It must be more than I need you
More than I love you
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"So you and Minho are together now?" I look at Maya and she looks at me with a small smile, but I notice a little sadness in her tone.

I let out a small sigh and looked ahead to the others. Minho fought playfully with Jeongin as the others laughed loudly.

Minho and I didn't make it a big deal that we were together truthfully one day we just walked into the school with our hands laced together. There were lots of questions from other people but our friends didn't really question it. Yes, they spared glances at each other and shared that they "Figured something was up" or so that's what Hyunjin said and they agreed.

I nod lightly "Yeah"

"I'm not asking for credit but I'm kind of the reason," She says and I chuckle and look at her, "I just gave you two a little push"

"Thank you for that," I said to her "But I am also sorry"

Maya shrugs "Things happen for the better," She says softly, "I saw you as some sort of escape and I did really like you but it will never be my place to keep you away from what truly makes you happy"

My eyes fall at her words "I liked you as well" I tell her, shrugging "But I never realized how much I actually cared for Minho until we kissed"

"You loved him and you didn't even realize it?"

I look away and back to Minho who was now being dramatic about how Changbin drank his water. A soft smile on my face.

"I always knew I loved him but I never realized how deep it was," I say, "I just avoided the feeling by constantly dating girls and keeping myself high"

She was silent for a moment before saying "It's not my place to ask but have you thought about talking to Felix?" I look at her "We graduate in a few weeks is why I ask"

"Maybe" I look down and my fingers play with the grass, "I've wanted to but I don't really know when the time will be right"

It's been a few months since everything happened and I still haven't spoken to Felix. It wasn't like I held a grudge over the situation, in all honesty, I'm over it. It just felt weird to bring it up especially now that it's been a while. Felix seemed over it as well, I heard Chan and him were getting close nowadays but every time the others tried to bring it up he shut it down with a simple "We're friends"

"They are bullying me" Minho stomps back to me and points to the others and they laugh following behind him, "First I get jumped and then my water gets robbed" He sits beside me.

"That's a lie" Seungmin argues "Minho said he could take us all and so we accepted the challenge"

"One at a time, not all at once—what do you think I am, god?"

"Don't make a challenge you can't win" Hyunjin says back.

Minho's head finds my shoulder "Let's leave them and go back to yours" He mumbles.

"Jisung's mom invited all of us over because she's ordering pizza tonight," Jeongin says, making Minho poke his tongue out at him.

To say that they all got comfortable with my family was an understatement.

"Seungmin's going for Nora," Changbin says.

"Ew, no" I grimace, "Nobody is going to date my sister" I announce and they laugh.

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Graduation Night

"I love you" My mom hugs me tightly and I return it. Pulling away she looks at me and says "I'm so proud of you and I have no doubt that you will do amazing things"

"Thank you Mom" I give her a large smile, my eyes wandering to a boy in the distance. "I'll be right back," I tell her and she quickly says she will go look for Minho.

I walk away and to the boy who hugged his mom with a smile, his gaze finding mine as I walk to him, "Hey, I just wanted to... wish you luck?"

Felix laughs and pulls me into a hug and I accept it, hugging him back. "I'm sorry" He whispers before we pull away.

"No, I'm sorry. I had no reason to be upset and you didn't do anything wrong"

Felix frowns "I hope we can keep in touch"

I nod "Of course, I would really like that actually"

He smiles largely before his eyes look to something behind me, looking back to me "Good luck as well" he tells me before walking away.

I frown slightly and turn around to see Minho walking to me with a smile, before he can say anything his mom hugs me "Minho told me not to cry but I can't help myself"

I laugh and hug her back, "Happy tears only, I hope"

She pulls away "Always" She hugs me once more before pulling away and saying "I'll meet you two at home"

Minho's mom has been talking with me and they decided to have a small gathering at their house with family and friends.

"So..." Minho walks to me and grabs my hands "We actually did it" His gaze was strong as he looked into my eyes.

I smile softly at him "Yeah, we did"

I can't really explain to you how it happened but as we were on our way to his place we happened to stop on the side of the road and then somehow we were in the back seat of my car making out.

My hands in his hair and his hands all over my body. I kiss him roughly, "I can't get enough of you sweetheart" He groans and I bite his bottom lip.

My hands went down to his belt buckle and he kissed down my neck "Fuck" I curse as he sucks on my sweet spot.

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I pull away and push his jeans down. Soon we were both naked in the backseat of my car. Bouncing on his dick like there would be no tomorrow but in reality, we had to hurry up because everyone was waiting for us.

His hands run up my back as he holds me close. I moan and groan as he places kisses along my collarbone. I realize how much Minho loved being close when he had sex. Almost like he could never be too close and I didn't hate it, I only pulled him closer much to his pleasure.

"I'm gonna cum" I moan and he grabs onto my cock, stroking my cock to finish me off and before you knew it we were both a moaning, groaning mess.

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As we catch our breath and clean each other off, I look at him and swallow harshly "I got in"

Minho freezes for a second before looking at me "Like... Like into university?"

"Yeah"

Minho smiles and pulls me into a hug, "I'm so proud of you" He says before pulling away "So does this mean we won't be doing long distance and we can move together—"

"Are you asking me to move in with you?" I squint and he pauses.

"I—" He sits back "Do you want to move with me?" I jokingly think about him and he groans loudly "Please" He whines.

I lean over and place a kiss on his cheek "Of course I'll move in with you"

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4 Months Later

I stretch my body and open my eyes, a small smile finding my face as I see a sleeping Minho. A soft snore leaves his lips and I lean closer, placing a kiss on his cheek.

My eyes looked over his face and how peaceful it was. We started Uni a little over a month ago and living with Minho has been amazing. Waking up beside him every day was more than I could ask for and when he told me he was thinking about university I remember the fear that flooded my body.

At the time I wasn't too sure if I wanted to go to University but the more I thought about it the more I realized how much I wanted to help people. I always thought therapists didn't give a shit about their patients and just wanted money but the closer I got with my therapist the more I wanted to help others as well.

I pushed the hair out of Minho's face and smirked, crawling onto him and straddling his waist. Minho groans softly as I slide my hands down his exposed chest.

His tired eyes open and he furrows his brows "Is it my birthday?" He jokes and I chuckle.

"Can't I show my boyfriend some love?"

Minho stretches and runs his tired eyes, "All the time, he would appreciate it"

I smile and scoot down his body, kissing down his chest. Chills rise in his body as he lets out a shaky breath. I loved how his body reacted to me, to my every touch.

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My finger hooks over his pajama pants and I pull them down. I flatten my tongue onto the base and lick to the tip. Keeping eye contact with him.

Minho lets out a sigh and lets his eyes fall closed, taking him into my mouth. I watch the pleasure on his face and I moan, making him groan and grab my hair. Allowing him to control me as he fucks my throat.

I pull away for air and replace my mouth with my hand and he looks at me, "I fucking love you" I lick my lips and take him back into my mouth, finishing him off.

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A Year Later

"I'm not fucking stupid, I saw you looking at her" I yell and he furrows his brows and looks at me like I was stupid.

"Sweetheart—"

"Don't 'sweetheart' me" I said harshly, taking off my shoes and walking away. We had just got home and I was fuming.

"Jisung, I was just being nice"

I turn around and glare at him "And If I did the same?" I ask him, "If I was being overly friendly with her, what would you do?"

Minho stops and scoffs "Don't try to switch the situation"

"Why?" I ask, "Because you know you would be pissed"

Minho walks to me "Fine" he says, close to my face he says "I would be livid because you're mine and you can only be nice to me"

I roll my eyes and push him away, walking more into the apartment and I hear him following behind me, "Then don't get mad at me for being upset"

"You're right, I'm sorry" He apologizes, and I ignore him. Getting to the room and getting changed, "Baby" He says softly, wrapping his arms around my body from behind, "I wasn't flirting, I was being nice and that's my honest truth"

I turn and look at him "She doesn't know that"

"I don't give a shit about what she thinks," Minho tells me honestly, "I care about you, about us, and about what you think and I don't want you to think that I was flirting"

I wrap my arms around his neck, "Promise you only have eyes for me"

"My eyes were only made to look at you"

I grimace "Gosh, you're so cheesy"

Minho kisses my forehead "Only for you, sweetheart"

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5 Months Later

"Minho, don't let me fall" I mumble, holding onto his hand for dear life.

"I would never—"

I stumble "You fucking—I'm going to kill you" I curse.

"Be nice" Minho laughs nervously before taking off the blindfold, and opening my eyes.

"Happy birthday!" I flinch at the loud screams and look at Minho who has an awkward smile. I was swarmed with hugs.

After all the hugs I find Minho again with the others, "Can I watch when you murder him?" Jeongin asks, making them laugh.

Minho smiles and pulls me to his side, "Wouldn't you want to watch" Minho teases and I push away.

"Hey, I don't mean it like that!"

"Jisung, happy birthday" I turn to see Felix and I hug him immediately. I did keep in contact with Felix after graduation and things have never been better between us.

I pull away and my eyes find Chan, "Look at you two" I wiggle my brows and Felix laughs shyly.

"Surprise, we're together," Chan says jokingly but not jokingly.

"Is this a hard launch?" Hyunjin asks.

"We have been together for a few months—"

"What?!"

Felix scratches his neck nervously, "Yeah..."

After constant socializing, I needed a break. Slipping away from some air, I found myself on the porch of my childhood home as I looked around the familiar neighborhood.

I felt a hand on the small of my back, making me look over my shoulder to Minho who placed a kiss on my head. "Taking a break?"

I give him a small nod and smile "Thank you" I said "For planning this"

He stands beside me and says "I know how stressed you've become with classes and I figured you needed some quality time with family and friends"

I frown and hug him, he accepts it immensely wrapping his arms around me. "I love you"

"I love you too"

My eyes closed for a moment before I remembered something, pulling away but not fully as I looked at him. "I noticed you and Felix never really talk to each other, why?"

Minho shrugs "I don't know, I never really thought about it"

"I just thought since you two did have some sort of deep conversation—I guess I just figured a friendship at least would come out of it"

Minho looks over my face for a moment "Do you want that?"

I bite my bottom lip and shrug "Do you?"

Minho smirks "That doesn't answer my question, Ji"

I groan lowly and pull away fully "I don't like the idea that you two confided in each other while having a sexual relationship, but at the same time I'm happy y'all could talk to each other at least instead of holding it in"

"That's very psychology major of you to say"

I glare at him "Stop, not the time"

Minho chuckled lowly and pulled be back to him, hands on my waist. "I was never close to Felix. We slept together and maybe had a few conversations about our personal situations but that's all it was"

"He liked you" I admitted to him and Minho sighed softly, "He didn't tell me but I knew"

"I knew too"

"So, you basically used him—"

"Jisung" Minho whines, "This was a long time ago, I'm pretty sure we're both over the sneaky hookups we had in high school"

"I just want to be sure that you don't feel anything when you see him again after all this time"

Minho frowns "Is that what this is?"

I shrug "Maybe a little"

"I don't feel anything for him and I don't mean to be a complete dick but I never really had. It was you and always will be you" Minho says, "Plus I think Chan makes him really happy"

I hug him "Your right, I'm sorry"

"Don't be, baby"

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3 Months Later

"I don't think I like this" I motion to the two of them.

"Oh come on, it was going to happen one way or another Jisung," Nora says, continuing to eat her food.

A hand was placed on my thigh and I looked to Minho who gave me a forced smile, mostly telling me to chill out.

I look to Suengmin, "I mean if you hurt my sister I'll kick your ass"

He laughs "Noted, but I don't plan on it"

We were having brunch with Nora and Seungmin, they started seeing each other a months after my birthday party but I didn't think much of it until I realized it seemed to be getting serious so I demanded we get food so I could interrogate them.

I've been friends with Seungmin for a long time so I knew he wasn't a bad guy but it was my sister and I had to protect her.

"Mom loves Minnie"

"Minnie?" Minho snorted and Seungmin glared at him.

"It's cute right?" Nora asks and I nod slowly.

"Definitely, how do you feel about it, Minnie"

Seungmin's jaw clenched before looking at Nora, his eyes softened and he said "Love it"

"Bet you do" Minho mumbles and continues to eat.

"Mom suggested dinner, boyfriends included"

I hum "Is Zach coming?"

"Of course, we totally need to meet Gianna"

"Who's Gianna?" Minho asks.

"Zach says they are friends but the picture he posted of them at that Halloween party says differently" Nora shares.

I shrug "I don't think she will go—"

"Oh she will" Nora confirms "Mom specifically said that friends with benefits are allowed"

We all laugh and I shake my head "Of course she did"

"I love your mom," Seungmin says with a smile

Minho scoffs "Not as much as me, I was in the family before you"

"Doesn't mean you're the favorite"

Minho gasps dramatically and holds his heart, "I'm calling her after this, with tears"

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Another Year Later

I look at the view and my eyes widen at the sight, "This is so beautiful" Minho doesn't respond and I turn "Isn't it—"

My eyes widen even more, "Jisung" Minho says softly, my eyes watering as I see him on one knee and a large smile, "You don't know how long I've dreamed of this moment with you and the thought of asking you this made me excited and never nervous because for me it's you and my future is with you, always" I frown as I watch him hold out the ring "Marry me?"

I nod vigorously "Of course, you don't even have to ask"

The ring fit perfectly and in my life, he did too. Someone I will forever call my best friend and now my fiancé.

Looking into his eyes and knowing I would spend my life with him and would do anything to protect our relationship.

"Sweetheart, you have made my life a dream that I never want to wake up from"

[Now Playing - Be More
by Stephen Sanchez]

It's always so sad for me when I complete a book. I'm emotionally attached to everything I write.

But, it is the end and I'm trying not to think too much about it and just let it be bittersweet.

I love you all and i'm so thankful that you spent the time to read this and support me and my work (whether it's just this book or my others as well) i am genuinely grateful.

- Sierra <3