was a nice background sound and neither you or raph noticed that mikey had left the three of you alone.

raphael looked at you, you were still up on your feet in front of him and the darkness of your home made the light of the screen even more coloured.

and he swore that you looked beautiful with those coloured light hitting you from the back, you looked almost magical with all those flash.

you smiled softly at him tilting your head questioningly.

he realised he had been staring and he gently moved his head from left to right 'nothing' was what he wanted to say, but that movement was enough.

your expression didn't change as you opened your mouth, your voice low to not disturb the leader in blue that was still in the room.

"i'm gonna check on dee, alright?"

he hummed dismissing you and you walked out leaving him and his brother alone, only one thing on his mind.

was it normal to think your were really, really pretty?

-☆彡

spending time with donnie was refreshing.

he liked to talk a lot about his inventions and you loved hear i'm ramble about whatever was in his genius mind.

even if sometimes could be some really stupid idea.

another thing that you liked about staying alone with him was that he also liked silence, you both did.

you could go from talking for an hour straight to blank silence and you were both comfortable like that, no need to do small talks to keep the awkward silence away, cause it wasn't awkward it was normal.

that was exactly what had happened that morning, you had went there in his lab and he had started to talk about the last adjustment that he wanted to add to his go-kart.

you set on the chair near his desk, listening to every world he said adding your own thoughts and idea.

but after some time the whole night of training came crushing down on you and when donnie asked for you to pass him some weird scientist thing he found you asleep.

he smiled, he knew that you had fall asleep just for all the tiredness  and he took a blanket before walking to put in on you.

he turned around resuming his work humming to himself one of those songs that you had made him obsess over.

you woke up not even an hour after and when you realised what had happened you tried to say your sorry to him, worrying that he had thought that you were too bored to listen to him.

he chuckled at your nervous self calmly explaining how he understood and you remained on the chair keeping the blanket as near as you could.

"did you get some rest?" you asked, sleepiness still evident in your voice.

he nervously chuckled.

"i- i drank some water?" he replied

you replied with a little laugh, finally getting up from his chair.

you put the blanket on the desk before stretching to make sure every part of your body was awake.

you walked towards him, he was laying on the ground down on his shell and his head was all under the go-kart that he was still working on.

you crouched near him just about to ask him something about his project before you heard commotions from the other room.

"'does mikey bend that way?come here, you!" you heard a voice shout, followed by some screams that you knew came from michelangelo.

donnie pushed himself out sitting up to look at you with the same confusion.

moments after the three brothers walked in, and none of you dared to ask what happened.

"you're still working on that go-kart?" questioned raph as he noticed you and his brother near the little car in question.

"it's not a go-kart. it's an all-terrain patrol buggy with detachable sidecars." explained donnie taking the blueprint from the floor to show it to his brother.

mikey looked at what was happening in front of him.

"dude, hasn't splinter been riding us hard enough? you gotta find a way to relax." he asked confused.

"we all deal with stress in different ways, mikey." replied leonardo and you nodded in agreements.

"yeah, and this is how i deal." said donnie.

"and this is how I deal." added mikey before throwing a water balloon towards leo only for him to duck down and hit donnie in the face.

some droplets fell on you and for a second you thought you saw them change to a color a little to similar to mutagen.

you shook your head pretending like nothing happened as you continued listening to the conversation.

donnie was currently trying to catch mickey around the lab and as mikey escaped your heard him scream a warning.

"[name], leo, you're next! doctor prank-enstein makes house calls!"

"just try it mickey and you'll see" you screamed back, following your statements with a laugh as leo rolled his eyes.

-☆彡

"raph, hoko no kamae!" scolded him leo as he tried to made you all train.

you had copied leo's move with his brothers bringing your hands up in the air but raph didn't, being already to tired.

"hoko no way." he replied crossing his arms "it's bad enough splinter's driving us into the ground. now you too?"

"oh my god" you murmured bringing an hand to cover your face as they got in each other faces ready for the talk.

"we have to keep training, because, right now, we don't stand a chance against shredder. "

"yeah, and he's up there somewhere waiting for us! i just freaked myself out!" talked mickey before side hugging you as he became scared.

you patted his head keeping him close.

"i hate to say it, but the fact that we've been laying low might be the only reason we're still alive." added his point donnie making you nod in agreement.

you remembered too well how it ended the last time and the scar on your tight helped you with that.

the boys all gave you a side glance still worried about your well being.

"exactly, so until we're ready, we stay down here."

"unfortunately, that's not an option." suddenly april's voice could be heard in the room and you turned in her direction.

she had a worried look on your face and you understood the seriousness of the situation.

"i'll go get splinter." was the only thing you said before you all found yourself in the living room.

you could hear the voices of the foot clan through april's phone and you all quietly listened to it.

"we're meeting shredder tonight. he's got a plan to destroy the turtles."

"how? he doesn't even know where they are."

"he says they're in the sewers somewhere, and that's all he needs to know to wipe them out."

if mickey was scared before you could only imagine how scared he was now and you took his head in your hand making him lay it on your shoulder as your heart beated faster and faster.

"our home is no longer safe. the shredder must be stopped." suddenly said master splinter.

mikey went out of your grasp and you ignored it looking at the others.

"how can we stop a plan we don't even know?" asked leo before making esplode the water balloon in mickey's hand.

"we have to go topside, and find out what they're planning." said raphael and you could see the determination in his eyes making your fast heart beat relax a bit, if anything happened you knew you had your family to protect you.

and maybe a kunoichi.

"raph's right. there's no other way."

"then what are we waiting for?" you smirked looking at leo and they all nodded, ready for the fight.

-☆彡

going to shredder's hide out was easy, so hiding in the corner was a full yes from the turtles even if your gut was telling you no for the thousandth time.

'why couldn't they shut up?' you thought as you pushed mickey in front of you to let him walk.

"donnie, you're crowding me." said raphael and only then you realised how close you were.

you heard donnie mutter a 'sorry' and without looking behind you to see them you tried to do a step forward afraid of annoying raphael too.

you felt two hand on your sides that made you jump a little, they were up your waist to not gave you any sense of discomfort.

you gave a look to raphael from up your shoulder and he looked right into your eyes.

"you can" he murmured before you both looked at the little distance between you two.

raphael's cheeck took a red tint but you missed it as you let out a nervous laugh moving your focus on the front.

you watched mickey jump to the side at a little sound and you put an hand on his shoulder as everyone looked at him.

"sorry, all that splinter talk about how we're not ready has me thinking maybe we're in over our heads." he talked while fully turning towards you.

"you're always in over your head." replied raph trying to calm down his brothers nerves as best as he could.

"i'm saying now we all are! and that scares me." replied michelangelo.

"it's okay to be scared, mikey. raph is scared, too." leo's voice was soothing and lovely and you admired him as he took care of his brother's fear.

"i am not scared." replied raph after giving you a side glance, he walked on the front near leonardo and you watched as a smirk became more evident on the leader's face.

he touched raph behind his head and you chuckled as he let out a high pitched scream.

what none of you thought about was that a ninja needs to be sneaky, your chaos had caught the attenion of the new mutant and he walked around the corner with an intimidating walk.

"you should be." he said making you all jump scared. "look what i found. four soon-to-be-ex-turtles." he laughed menacingly.

"they always forget about me" you murmured still petrified.

"i would be happy if i were you, cause now i'm sure glad it's okay to be scared." added mickey.

"you and me both." replied donnie.

"this is no time to panic. okay, maybe a little." you heard leo say as you kept your eyes on the dog-like silhouette in front of you.

"he keeps getting taller!" added mickey.

"then we'll cut him down to size." said leo before jumping trying to fight against the dog, you followed after him with the sword in your hand.

but after some seconds you  both  had to go back near the turtles, bradford still up in his feet.

"uh, let's stick together on this one." talked leonardo.

"definitely" you agreed.

you couldn't tell if you had fought for seconds or hours but sooner or later you were all on the ground again bradford still without a scratch.

"this is hopeless." donnie's voice was desperated and your heart broke a little at the sound of that.

"keep your head in the game." replied leo, you could tell he was scared to but he had to be strong for you and his brothers.

you quickly went out of the way with a yelp when you saw bradford's fist in the corner of your eyes.

"i just want to keep my head on my body." said sarcastically donatello.

"come on, what are we retreating for?" asked raphael before launching himself towards the 'dog', seconds after he was in the dumpster "that's a good reason".

"mikey, smoke!" talked leo asking his brother for a quick escape.

you kept your eyes in front of you focusing on the fight and that was enough to keep you safe.

until an hand caught your wrist and the purple fog appeared from the egg just in time to save you all.

-☆彡

it felt pointless to say that you were all ashamed, you had sucked.

you could tell leo was in the worst shape as he felt like a failure to the whole team, a lot of bad thoughts in his mind as he looked around at everyone's sad face.

you walked towards them and they all looked at you from their place on the couch.

"it's okay" you gently murmured, your voice felt like honey to raph hears as he kept an hand on leo's shoulder.

"no it's not" angrily replied leo.

splinter and april followed your path at the sound of that and everyone was looking at him as he continued

"we couldn't take him."

"dogpound was just too powerful." mickey's expression hold sadness something you had hoped you would've never saw again.

"dogpound?" you and leo asked together, a little smirk on your face as you had hoped that this would've helped change michelangelo's mind.

"what? 'cause he's a dog, and he pounded us into the-" you smile faded as you looked at his still sad face.

"we get it." sternly replied leo before you shoved him on the side, his focus moved from his brother to you and he looked at you with confusion for only a second before realising and replying with a little nod.

"i don't see how we're gonna get close to that meeting now."

at leo's words his three brothers looked down to their feet, shame feeling them.

april didn't understand, you had always been there ready to fight.

you and the turtles had always made it clear that you would've all followed each other everywhere and now you were gonna gave up like that?

why? just because a dog kicked your shell? no, she couldn't let you be like this

she looked right into your eyes and for a second she had doubts about her actions, you looked so...tired.

she looked around, looking again at the brothers and she noticed that they where all like this.

when was the last time you all got a good night of sleep?

a look of determination came to her face, a look that you noticed in a second.

looking at each other thousands of words were said and you nodded back to one another both ready as donnie finished saying his little comment.

"-this time of the year."

"we're not letting you guys give up." she said.

mickey looked at her with confusion "we?" he asked, not sure about the redhead's phrase.

"we" you repeated doing a step near her, head up trying to convince yourself that you could do this.

raph thought that he should've been confused about this duo that you created but if there was something he learned about you in all those years was that the safety of everyone was more important than anything to you.

and he knew that deep down you cared about april, even if you had a lot of hatred towards each other.

"we'll spy on the meeting." you added.

raph's head shot up at that, what did you just said?

"no way!" he said with a tone that made it sound a little too much like an order.

"nuh-uh." said mickey

"you can't." leo.

"forget it."  donnie.

"absolutely not!" splinter voice was the only one you didn't expect, he had been silent the whole time but the thought of putting both of you in danger was to much.

and maybe it was also because in his mind the dream was still vivid and the shredder having you as his sidekick wasn't something he wanted to be real.

"i can do this. you've been training me to be a kunoichi, like [name]" april's tone was defensive but some times she knew how to use her voice, you had to give her that.

"for a few weeks."

"what choice do we have? shredder's gonna attack your home, and we need to find out how, and me and [name] are the only one who can do it."

she looked right into your sensei eyes and you copied her slightly angry expression from behind her shoulder.

you needed to save you home, at every cost.

-☆彡

"so you already did this?" you asked to the girl on your right turning your head slightly in her direction.

it was dark outside and it looked like one of those short days in winter were in the late afternoon is already to dark for it to be called a 'day', not that you had ever really experienced that.

you had tried to cover yourself as much as possible and you had almost chuckled at the redhead's expression when she realised that you were dressed almost the same.

the walk to the enemies' lair was silent and slow as the turtles had to make sure that your path was clear.

you liked the silence, you really did.

but sometimes you felt like it was crushing you down and you actually didn't care if april wanted it or not.

so you asked that question to make it look like you were trying to break the ice, when in reality you just wanted to leave the thoughts in your mind behind.

"yes, it was pretty easy actually" she replied smugly, after all this time if she hadn't been putting all herself into making donnie go crazy you would've actually liked her.

you liked how she tried to keep her head up against you, but you liked more that you always won those arguments.

"obviously, if it was hard you wouldn't have succeeded." you teased with a smirk.

she sent a glare your way but you knew that she didn't meant it, she was starting to warm up to you.

"did you asked me that just to insult me?" her tone was accusatory and she looked towards you as you both continued to walk, a little slowly but never stopping.

"maybe yes, maybe no" you sing songed, eyes in front you only moving them to look at her with the corner of your eyes.

silence came over again and you wanted to ask other questions to keep your mind at bait, but she was faster.

"so what's the deal between you and raph?"

you weren't expecting that, not in even in the slightest.

for a second you felt your body stop, but you realised quickly that it was only in your mind.

"god, why everyone's asking me that" you murmured under your breath looking down at your feet.

she made a confused sound asking you to repeat yourself.

you moved your head from left to right.

"what do you mean?" your eyes looked back at her and she noticed how the light of the street made the bags under your eyes even more evident.

"i mean, why aren't you two together?"

alright, what the fuck?

"'cause we're just friends?" you responded as it was obvious, trying to make the girl see the truth.

"uh, or maybe you're just stupid?" teasing was evident in her voice but it felt more like she was telling you scientific proof than a stupid comment.

"careful carrot, you were talking to me not yourself." you replied sternly making her shut up, was she scared of you?

you hoped not, you didn't want her to fear you.

"we're here" she said, and you mentally thanked the universe for putting a stop to that conversation.

she took the pizza box out of her backpack leaving you a little confused before putting a smile on her face and knocking on the door.

as soon as the door opened your face held a smile too.

"hey, did somebody here order a totally delicious pizza?" asked the girl before she found herself talking to the wood.

"looks like the foot clan are smarter than the purple dragons."

"did you got this thanks to the door that they closed on your face?" your smirk hirritated her and you  watched as she grunted before she ran in the alley behind waiting for you to took out your t-phone.

'leo-der' could be read on the screen and you smiled as you remembered him scolding you for giving him a 'shitty nickname'.

he answered immediately and a picture of him looking at the camera could be seen, your middle finger between the phone and his face that held a blank expression.

"thanks, you did your best" was the only thing he said after you had explained the situation.

"at least we've still got the pizza." you heard mickey's voice in the distance making you smile.

"oh, we're not done yet." you said making her nod back.

"that's right" she added before you turned off the call.

april went to throw the pizza in a dumpster but before she could've do anything you stopped her in her tracks taking it and putting it in your backpack.

you turned around giving a thumbs up towards the roof you knew the turtles were hiding, hoping that mickey had seen you.

you and april walked in front of a door and she knocked again.

you pretended to be bored, picking at your nails as the red head talked.

"sir, we're with the firefighters association, local 94. we've received reports of some faulty wiring in this building, so mind if I have a look. see?"

you rolled your eyes walking near the girl as you knew her long speech wasn't gonna get you inside.

"well, i don't think-" started to say the man.

only for it to be stopped by  a "thanks" coming from you, a innocent smile on your face as you ran inside.

meanwhile on the roof donnie fantasised about his friend "she's so cool" he said.

raph knew he was talking about april but he couldn't help but agree, the only difference was that he had you in his mind.

"yeah, don't you think so raph?" teased michelangelo reading right trough his brother's mind.

"shut it" was his only grunted response.

meanwhile you and april got to the roof thanks to the fire escape, you were right near the shredder's lair but you had to jump.

you jumped easily without thinking twice (all those night of patrol had really helped you with that), and you turned around waiting for the girl.

you watched as she looked down and fear became clear in her eyes.

"come on, you never look down it's the first rule" you commented trying to make her mind distract from the height.

she took a deep breath before jumping right near you, she put her hands up to try and balance herself but before you could do anything she fell.

your eyes widened and you throw yourself to the side of the roof, your hands finding april's wrists.

she looked down again, a cat meowing towards her.

"first. rule." you repeated between grunt as you helped her up.

when you finally got her up to her feet you made sure she felt safe before starting to walk, looking in front of you to make sure you didn't copied her action.

you didn't go inside opting to keep watch out to protect her and the turtles.

she came out later exxplaining to you how shredder wanted to put a powerfull acid to destroy everything and you could just hope that the brothers had heard more then you.

running down the fire escape was easier then you thought and you waited for april before looking around.

you hided yourself and her behind the corner when you saw bradford walking by and she dialled the number on her phone, talking with leo as the foot clan prepared to ran away.

"we're gonna hitch a ride, see where they go." she started to say only to be interrupted by leo.

"no, you've done enough. now get out of there!" he responded looking at the both of you from his spot, he noticed how bradford stopped in his track and he turned around ready to attack.

"bradford heard you! [name]! april! run!"  screamed leonardo, you took out your sword getting in front of the girl.

"uh- good boy?" you tried nervously before bradford moved one hand up ready to strike.

you put your sword up in the air, successfully blocking his hand from hurting either of you.

he growled before moving his hand away.

at that, a smart person would've thought about how they couldn't have stopped him hours before, when they were all together.

and so now that they were alone against him, attacks would've never been a good tactic; defend would've been the best option, at least for buying some times for the others to come and help them.

but maybe because everything was happening so fast, or maybe because you were a little afraid, you jumped right at him.

not thinking twice, not thinking at all.

maybe you did last some hits, but after some moments you were blocked in his hand, struggling.

you tried to bite him, but it didn't do much as her teeth weren't enough to do anything on his skin.

he took april too and before you knew it you were throw in the car.

you were both tied up to stop you from moving, a cloth was placed on your mouths to assure that you wouldn't say or scream anything.

april was on the front, near the purple dragons's leader.

and you were on the back, with two ninjas of the foot clan.

when you were throw there you heard bradford comment something like 'she fights hard, best to keep her supervised' and you had to admit that your pride was happy.

the trip wasn't a comfortable one, not even in the slightest.

your hands were working hard behind your back, you tried to take one of your knifes from the side before realising they had took them.

you rubbed your head on your shoulder to move the cloth on your mouth out of the way.

"you know guys, black and red is basic you should change" you commented sarcastically catching the attention of the two ninjas.

they looked at each other confused before looking back at you not really doing anything.

"also you kinda suck-" you started before stopping yourself "no, you definitely suck, like a lot"

they didn't say anything to you but you could feel the tensione increase and you smirked as your plan was put to life.

"i mean, not only you dress like a basic ass ninjas from a kid's drawing, but you also can't fight against four turtles and a girl" you laughed, really really laughed.

"how stupid can you be to be like that, you seriously need to work on your whole self because everything about you is shit-" you almost didn't have time to finish your sentence as one of the ninjas took you from the end of your shirt, bringing you up in your feet, face to face with him.

your smirk was evident now but they kept on not saying anything, not that it actually mattered.

you tilted your head to the side and he copied your movements, you chuckled before gaston bringing your head against his and knocking him out.

you took the knife from his side as you kept his body against yours, your legs slightly opened to keep you balanced.

you saw his 'friend' ready to strike and with your upper half you throw his body against him, you turned the knife in your hand cutting the ropes while he pushed the body away.

you rubbed one hand under your nose as you felt the blood start to drop down.

you rolled the knife in your hand one more time ad he jumped at you, you moved out of the way cutting his side.

he didn't made a sound but you didn't really had time to thought about it as he rejumped at you.

he blocked some of your hits, but yo

suddenly the van stopped and you found yourself  almost losing your balance, he took this opportunity to hit you on your stomach and you doubled over.

you got up again as he was about to it you and you kicked him right back, your feet connecting with his stomach as you throw him against the back doors.

making his body open it.

"basic ass ninjas" you chuckled as you jumped out, smiling happy for your victory.

you heard someone scream your name and you looked up to see donnie and raph run towards you.

you smiled as donnie hugged you, you looked at raphael from up his shoulder and you looked at each other with happiness in your eyes.

"april" you murmured, donnie turned around running towards the front doors before one of those was opened knocking the purple dragon down.

april jumped out and you heard her talk to donnie as he freed her wrists.

you and raphael remained behind, you hugged each other and he put his head against your neck.

"i hate ya" he murmured against your skin and you chuckled as your eyes began to watered.

another day to add to your list of near death experiences.

"missed you too" you replayed before he moved his whole body away from you.

"did ya kicked those foot?" he said tilting his head towards the two bodies.

"those basic kid's ninjas' drawing" you grounded under your breath making raph laugh.

"what?" he asked getting only a 'nothing' in replay.

"wait, where are leo and mickey?"

-☆彡

you ran between the building, raph and donnie on both your sides.

you followed the smell of burn and you finaly met the others two.

mickey throw himself at you and you opened your arms to welcome him; you heard him mutter some thanks.

he had been really afraid.

"why are you always in danger?" he asked making you let out a sad chuckle.

he and leo changed positions as mickey letted you go to hug his brothers.

leo looked into your eyes and he took a little breath before opening his mouth to say something, you talked over him stopping him.

"you were great"

"i was late and you weren't even there" he talked back.

"if you were really late i wouldn't be here" you replayed before crushing him wuth your arms.

you looked uo behind his shoulder only to see michelangelo looking at you, you oushedleo a little beore grabbing mickey's wrist to block him in the hug.

he did the same to his brothers and in a second you were all in a big hug.

and in that moment you felt like you were all together, like you really were a big family.

and when you finally returned home to tell splinter everything you started to feel some piece finally connect.

your sensei apologised to you for tiring you out and making everything worse; you smiled at himwhile mickey divoured pizza and donnie worked on rebuilding his gokart.

raphael feeling like he couldn't keep his eyes away from you.

but even in that happy moment only a question was in your mind.

'how long is this peace gonna last?'

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a/n:
words 8100!!!!
okay this is definitely too much.
after a whole month i'm back so i feel like it's okay that is this long??
anyway i should probably start to contain myself, but don't think i can.
i love writing little episodes between one or more turtles and the reader, they're so cute.
this time donnie had my heart and i don't know why.
hope this it's good.
thank you for your time <33

-sa :)