*Now playing - Backwards
Directions by Abby Sage*

Flashback
"You don't have to ignore me" I spoke up as he closed the door.

He looks at me and hesitantly walks to me "I'm not ignoring you Minho"

I chuckle bitterly and nod, looking down to my feet as I sat in the bed "Says the one that doesn't answer my text and avoids me at school"

"I'm just... busy"

My lips formed a thin lip and I nod slowly, taking in his lies "We can just forget about it" I look up, "I know that's what you want and you aren't telling me that because you think I'll be hurt about it"

Jisung shook his head "That's not what—" Jisung sighs and sits beside me "It's not what I was gonna say"

"Then what? Tell me and feed me all of your lies Jisung because right now you can't even look me in the eyes" Jisung slowly looks up and I scoff "Does the idea of us kissing disgust you that much?"

Jisung furrowed his brows "No" He shook his head "I never said that why do you keep putting words in my mouth!"

"Because you aren't telling me anything!" I yelled back not caring if our parents heard from downstairs. "I'm reminding you that you kissed me. I didn't come into you"

I stand up and shake my head "And now I look dumb" I mumble and look at him "I just want us to forget about it and go back to how we were"

Lies, I lied. I only said that because I felt like that was what he wanted but the look on his face said otherwise.

"If that's what you want Minho"

"God!" I groan, running my fingers through my hair and pulling at it while walking away from the boy "No, I don't" I admitted, walking up to where he sat in my bed. "I-I don't want to forget"

Jisung looked hesitant but still, his hands went to my waist and pulled me closer. Nothing was said as he encouraged me to straddle his waist, his eyes looking deeply into mine as his hand slid up my thighs and up my shirt to touch my bare back.

"Me neither" He whispered and I leaned down to connect our lips. Practically moaning from the feeling of finally having his lips on mine again.

His tongue danced with mine as he slowly laid down on my bed, taking my ass in his hands. I pull away "Don't ever make me feel stupid like that again"

Jisung chuckles, "Just kiss me" and I do. Kissing him again before pulling away and kissing his neck, inhaling the smell of his cologne and feeling intoxicated by it.

I felt his hand pull at my shirt and I sit up "What do you think you're doing?" I smirk down at him and he continues to touch my body.

"Touching what's mine"

I laugh loudly and slap his hands away "You don't own me Jisung" I get off of him and sit beside him instead.

"Why not? Who else are you gonna see?" He turned irritated and I shrug, wanting to egg this on
because Jisung's jealousy was a sight I now found to love.

"I was thinking that one guy in our math class—"

"He's a douche, you never go for a douche" Jisung rolls his eyes.

"Your a douche and I was just on top of you for the second time now"

He glared at me "So you like him?"

I shrug "I don't have to like him to have fun with him Jisung"

Jisung looks at me and his hand goes to my knee "What kind of fun?"

"You know what kind"

Jisung scoots closer and his hand goes to my cheek, his thumb sliding over my bottom lip "I don't like to hear that" His eyes are on my lips.

"Are you jealous?"

His eyes flicker back to mine, "Should I be?"

"No"

Jisung smiled "Good, I don't want you having fun with anyone other than me"

I frown "And you?" I ask, "Will you be having fun without me?"

Jisung looks over my face. I should have seen it as a sign as he didn't answer my question but just kissed me again. I wanted to think I would be the only one that had him like this but I'd be lying to myself.

That's what I did, lied to myself. Telling myself he was only mine but god was I wrong. It's was okay though, in that it was okay because I had him. I finally did.

*Now playing - Backwards
Directions by Abby Sage*

This chapter has been written and in my draft since the last time I updated this book and i'm barely putting it out now.

I don't know if you've seen my post on my profile but I explained my sudden abandonment from this story.

Truth was I wasn't so confident in a main point I had planned for the book. The main point being when Jisung finally meets up with the others and I juggled around a few ideas but never fully satisfied with one until today.

I have my plan set in stone now and I will go back to updating this story, i hope you missed me <3

This chapter was short but think of it as my introduction back to updating 'dear darling'