'So that's how you met my father.' I said, looking at the ceiling.

'Yes ' he said and I felt his fingers on my face. I turned my head towards him. His lips slid over mine. I ran my fingers through his tousled dark hair. He put his other hand on my waist. My pulse, instantly, skyrocketed. I felt that little knot in my stomach again. In one movement, I sat on his lap and then pressed my body as close to his as I could. 

'Yana...' a soft sigh escaped her lips and he pulled away. My cheeks, immadetly blood reddened, I was embarrassed to get out of his embrace, but he grabbed my wrist and pulled me back to him. The sensation made me swallow into his kiss. Every muscle in his body tensed. I could feel his pulse quicken. He grabbed me by the waist and threw me on the bed. He put his legs between my thighs and bent down to me. I slipped my hand under his shirt. I was too curious. I wanted more of him. When my hand slid over his bare skin, he let out a low growl. It fell on my lips again, but this time more fiercely and passionately than before. My heart in my throat. I could hardly breathe. He pulled away from me. His gaze bored deep into mine. 'We have to stop.' he said and then slowly pulled away from me. I reached for his hand, but I could not reach it.

'D...' I said, and he shook his head.

'No Yana! ' he looked at me seriously. I could see a lot of things in his eyes now. Sadness, happiness, joy, disappointment. I had never seen anything like it before. I was in total shock.

D turned away and put his hands in his lap.

'Now go away...' he said, barely audible. I nodded and walked slowly to the door. When I pushed the doorknob I looked back.

'D ' I said, and he slowly raised his beautiful eyes to me 'This is not your fault. Not in any way.' I said and left the room. 

I didn't talk to D much after that. We had a few words. Lilith thankfully recovered nicely and was able to rejoin our little team. Our training was getting harder and harder. But I was getting more and more bruised. I was making more and more mistakes. I wasn't concentrating well, or at all, since that night. It completely took all my thoughts away D.

'Hey, Yana! ' interrupted Hobi, as I was practicing shooting with my new twin weapons. This has now become my new favourite. RT told me that my dad used to have this as his custom gun too. When I found that out, I was very happy. Surely it can't be a coincidence!

'Yes? ' I shot off the bottles one after the other. Hobi clapped his hands in glee.

'Do you fancy going out? ' he asked, as I stopped.

'Going out? ' I put down my gun and raised my eyes to the boy.

'Yes! Maybe shopping... or ice cream or something! Whatever you feel like! ' he stepped towards me with a smile. I smiled. He sensed that I was not in the top of my game these days, so it was nice to be cared for. But what did I expect? He's my best friend. The only person I have left.

'Ooo, yes! I'm in! ' I jumped on his neck happily. 'When are we going? ' I pulled away from him for a moment.

'We'll leave after lunch, get ready before darling.' he patted my back.

'Okay! ' I jumped for joy, which he followed with a laugh. He cheered me up so much with this little thing that I just couldn't contain myself. I really needed a little relaxation, which Hobi and I were perfectly able to provide.

'Now, let's go to the dining room! ' he slipped his fingers on my wrist and we left, pulling me along behind him. 

When we got to the room, almost everyone was already there. Stepping up to our table, two men watched us with wary eyes. I don't need to tell you who...

'What? Are you teaching Yana to walk? I thought she could do it on her own. ' D asked, almost spitting the words out, and I looked at him with raised eyebrows. What's that all about? Is she jealous again? But you know that Hobi and I are best friends. I didn't know what to make of his behaviour. Or it could be that he just had his period or got up with his left foot instead of his right. If either of those were true, it would explain everything.

'Why? Is it bothering you? ' Hobi replied forcefully. Now I looked at him with raised eyebrows. What's wrong with that? Are these two using the same dilly pill or what? Seriously, my mind boggles! 

'Chh...' D clicked his tongue and started to eat. That's right, big boy, you better eat. That suits you much better, although this jealous D is also... sexy. That made me a little embarrassed. I flashed back to the pictures we took that night. I was blushing from ear to ear, but before anyone could notice I put my hand in front of my face and slowly took a seat next to V, who was leaning in to my ear at the moment. Just what I needed... If he's serious he's going to address something to me or say something. Seriously, I'm going to put these three good birds on the table and go off on my own until I calm down. 

'Can we talk later? It would be important.' he whispered with all seriousness in his voice. I didn't expect that at all. Did something go wrong? Or what can it be? I don't know what found these now, so suddenly, but something is wrong. For some reason I have a very strange feeling about the whole thing. I hope nothing bad will happen. Right now, I'm not sure I could handle it. I don't sleep anyway. I hardly eat and simply nothing wants to come together. Nothing works. Maybe V wants to talk to me about something related to this? Or about the drugs? However, I am taking less of them now, which is good for me. I haven't heard that little voice in my head for quite some time, actually. If I think about it, it's been like this since my night with D. So something happened? Has something changed? I don't know... but I feel like we're drifting towards something, that's just the question. Good or bad?