Non Nunc

Not Now

They were holding the other like never before. Their hearts filled with blissful relief and their lungs worked to calm down their breathing again, for the shock of their confessions had been a huge one.

Jungkook, feeling calmer and relaxed, let his grip hang a little loose around Taehyung's neck and he was just there for a moment, breathing in his scent, feeling his warm chest against his own and his arms loosening a little too to hold his waist with his hands. He felt a kiss on the side of the head, so he kissed him back on his neck.

- What did I tell you? - Taehyung warned him with an audible smile. Jungkook chuckled and leaned back, still close to his face.

- It was the only place within my reach. - He defended himself. They were both smiling. Jungkook held Taehyung's cheek with one hand, and Taehyung turned his head a little to kiss Jungkook's palm before resting his cheek on it. Jungkook kissed him tenderly on the other cheek, and then his phone rang in his bag. - Oh, yeah, the real word. - He muttered as he remembered and he heard Taehyung chuckling.

But when he stretched to the side to grab his bag, he felt Taehyung tensing up. With a giggle, not knowing why he reacted that way, Jungkook took out his phone, but, right when he pressed the green button, Taehyung's hand went under his sweater, making him gasp loudly.

Taehyung's eyes were wide as he felt Jungkook's bare skin; as he felt Jungkook's lack of a shirt. Jungkook giggled with his face all hot and tried to get Taehyung's hand out, but he had grabbed his waist.

- Hello? - He heard a voice coming from his phone and put it against his ear.

- Hi! - Out of nowhere, Taehyung tickled him, and he laughed. - Stop it. - He whispered frantically at him with a wide smile on his face, and Taehyung took his hand out to grab his waist with both hands while he shook his head in disbelief.

- Jungkook? -

- Yes, Emily, sorry. What is it? - He was a little out of breath as he grinned at Taehyung's still disbelieving stare that went down to his hands and up at his eyes again.

- Well... I was going to apologize for being late to lunch but you seem to be... busy, aren't you? - She laughed, and it sounded a little nervous.

- Highly, yes. - He answered with a laugh, and Taehyung lifted one eyebrow. Just one.

- Jungkook... it's just been three days... Who are you with right now? -

Jungkook couldn't pick up the strangeness in her tone.

- I don't want to get into details. - He laughed, as he felt Taehyung's hands going up and down his back like the night before, and his back involuntarily arched as he shook his head at Taehyung, but the latter just smirked. Oooh, whatever he said about rules, this man liked danger, Jungkook could see it in his eyes. - What-- what was it that you wanted to... tell me? - He closed his eyes tightly and took a deep breath with a smirk grabbing hard on Taehyung's shoulder. And, when he opened his eyes to look defiantly at Taehyung, he placed his nails to his neck.

- It was to apologize for being late to lunch, we agreed on meeting at twelve-thirty and it's past one. -

Jungkook relished the way Taehyung's eyes immediately closed and hissed silently as he dragged his nails down his neck. But then Taehyung rapidly caught his hand and stopped him from going any lower.

Jungkook chuckled in disbelief at what Emily had said.

- It's past one. - He whispered and then chuckled as Taehyung's eyes widened between surprise and the want for revenge.- Don't you even think about it. - Jungkook told him frantically. However, that made nothing to Taehyung's smirk.

- I think... I better hang up, right? - She laughed, and Jungkook answered with a strangled sound as he jumped from Taehyung's lap and fell to the floor so the latter couldn't do what his mischievous eyes wanted to do.

- Ok, - He said in a higher voice than usual. He tried to sit up but Taehyung put himself on top of him, like the day before, holding himself on his hands and knees over Jungkook. - Umm... - He swallowed as his heartbeat raised and Taehyung's hand got nearer to the fabric covering his neck, curious. - I... I'll see you later then, ok? -

- Yeah... ok.-

Jungkook laughed a little out of breath and then Taehyung pulled down the turtle neck covering his hickeys, and his eyebrow went up. There was something about him lifting just one that looked so sexy.

- Ok, bye. - He said frantically and then ended the call, making sure that he ended it before leaving his phone beside him on the floor. - You're going to be the death of me. - When Taehyung looked at his eyes they were a little darker.

- Me? - He asked in disbelief and then moved his hand down Jungkook's torso, making him close his eyes and arch his back until his hand went swiftly under his sweater again. - When it is you who doesn't even have a shirt on? -

Jungkook's body jolted.

- I... - He remembered why he decided not to put on a shirt and opened his eyes with a smirk. - ...wanted to see your reaction? -

Taehyung grunted as his hand went slowly up Jungkook's abs. Jungkook's smirk faded with a shudder and held Taehyung's upper arm to stop him, out of breath.

- What happened to the rules? - He smirked as Taehyung's eyes widened a little. He seemed to have forgotten about his own rules. - What happened to "being at the library"? - He taunted, and Taehyung's hand started to move down the way he came but it only made Jungkook jolt again. - I followed the rules, I didn't move out of place for even a second. - Taehyung, out of breath, took his hand out and sat back down where he was, leaving Jungook panting for air on the floor, he was a little lightheaded trying with all his might not to have a boner. He let out a deep breath through his open mouth. - You... - He held himself in his elbows to look at Taehyung. He was biting his lip while looking at him through half-closed eyes. - You like danger, don't you? -

Taehyung got a little startled and let go of his lip to straighten his posture. But Jungkook was having none of that. He went to his knees again, got closer to Taehyung, and, in a swift motion, sat again on Taehyung's lap, right over his crotch. Taehyung's body jolted and he grabbed Jungkook strongly by the waist.

- It was a mistake. It was a mistake. I'm sorry. - He said frantically to Jungkook. - When you moved to get your phone, your sweater moved up a little and it looked like you had no shirt, and then–

- And just to make sure, you moved a hand under my sweater, didn't you? - Jungkook asked with malice as he moved his nails softly down Taehyung's neck. He hissed and closed his eyes, again grabbing Jungkook's hands to stop him.

- Oh, please, no, it really wasn't my intention to--

- To move your hands up and down my back and make me shiver while I was on the phone? - He gritted his teeth with a grin and pushed his hips down in a slow circle.

Taehyung let go of his hands to grab his hips and he placed his forehead on Jungkook's shoulder.

- I know, I know, I'm sorry. - He sounded like he knew it had been bad but he couldn't stop himself. All shyness forgotten, Jungkook smirked as he got closer to his ear and whispered with malice.

- I had a really fun time last night. -

Taehyung stopped breathing and then grunted low while he hugged Jungkook tight around the waist.

- Jungkook, don't. - He warned, but Jungkook wouldn't have any of that, Taehyung made him talk breathlessly on the phone, and the next time he saw his friends he'll have to lie to them about it. He wanted revenge.

- My lip started bleeding again with how hard I was biting it. -

Taehyung jolted, making his hips move up against Jungkook, and it made an electric current go up his spine as he heard Taehyung whimper.

- Don't. Don't. Don't. - He grunted as he leaned back to see Jungkook. The dark stare he saw last night was right here, under the light it looked different, and yet immensely hot. Jungkook opened his mouth to talk again, but Taehyung moved forwards, placing Jungkook on the floor and him on top. - Jungkook, I'm begging you, I don't want to walk to my room with a boner. -

Jungkook smirked, their faces were so close they could kiss.

- I had to do that yesterday. - Taehyung closed his eyes as he breathed deeply, but Jungkook wouldn't let him relax, he leaned into his ear and purred as sensually as he could muster. - Every step was torture. -

Taehyung's arms seemed to fail him and he fell over Jungkook; his forehead against Jungkook's neck, his breathing hard.

- Jungkook... - Taehyung moaned, right on his ear, and Jungkook's eyes closed, resting his head on the floor, also noticing how his leg was in between Taehyung's. That had to be the utmost sexiest thing in the world, to be moaned in that desperate way, to be called so needily, to have the person he wanted to be touched by, begging for him like that.

- Have fun walking back to your room. - He said with his lips against Taehyung's ear, out of breath, with a triumphant grin for having succeeded in his revenge. But then Taehyung growled.

- You're coming with me. -

Jungkook felt ecstatic at the command in Taehyung's voice. He laughed.

- I'm sorry Mr. Wolf but this Red Riding Hood has friends to go back to, maybe another time. -

Taehyung chuckled but then shook his head and lowered the neck of Jungkook's sweater to leave a kiss on his skin.

- No. Please. - He was panting against his neck. - Please. You already drove me crazy last night. Please. I need you. - He whispered and then started to kiss Jungkook's neck sensually, making Jungkook close his eyes and lean his head back again.

He liked the word he used. Crazy. they had indeed driven the other crazy last night. Jungkook chuckled, but he was put in a dilemma. He wanted Taehyung very badly, he wanted to see him, touch him and hear him, but he had a secret, and he was nervous about how Taehyung would react when he knew. It wasn't that he didn't trust him, he did, he just felt nervous to take off his clothes and... let Taehyung see.

- I'm sorry, I can't, not yet. I'm shy. - He said the last part with a chuckle. He didn't want Taehyung to feel bad about his refusal.

Taehyung stopped kissing his neck and let out a breath against it.

- This is shy? My goodness. - Jungkook giggled and heard him swallow. Then Taehyung leaned back to look him in the eyes and shook his head. - I can't believe myself right now. - He laughed embarrassed and then rolled over to end up lying beside Jungkook, both of them trying to regain their breathing. - I'm losing my mind. - Jungkook looked as Taehyung was staring transfixed at the ceiling. - Did I really just tell you to... come with me? - He hid his face in his hands, highly embarrassed.

Jungkook felt so much endearment seeing Taehyung feel appalled for losing control.

- Don't worry about it, I don't feel bad at all. - Taehyung chuckled and let his hands fall on either side of him. Jungkook leaned in and kissed him on the cheek, then leaned back down. - The thing is... I don't know if I'm ready to... take my clothes off, you know? - He grimaced as he turned around, belly to the floor and holding himself up on his elbows beside Taehyung who was looking at him a little worried.

- I'm not... forcing you, am I? - He asked, completely concerned, and Jungkook slid a little closer while shaking his head earnestly.

- No. - He whispered and then chuckled as he looked down at his shoulder. - How can you be the one forcing me when you are the one who stopped it yesterday? And also, you stop the second I tell you to stop. - He looked back up and looked straight into his eyes, taking in a deep breath. - ...I'm happy I'm with someone who cares about me instead of... one who forces...-

Taehyung nodded, frowning, completely understanding what he meant, and then reached a hand to grab Jungkook's face softly.

- I promise you, I will never be like that. - He said with finality like it wasn't much a promise that he'll keep his head but much more an explanation that he physically could never hurt him.

- I know you won't. - Jungkook tilted his head to the touch with a little smile. But slowly he frowned. - I feel like I need to explain myself better. - He muttered, more to himself than anything, however, Taehyung heard him.

- Please, go ahead. - He nodded with a soft caress to his cheek, and Jungkook nodded as well, thinking his words very carefully. Then, he looked away so he could speak more comfortably.

- Well, for starters... I grew up always needing love. Not only words but actions too, someone who hugged me and cared about me, someone stronger that I could be sure would protect me when I'm vulnerable. It was when I was old enough to understand that I would never get that that I stopped thinking about my future. So you see... you are the one I've been, like, dreaming of since I was little. So it's both a miracle and hard to believe. But, when I'm with you and I can touch you, I know it's real. I know you're that person. That's how I know you can't hurt me. The only way you could it's by leaving. - He shrugged, feeling slightly uncomfortable. Every time he opened his heart, he could see the messiness and broken pieces, so he felt self-conscious when showing it to Taehyung. But when he looked up to stare at his eyes again...

Taehyung was looking at him intently and endearingly, taking in all his words and feeling their depth.

Jungkook smiled softly.

- I don't feel pressured in any way, to do anything. - He leaned down to kiss him on the cheek and whispered. - I just want to make sure I'm mentally ready for this... step. I don't want to be nervous or unsure, not with you. - Taehyung nodded, understanding, and Jungkook smiled a little embarrassed as he leaned away enough to look into his eyes again. - What happened last night had been the best thing I've ever felt in my life, - Taehyung closed his eyes and chuckled to then open them again. - But it had been out of the blue, and I think that's the main reason why I didn't have a moment of nerves or of not knowing what to do because it had been natural and comfortable and... really good. - He giggled as Taehyung brushed his hair behind his ear with a grin. - But I want to be... confident enough with one specific thing before... you know? I refuse to feel uncomfortable with you. One thing is to tense up for a moment at a new touch and another one completely to feel uncomfortable. -

Taehyung smiled.

- I love that you know what you want. - He said, looking up at him with adoration. - The only thing I want is for you to feel happy with me, in everything we do. And I know it's too early, - He closed his eyes again, looking disappointed in himself. - I know it and I still said that to you. What if you had said yes? What if I did something wrong then? What if you would've only agreed because I said it? Gosh. - He rubbed his eyes and Jungkook kissed him on the tip of his nose, making him freeze.

- Don't think about what could've happened, it will only fill you with anxiety for something that's not even here. Think about what I say, not what I didn't. - Taehyung slowly took his hands off his face and looked at Jungkook with his dark eyes filled with stars. - And I said "not yet" not "not ever". For all we know, something like last night could happen again tonight, and boom. - They both laughed. Jungkook loved his view, Taehyung's boxy smile bright and wide making his eyes close as he laughed the cutest laugh he had ever heard. When they were calm again, he kept on explaining. - But not yet. I... don't think I'm... ready to take my clothes off. And also, I haven't even thought about it. To be painfully honest... - He leaned in to whisper as this was too personal. - Last night was the first time something like that has happened to me. -

- Well, - Taehyung whispered back. - you have never been with anybody else, that's completely understandable. - He said reassuringly, but he didn't understand.

- No, I mean not only what happened with you but also what happened with me... with my body... Something like that has never happened to me. - Jungkook was looking at the floor beside Taehyung's ear, and, from the corner of his eye, saw how he went unusually still.

- But–... But last night–... You–... You haven't–...? But just now you said–... - He put a hand on Taehyung's shoulder, the poor one was having trouble breathing and Jungkook could tell he was confused out of his mind. That was understandable.

- I know you might be confused since, apparently, I'm good at driving you crazy, but... - He heard Taehyung chuckling, yet still out of breath. - I have no experience with anything, not even with myself, it just comes naturally as I feel like doing it when I'm with you. When I'm telling you that last night was the first time I ever felt that good, I mean the first time I ever felt that good, in general, with someone else and with myself. - He finished with a blush but was still satisfied with himself. He was honest, Taehyung was the only person in the world with whom he had been one hundred percent honest every single second, and he loved it.

- I... - Taehyung's voice got cut, and there was a moment of hesitation in Jungkook when he looked to the side of Taehyung's face and saw him staring transfixed to the ceiling again. But then Taehyung talked. - Take your sweet time, Jungkook. - He said as he nodded vigorously, making Jungkook laugh. - Take all the time that you need. No, you know what? Do whatever you want to do. Yes, that sounds better. You do what you feel like doing because, as you said, we never know and then boom. If you want to wait, perfect. If you don't, that's perfect too. You do what you want because it's your body, your choice, and I hope no begging of mine will even make you do something you don't feel like doing. -

Jungkook plunged himself into Taehyung's chest with the biggest smile on his face as he laughed, and Taehyung grabbed him with a chuckle, hugging him close. Jungkook felt so loved, felt so incredibly loved, adored, needed, and so immensely loved that he felt his chest might just explode with the way his heart was beating so fast. Taehyung was truly everything that he ever wanted and more.

- With the way you just said that so honestly it makes me want to reward you. - He giggled, his knees comfortably at either side of Taehyung while his cheek rested on his chest.

- You don't have to reward me for human decency, nor for caring about you. - Taehyung said softly at the top of his head where he left a soft kiss. And Jungkook straightened up, with his hands at either side of Taehyung's head to see him perfectly, arching his back to do so and feeling Taehyung's hands slide up and down the curve of his waist. He smiled when he suddenly remembered a little poem he had read some time ago that he used to read like a mantra.

- Do you like poems? - He asked and saw how a tender smile grew on Taehyung's face.

- Yes. Why? Did you write one? - He brought a hand up to Jungkook's face and caressed it lovingly. And, all of a sudden, Jungkook got nervous.

- No... I mean, yes, I have, but that's not... What I'm trying to say is... Ummm... - He closed his eyes for a second to organize his thoughts and then tried again. - I read a little poem years ago, and I really liked it. I kept on repeating it in my mind, dreaming that one day it would come true. - He looked down at Taehyung's soft smile, at his bright eyes, his beautiful, expectant face, and sat up on Taehyung's lap as the other followed him in a seating position, and, as Taehyung's arms went around his waist, his went around Taehyung's neck, and he took a deep, stabilizing breath. - "I wake up every day with your smile on my mind. It's a beautiful sight to behold, so soft and so kind. My dreams are filled with the thought of me and you. I awake and smile, for my dreams have come true." - He looked down feeling his face heat up. - Sadly I don't remember who wrote it... Umm... -

He didn't know what to say. But, a second later, there was nothing to be said when Taehyung hugged him tight. An arm around his waist and hip and the other one up on his back behind his shoulder blades, keeping him there to his chest, secured in his arms and loved in his hold.

- "A squillion stars shine in the sky. Soaring angels sing sweet songs nearby. I wake and smile, my dreams are true. The star in my arms, my sun, is you." - Taehyung recited low beside his ear, and he froze with surprise. - I too had read a poem that made my heart hopeful. That one day you would come and bring a reason to my life. But hoping made me hopeless when I couldn't find you. And now that you're here, the emptiness was left behind. I just made up that last one, but both are true. - Taehyung turned his head and kissed him softly on the cheek, and then again, and again, and hugged him as tight as he could.

Meanwhile, Jungkook was staring off into space as he hugged Taehyung by the neck.

They had both read a poem that talked about waking up and finding out their dreams came true, they had both been led by the sound of a creek to that small clearing the first night, and without planning it they keep meeting up in the library at the same time, they had both wanted something they couldn't have and had accepted it, and now the both of them are convinced the other is what they had been waiting to have for all their lives.

"Something that can only happen once every so often to only a few." "Jungkook, hear me out, I have heard a story like yours before" "Water? You heard water and followed it?... Do you usually do that sort of thing?" "Where did the sound lead you?" "A meadow?... With a round, white, pavilion in the middle?" "I've heard that story before."

Oh... this was too much.

Jungkook had no idea what Tom meant but now something was telling him he never meant to take him to a hospital. However, Jungkook tried to ignore that thought. He was afraid of any possibility, it didn't matter if Tom knew doctors or common men.

Coming back to the present, where Taehyung's hands were slowly going up and down his back, feeling him and caressing him, he turned his head to leave a soft kiss on his flawless cheek, right where he had a little mole. Taehyung was all that mattered right now, he can leave his worries for later times.

- I want to live in this dream. - Jungkook said softly, feeling calm and comfortable. - For the first time in my life I'm dreading meeting Leo and Emily again. -

- Why are you dreading it? - Asked Taehyung, sounding slightly worried, and he leaned back to look at Jungkook.

- Well, it's just the fact that I have to come up with something to explain who I was with right now. - And he half closed his eyes as he looked accusatory at Taehyung. - Emily heard me giggling stupidly with someone else. -

- Your giggle is cute. - Taehyung smiled as he looked at Jungkook's unstoppable grin.

- The point, Taehyung. They'll ask me about it and then I'll have to say it was a girl and then they'll ask more, I mean, coming up with an excuse is less straining than coming up with a whole person. And if they want to meet her I'll have to say no and then I'll be a bad friend. And they're such amazing friends, what a terrible person I am. - Taehyung was about to protest but he put a hand over his mouth. - Don't try to make me feel better, I don't need it. -

Taehyung tilted his head with a frown and Jungkook felt how he sighed, and then left a kiss on the palm of his hand. Jungkook giggled looking at the back of his hand, and then he curiously leaned forward, closing his eyes, and leaving a kiss on the back of his hand over Taehyung's lips. When he looked back up at Taehyung's eyes, they looked so desperate and bright, so filled with affection as they looked from Jungkook's eyes to his lips and back again.

- I want to stay here in our little bubble where time isn't real, no one can hurt us, and there are no worries, no lies, no pain... Just us and our feelings. - Jungkook whispered, and as he did so, he noticed Taehyung getting slowly nearer to his lips. As slowly as Taehyung was getting nearer, Jungkook's hand was lowering from Taehyung's mouth, slowly, brushing softly against the soft skin of his lips, until only his fingertips were touching the bottom lip and both were looking down at the other's lips, slightly breathless as they noticed the tiny space of one fingertip keeping their lips from meeting.

- Me too. Just us. - Taehyung said in a deep whisper.

Jungkook could feel his breath in his lips and the tips of his fingers, feel every word, feel every pound of his heart in his chest, feel his hands keeping him closely, feel the tip of his nose brushing occasionally against his cheek. Feel the semi-hard bulge beneath him.

The intimacy of such closeness was making Jungkook feel very warm and lightheaded, and the sensation he had in the base of his throat the night before was forming again. And the need to be closer, to hear, to look, to touch...

- I don't know what to do. - He whispered with a little grin, and Taehyung left a kiss on the tips of his fingers, taking the breath out of him.

- About what? - He whispered.

- About whether or not I should go have lunch with my friends... or tell you to take us to your room. - He caressed Taehyung's bottom lip with the tip of just one finger. The skin was unbelievably soft.

Taehyung let out a breath as his hands moved slowly up and down his back.

- I should tell you to go have lunch with your friends. - His voice was so deep, so breathtaking.

- "Should?" ...What do you want to do? - He asked, curious and aroused, brushing his lips against Taehyung's cheek, close to his lips where his fingertips were still caressing.

Taehyung was breathing rather hard.

- I'm scared if I tell you... you might want to stay. -

- You're scared that you'll persuade me to stay? - His voice purred and, from the corner of his eyes, saw Taehyung's eyes closing and his jaw clenching. Softly and slowly, he nodded. - You're scared that I might want the same thing you want? - Again, a soft nod. - Tell me what you want, Taehyung. Appease my curiosity. Nourish my imagination with yours. - And he left soft kisses on Taehyung's cheek.

- My goodness. - He swallowed. - You're the sexiest person I've ever met in my life. -

Jungkook giggled in pleasant surprise and then left a kiss on the corner of his mouth.

- I'm waiting. - He said against his skin, reminding him of what he wanted to hear.

- Aren't you hungry? Wouldn't–... Wouldn't you want to go... - Taehyung trailed off as Jungkook, with his thumb against his bottom lip, had grabbed his chin softly to slowly tilt his head back and reveal his neck, against which he placed just one finger and dragged his nail down against it. Pleased with himself, he saw how Taehyung swallowed.

- I don't know what I want to do, that's why I'm asking you to tell me what you want, maybe that way I'll discover what I want. - He said softly and dragged the nail back up, hearing the faint sound of a hiss close to his ear.

- You know what? Why don't we... we... go have lunch and then... we'll meet again tonight-- Jungkook, please, stop that. - For Jungkook had dragged all five nails against his neck and up the back of his head, mesmerized with the way Taehyung was losing it. But he stopped nevertheless, caressing him softly with the tips of his fingers instead and Taehyung brought his chin down again with a grunt, tilted his head to kiss the tip of Jungkook's thumb, and let out a breath. - Let's meet tonight with a clearer head, ok? -

- But you never told me what you wanted. - He pouted slightly as he leaned back to look at Taehyung's eyes a little better. They were dark, and the corner of Taehyung's mouth lifted.

- What good would that do? It will just make me want it even more and I know you can't give it to me. You said not yet. -

A tingling feeling went down Jungkook's spine.

He himself knew that he wasn't ready to take his clothes off, but they could do stuff with their clothes still on, couldn't they? He knew he needed to think about it before jumping, but he just wanted to jump, he just wanted to do it, he wanted to go all out, he wanted more of this feeling, he wanted Taehyung to tell him more, to make him weaker, to make him feel even better than this. Quite the contradiction.

Slowly he got close to his ear.

- I know I said not yet. But I love this feeling. - Slowly, the fingers over Taehyung's lip moved down, caressing his skin down his chin to his neck. - I love being this close, I love feeling this lightheaded and breathless and... good. - His hand moved down to the start of Taehyung's shirt and he flattened his palm over his chest, his hard chest, his heaving hard chest. And moved down. - I love this teasing. - Taehyung was unable to speak with how breathless he was. - I love turning you on. - Taehyung was harder under him. And Jungkook's hand went low... down his chest until he reached his abs, and he left his hand there, feeling, he was breathless as he imagined what they must look like, they felt hard as rocks though a little shaky, Taehyung was shaking slightly with how hard he was restraining himself, Jungkook could see it. - Come on, just tell me what you want to do, I'm curious. - He whispered and then kissed his earlobe, then the side of his face, then his cheek, close to his mouth, and he stopped right in front of Taehyung's lips. His eyes were a flame of desire.

- And then what? - Taehyung nearly growled as his hands tightened again on Jungkook's waist. - What are you going to do with this information, huh? -

- Fantasize with it, if it's good enough. - Jungkook smirked like he was challenging Taehyung. And it came as no surprise when the latter grinned back, accepting the challenge.

- Very well then. But just know... that I warned you. -

Jungkook grinned, highly satisfied. But then, Taehyung moved them, putting Jungkook against the sturdy bookshelf and taking the breath out of him with how sexy that was. Having Taehyung tight against him -with his knees against the floor and bookshelf, cutting any contact Jungkook could have on the floor-, looking at him like a prey he was about to devour, being pressed even more tightly against Taehyung's hardness, it made him so turned on, he felt himself shaking looking slightly up at Taehyung as he got closer to his ear.

- What do I want? - Started Taehyung in a low voice and Jungkook's eyelids fluttered close. - I want to take off your clothes so softly you'll feel like petals are caressing your skin. I want to kiss every inch of your body and worship your beauty. I want to hear you loving every second of it as you tattoo your touch into my skin. I want to love you in the most physical way possible. - Taehyung finished with a soft kiss on Jungkook's cheek. - Fantasize with that. - He whispered and then pampered butterfly kisses everywhere he could reach without detaching their chests.

Jungkook's heart was beating hard and his breathing was deep. His eyes were closed and his skin was hot. He had been expecting something top-notch dirty, something that would be so naughty it would make Jungkook feel shy, but instead, he got this declaration of physical love worthy of a romance novel. He was so moved and, surprisingly, even more turned on at the idea of soft caressing, skin on skin moving slowly, touching each other lovingly as they had never experienced before. He loved that idea, of being loved physically, which was something he hadn't even done himself. He wanted it.

- You're right. - Jungkook said in nearly a whisper and Taehyung stopped to be able to look him closely in the eyes. - I do want to stay. -

He wasn't grinning, he was talking with all the honesty he felt about how much he wanted to be loved. And Taehyung looked at him like he wanted it just as badly, but he wasn't moving.

- I want to give you everything your heart desires. - His hand moved up until he was holding Jungkook's face softly. - But I want to give it to you in the most perfect way possible, without anyone expecting us to see them for lunch, without anyone asking for us or calling us over the phone, without any meetings to run to, which I have one at two o'clock. - Jungkook pouted, he knew they wouldn't be able to today, and even so, he still felt let down. He also had to remind himself that he wasn't ready to take his clothes off in front of him. Right? His mind was taken back to Taehyung's deep meaningful stare and... he wasn't sure if he was sure anymore. - I want it to be perfect and slow. And when you're completely and utterly feeling ready, not only curious or lost in the feeling but a conscious decision. - Then he kissed him softly on the cheek.

Jungkook was blessed to have this respectful and loving man for himself. As his breathing calmed down and he came back to his full senses, he turned his head and kissed Taehyung on the cheek with gratefulness. Because a part of him knew that, if it had been anybody else, they would have succumbed to their desires the night before without any regard to Jungkook's future feelings about it. Yes, he was grateful that Taehyung cared so much about him that he wanted it to be perfect in every way. And he was right, it was better to have no one expecting them.

- You said you have a meeting? - Jungkook asked as he leaned back just enough to look at him, and Taehyung connected their foreheads.

- Yes. - He sighed, sounding bored. - I don't really remember why, but I have to go. One thing I do know, - He leaned away to look at Jungkook. - is that, every Friday at two, there's a meeting with–

- "With all the teachers of the university, faculty members, and the Headmasters to talk about the work of the prior and consecutive week." - Jungkook finished in a bored voice and Taehyung chuckled while he nodded.

- That sounds like it will be too long of a meeting and I don't like it. - He grimaced and hid his face in Jungkook's neck while he chuckled and brought his hand up to Taehyung's hair.

- Yeah, it could be just a one-hour meeting or a five-hour meeting. It always depends on the date and the... blah, blah, blah. You know...? - Jungkook trailed off as Taehyung laughed against his neck while he hugged him tightly. Jungkook smiled, feeling goosebumps rising on his skin. - As much as I hate to be away from you, if you have a problem then you better go and fix it up quickly because I think it's about to be two o'clock. - As he said it, he felt how his face heated up.

Taehyung chuckled low, getting out of his neck and looking at him with half-closed eyes.

- Who said I've got a problem? - He frowned with a smirk and Jungkook grinned, a hand moving from the back of Taehyung's head to his face and caressing his bottom lip with his thumb.

- I'm sitting on it, Tae. I can tell it's a hard problem. - He could feel himself blushing, but it just felt so good to be so daring. Taehyung's eyes closed softly, looking dizzy as he chuckled silently and one hand around Jungkook's waist went under his sweater and up his skin. - Tae--... - He could feel himself losing the little control he had regained previously.

- Why would you say something like that? - Taehyung whispered with a grin and got closer to his ear as his other hand went under Jungkook's sweater too, making his breathing shudder. - Calming down it's already impossible with you this close and now you go and say... - He trailed away breathless and then started to kiss Jungkook's ear.

Jungkook's body jolted and they both gasped but Taehyung kept on kissing him. Jungkook was lightheaded, breathless, turned on and he loved it, he loved the pleasure Taehyung made him feel. He was losing himself in it.

- Tae, you got... you got a meeting. - Even as he said this, he crossed his ankles around Taehyung's hips.

- Then why aren't you pushing me away? - Taehyung moved down from his ear to his exposed neck.

- Why aren't you stopping? - Jungkook asked as he tilted his head back against the bookshelf and held Taehyung close to him by the neck.

- Yeah, I should stop. - Taehyung said, breathing hard as he stopped kissing his neck. Jungkook's eyes closed. - I don't want it like this, I told you I don't. But I want... I want... Ah-I... - Jungkook had started kissing him on the ear just like he had done to him, and that whimper made him lose what little composure he had left. His legs tightened around Taehyung and felt Taehyung's hands on his skin slackening as his body jolted. - Mh... -

- Tae, we could... - Jungkook's voice had a purr to it that made Taehyung shake slightly, and, by the corner of his eye, he could see how hard Taehyung was closing his eyes, trying to restrain himself. - We could go to your room and just finish this there. - He caressed Taehyung's face and saw the faint shaking of his head. - We can, Tae. Just for... relieve sakes. No clothes off, just... Please? I want it too. - He was pleading now as he thought of the both of them in Taehyung's room.

Taehyung took a deep breath and opened his eyes, his arousal was so obvious that it made Jungkook's skin burn with desire.

- But you said not yet. - He was still trying to control himself, holding his waist hard.

Jungkook got closer and kissed him on the neck again, going up while he heard Taehyung's ragged breathing until he got to the ear.

- I'm not ready to take my clothes off yet, but we don't need to take them off, I can just do... this. - And then he moved his hips.

- Ah... Wait... - Taehyung held him with one arm around the waist and the other went down to his thigh. Jungkook stopped with a shudder. - Wait... wait... - Taehyung tried to regain his breathing. - I will never be able to just use you for relief and then leave you alone like that. I want to spend the whole night with you, wake up with you... - He breathed. - And even if we do go, it's still too far, and I would have to change and... you don't have spare clothes... -

- Then let go of me because you have no idea how bad I want to make you lose it. - He placed his hands on Taehyung's back and slowly dragged his nails down his suit jacket while he breathed hard on his neck.

Taehyung's body shook.

- Oh, you don't want to see me lose it. - He got even closer to Jungkook against the bookshelf, breathless and undeniably turned on. Jungkook stopped his hands once they came in contact with his own legs and got them back up to Taehyung's shoulders.

- Have you ever lost it completely? - He asked in a whisper, trying to regain his breathing. Taehyung let out a breath and rested his forehead against Jungkook's shoulder.

- Not with another person. - He was trying to regain his breathing as well, but Jungkook's stopped in his own throat as that went over his head.

- By yourself? - Jungkook whispered, completely turned on just by the idea.

- Yes. - Taehyung answered just as low and Jungkook's head tilted back against the shelf as he closed his eyes. That... was so hot. Taehyung losing it on his own...

- Isn't that a little selfish? Keeping it all to yourself... - As his head tilted down again, he felt Taehyung chuckling against his yaw.

- Tell you what, I'll show you what I keep to myself when you show me what you keep to yourself, deal? - He sounded sober again, even if his body told otherwise. Jungkook tilted his head, confused, and kissed him softly on the cheek.

- What do I keep to myself? I'm losing it right in front of you. - Jungkook said earnestly.

- Not your clothes, you aren't. -

- Oh... Clever. - Jungkook chuckled.

He knew this wasn't the time, Taehyung knew this wasn't the time, and the both of them knew they were just so utterly turned on that they weren't thinking with their brains anymore, so Jungkook tilted his head back and took deep breaths completely still to calm himself down just enough for what he was about to say.

- Ok. - They both took a deep breath. Taehyung had his face hidden on Jungkook's neck. - Ok, you go first. - Taehyung's breathing stopped.

- First on what? - He sounded slightly alarmed and Jungkook chuckled realizing what he said must've sounded like.

- The first one to leave. You have a meeting, I don't have spare clothes, we're at the library, remember? - He was still lightheaded and turned on, he could feel himself painfully hard, but he still had a little sense in him now that Taehyung was completely still.

- Oh. - Taehyung chuckled and got out of Jungkook's neck to look him in the eyes. - For a second I thought... - He trailed away with open eyes and a chuckle for which Jungkook averted his eyes, he knew he was blushing madly. - You're right, you're right, so... -

Jungkook looked back at him and saw how he was looking at how their bodies were connected with indecision.

- There's just one good way of doing this. - Taehyung looked back up at him and Jungkook grinned. - Let go of me fast and move back. - He giggled.

- But if I just let go, you'll fall. - Taehyung frowned and looked back down.

Their position was thus: Taehyung was on his knees, sitting on his heels, his knees were right against the bookshelf and Jungkook was seated on his lap with his back against the bookshelf. So, he was supported by Taehyung, and, if he let go, Jungkook would fall on his bum.

- Then you can--... - Just thinking about Taehyung moving slowly made him swallow dryly. He let out a breath making Taehyung look back up at him, their noses almost touching. - The thing is... If you move slowly... - He trailed away shaking his head and he knew Taehyung understood how delicate this situation was.

- I'll... just... - Taehyung looked down at his hands on Jungkook's waist and slowly started to move back, detaching Jungkook from his pelvis. But he was doing it so slowly and the knowledge that that hard bulge was rubbing against him, made Jungkook jolt.

- Mh! - He grabbed Taehyung's face softly and closed his eyes. He never thought it possible that another man's erection, or even the idea of it, would be so arousing. Too arousing. - Stop. - He exhaled, and Taehyung stopped as he breathed in hard. He had been holding his breath. - Just do it fast, Taehyung. By the time you leave me on the floor, I will need spare clothes. - They both chuckled and Taehyung grunted.

- Ok. - Taehyung realized that there was no good way of doing this.

They both held their breaths and then Taehyung rapidly pushed himself away with the help of the bookshelf, sliding away, and leaving Jungkook to fall with a huff to the floor. Jungkook closed his eyes and brought his hands to his face, chuckling out of breath. He could feel how Taehyung was still in between his legs, rendering him unable to close them, but for some unknown reason, knowing that Taehyung was looking at him with hungry eyes was enjoyable to him.

Looking through his fingers with a smirk, he saw something even better. Taehyung was out of breath, breathing hard with his head slightly tilted back, hands slackened on his thighs, and that... bulge...

Jungkook giggled and brought his knees up by instinct, but he couldn't close them. Taehyung looked down at his eyes and saw him staring through his hands. He grinned and bit his lip, closing his eyes hard and bringing a hand to rub them.

- I will never get to that meeting. - He sighed. Jungkook's stomach filled with a flutter and his hands moved to either side of his head, holding onto the shelf behind it.

- You have to go. Leave a good impression on the Headmaster and he won't think you're a bad influence on me. -

Taehyung lowered his hand and looked at the ceiling.

- Right again. - He sounded calmer now, even focused and serious. Until he looked down and looked at Jungkook. He swallowed and bit his lip with hungry eyes once more. Jungkook grinned and brought his hands down to place the palms against the floor in between his thighs.

- You should get away from temptation before succumbing to it again. - Jungkook smirked as he saw how Taehyung closed his eyes and shook his head, trying to clear it.

- "Temptation"... What a perfect description. - He moved back until he was seated against the other bookshelf. - Could you pass me my... - He pointed beside Jungkook, making him look.

- Your... briefcase? - He grinned, closing his legs a little so he could lean to the side.

- Yes, briefcase, that thing. - He chuckled nervously and Jungkook laughed while he passed it to Taehyung. But that move caused friction in his pants, so he ended up moving his legs to one side and laying on the floor with his eyes closed.

- Huh, it's a quarter to two. - He heard Taehyung muttering, but he couldn't decipher if it was in relief or not. Jungkook was just there, lying limp on the floor, trying to calm down. He had never before had to calm down a boner so it was taking the majority of his concentration, so he didn't notice when Taehyung got closer to him again. He just felt a hand on his neck and he opened his eyes to find Taehyung sitting crisscrossed beside him, looking down at him. - I made you more. - He said low and then smiled a little embarrassed as he moved Jungkook's turtle neck up again, hiding his hickeys. Jungkook smiled.

- And I didn't even ruffle your clothes. - He clicked his tongue. - I'm such a good person. - They both chuckled. Taehyung was still looking down at his now covered neck and moving his finger over the fabric, apparently in trance. Jungkook reached up and flattened Taehyung's palm against his neck, wishing him to touch him more.

- You're not being that good right now. - Taehyung said with a low, raspy, voice.

- Leave. - Jungkook smiled up at him and let go of his hand hearing Taehyung chuckling low. - Leave now or I'll do something stupid. - They both laughed and he felt how Taehyung's hand was now grabbing his neck softly and caressing it with his thumb. That felt really good.

- What stupid thing would you do? -

Jungkook grinned and grabbed Taehyung's wrist, detaching his hand from his neck.

- Maybe I'll tell you tonight, you know, with a "clearer head". -

- You're right, you're right. - He shook his head and moved away again to his briefcase.

With a sigh, Jungkook saw him standing up and straightening his unruffled clothes, then, with a giggle, saw him looking down, assessing his problem. But just one look at it made Jungkook bite his lip and hide his face in his hands.

- Standing up is not that noticeable, is it?... Why are you covering your eyes? - He heard Taehyung asking with a chuckle and he giggled again.

- Looking at you is the main trigger for doing something stupid. - Like maybe going to where he is and grabbing it, flattening him against the bookshelf by a hand on his chest, and seeing him lose it, completely lose it. He swallowed dryly as his thighs closed shut tightly, and he heard Taehyung chuckling low and breathless.

- Ok, so... See you at eight? At the meadow? - Taehyung asked, unsure.

- ...Or at the door to the Professors' living area? - Asked Jungkook in a near whisper. He heard a thud and a sigh and looked through his fingers to find Taehyung leaning down to grab his fallen briefcase.

- Umm... Let's do this, ok? If it rains by the time it's eight o'clock, we stay in my room. -

- Deal. - Jungkook said with a smile and then let his hands fall on either side of him with his eyes closed. It felt good that neither of them would decide the place, that way anything that happens is no one's fault but nature's. Also, it hadn't rained for a couple of days so maybe it wouldn't rain today either.

- Ok, see you later then. I would get closer to you but--

- No, don't touch me just now, I'm burning. - He heard Taehyung chuckling and grinned too.

- Ok, bye. -

- Bye. - Jungkook heard muffled steps getting away from him and opened his eyes in time to see the back of Taehyung until he disappeared through the shelves and with a deep sigh, he just laid there limp on the floor, with all the intention of waiting until he's completely calmed down again.

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