But if I OD, I want you to OD right beside me
I want you to follow right behind me
⁺ 𓂋 𓈒

"Your moping," I said to my silver head friend. I had to raise my voice a little to be heard over the music that played loudly throughout the house.

"I don't mope" Minho states, but the way he leaned on the counter with his arms crossed and the bored look on his face—he was moping.

I shove a drink in his hands "Let loose my friend"

Minho furrows his brows "It's weird hearing you say that"

I sigh loudly "I dragged you hear at least try to act happy for me before I start to regret even coming"

Minho puts the drink down and grabs my wrist "Great, let's go" He said.

Before he could pull me out of the kitchen area I heard a familiar voice "Jisung, you made it!" I turn to Maya and she smiled at me and her gaze goes to Minho "Minho, hi"

Minho drops my hand "Hi, bye—got to go" Minho says before pushing past us and out of the kitchen. I furrow my brows and small crow forms on my face as I watch my friend leave me here with—

"He doesn't like me very much" I turn to Maya and I shake my head.

"No, he's just... just Minho" I tried to come up with a reason but there was none. I mean, he didn't like her but I wasn't going to tell her that. And it was true, it was Minho. Minho wasn't particularly a friendly guy but he wasn't a complete asshole to others either. I think if you were to ask someone who was the rudest out of the two of us, it would be me.

Minho wasn't the relationship type and I was but he was friendly, he started conversations with others easily. Me, I was just a bit more closed off and it tends to come off as rude. I just didn't have as much to say, not like him. I think it's what balances our friendship out. He talks and I listen—I talk and he listens.

"Right, just Minho being Minho"

I nod slowly "Yeah..." I start "I wasn't aware you paid so much attention to him"

"I don't, but that doesn't mean I'm completely blind. Just like with you, just because I never talked or acknowledged you before doesn't mean I didn't know who you were"

I look away "Sorry, I didn't mean for it to come out rude" I look back to her and she laughs lowly.

"It's fine Jisung, I'm just as aware of what people think of me as you are"

I inhale sharply "You are a lot different than what I expected"

A puzzled look forms on her face "I hope that's a good thing"

"It is, you seem to understand me a lot"

She smiles and looks around before saying "Let's go somewhere more quiet to talk?"

It felt like deja vu, her asking me this. I nod and she grabs my hand. Leading me out of the kitchen and up the stairs. Something fill my stomach, maybe it was anticipation.

Anticipation for whatever will happen. Last time this happened she tried to hook up and I wasn't sure I was fully ready for that with her. I think a part of me built on this fantasy of being with her that I'm afraid I will disappoint myself. That this was better just being a fantasy.

She pulls me into a room, a desk lamp was the only source of light but it still showed around the place. My eyes wandered around and I knew it was her room.

"Not what you expected?"

I shrug "I didn't know what to expect," I said, turning to her "Not after knowing you"

Maya was a girly girl in school. Did cheer and was fucking good at it too. She was popular and people love her. She wasn't a bitchy person that ran around thinkings he was better than everyone but she made friends with whoever wanted and accepted it.

Her room didn't show that. It was dark, almost too plain that there was no personality and the color that was here was more earthy than it was vibrant. The walls were bare and she didn't scatter her trophies everywhere but had them on the floor near her desk.

"I'm not home often so I don't see why I need to decorate"

I nod "You don't have to explain" I walk to her and she stood there looking so... so small. "I understand" I whisper to her, running my finger across her cheek before tucking her hair behind her ear.

The sound of the music downstairs was heard as she leans forward and kisses me. It was deep and soft at the same time.

She pulled away before it got further and walked to her desk, pulling something out and hiding it behind her back.

"I'm not really sure how you will react," She says slowly and I furrow my brows and she walks to her bed, "But I've been going through so much this month and tonight I just... I just wanted to forget about my problems, just for the night"

I walk to her and sit there, putting my hand on her exposed knee "And how do you want to forget it?"

⚠️MENTIONS OF DRUGS(LSD)⚠️

She bites at her bottom lip before showing him a small plastic bag with three paper-like drugs. I look away "What the fuck Maya?" I said a bit harshly "You know I can't—"

She grabs my face to look at her "I know, I know" She says softly "I won't take one if you don't, I just wanted to have fun with you. Without a worry"

I look into her eyes and down. I sigh "I—"

The door opens and we turn our heads to my silver-haired friend who looks at us and down to what was in Maya's lap. He was fuming, walking to us, and grabbing the bag.

"What the actual fuck?!" He spat, looking at me "Jisung?"

I swallowed harshly "I know, I—"

"I offered it," Maya said, looking at me "Jisung mentioned that he's been having a hard time and I offered them for the night so he can have fun" She lied but I didn't correct her.

Minho looks at me "What?"

"Yeah just family shit, you know"

Minho looks back at Maya "Still, you shouldn't offer him this shit"

Maya bit at her lip "Sorry"

I look at the bag in his hands and swallow harshly, I could already feel the amazing high and it was calling for me. Promising me a good time.

"Just one night," I said to Minho "Just one more night" I felt like I was begging him and he looks at me for a moment.

"What kind of friend would I be if I let you have this?"

I groan "Fucking hell Minho, please. I just want to have a good time"

Minho looks around the room and groans before saying "Fine" He said like it was hard for him but quickly says "Then I'm taking one as well"

I furrow my brows "What? No, you don't have to" Minho took drugs but it wasn't as frequently as I have, like I mentioned. He was more tame.

"I want to," He said, looking between Maya and me "I deserve to have fun too"

Maya smiles "Everybody deserves fun," She says and grabs the bag, grabbing a square and putting it on her tongue before it was quickly gone.

She puts another on her tongue and grabs my face, kissing me and quickly putting it in my mouth. I hear the clearing of a throat and we break away.

Before she could grab the other Minho quickly grabs it and puts it in his mouth.

⁺ 𓂋 𓈒

I don't know how we got here but right now I didn't care about the consequences.

The moment the high hit my system—hit our system, it was euphoric. Everything felt tens of times better. Her lips were on me, hands on me.

I didn't think I would consider this sight sexy. Minho and Maya made out heavily in front of me, her hands in his silver hair and his hand on her body but it was. It was so so sexy that I wanted to feel it too.

She switch between us before pulling away, his eyes locked on mine and I felt like the world went silent.

"Friends kiss too," Maya says softly with a small giggle. I look at him with a low chuckle and before I could do any disagreeing she speaks again "You know you want to"

"I'm not a bad kisser Ji" I look at Minho and he smirks softly. I was so beautiful—

"I never claimed you were," I said "But we're friends and friends—"

"It's all fun Jisung," Maya says "Don't be a coward and ruin the fun" Her lips on my neck before going to my ear "He's a great kisser by the way"

And it was like something switched in me. I had never imagined kissing Minho, he was purely my best friend and I was straight... but tonight and this high he looked different. Under the dim lighting of the lamp and the way, he looked at me with a small smirk as he dared me to touch him. Like I might even burn I did.

I push her away slightly and sigh "It's all fun?" I said and Minho gave me a daring look. It was like we were the only two in the room.

"Nobody is making you do this Jisung"

I lean closer to him "I like fun" I whisper to him and before I knew it, his lips were on mine.

It was hot, the kiss and my body. I felt like I was on fire as my hands couldn't help themselves but roam the body that belonged to my best friend. His hands ran through my hair like he loved to do before this and always tried to convince me to dye it blue or some crazy color.

"God, I knew this would be hot" I pull away to the sound of Maya's voice. She jumps off the bed and we look at her as she grabs our hands "Now let's go dance the night away!" she pulls us out of the room and down the stairs. Not giving us time to fully grasp that we just kissed. Minho and I.

Sweaty bodies and drinks filled our system even more as the night went on but all I thought about was his lips and how much I wanted to feel them again.

[Now Playing - Faith
by The Weeknd]

happy now?

It finally happened and some can say this is fast but I honestly never intend for this story to drag out or be super long...