When will you ever find yourself
Inside, you feel like someone else
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"Your lucky my mom works late tonight," Minho says as I walk into his room.

My eyes look over his outfit. "Yo, it looks like you're trying to impress someone"

He rolls his eyes and I sit on his bed as I watch him spray on cologne. "I'm gonna get laid"

My eyes widen "I thought you weren't in the partying mood"

"I'm not, but I'm always in the mood for a good time" He smirks and I grimace.

"Your gonna ditch me for dick?"

I scoff and look at me "I never said if I was gonna sleep with a girl or boy and I'm not ditching you, your gonna wander off with your little crush"

I sigh and lay down, staring at the ceiling "I'm a little nervous" I admitted.

Minho chuckles lowly and I felt the bed dip before he hovered over me "I don't ever see you nervous"

I push him over and he laughs louder "I'm serious" I sit up on my elbows and look at him "I feel like I'm gonna puke"

"You'll be fine, stop being a dramatic little bitch" He stood up and held out his hand for me to take. I do and he pulls me up "Now let's go"

"You just want to hurry up and get laid" I mumble as we walk out of his room.

"That's what you are right about" I roll my eyes.

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He shoved a drink in my hand "Drink up and just try to let loose" Minho says and he pours himself a drink. I chug it and he looks at me with wide eyes, grabbing my cup "I said drink it not chug it, you're a lightweight babe"

"You said to let loose"

"Yeah, not get drunk in the first thirty minutes here" He shook his head and sipped his drink as he let his eyes roam the crowd.

"I should go look for Maya"

"You don't have to, she's coming this way now" He nudged me and I look to where he was looking and she smiled at me and her eyes looked to Minho.

"Hey, I'm glad you both made it"

"Yeah, our other friends pussied out last minute"

"Minho!" I hiss at his bad mouth and Maya laughed and waved it off.

"It's fine, it's nothing I'm not used to"

She had a class with Minho and no doubt she heard his dirty mouth multiple times in the hour and a half it lasted.

I watched Minho's eyes spot someone in the crowd before he says "Gonna go" before leaving my side.

"Want to go outside where it's quieter?" I nod and follow her out the back where others surrounded the pool. She walked past the others at the back house.

Pushing past the door and my eyes wander the place, it was empty and I felt my nerves rise. Getting high before this would of been a great idea.

"You and Minho have been friends forever haven't you?"

I watched her lean against a pool table and I nod slowly "Yeah, we kinda grew up together"

She smiled "That's cute, I wish I had that"

I furrow my brows "You have lots of friends" I walk closer to her.

She shrugs "Not a lot of real ones" her voice was low, "Everyone thinks they know me and they don't"

"I understand that" I did, most of my life I've been placed as this problem but nobody really knew me beneath all of that, not that I allowed them to.

Her hand goes to my shoulder softly "That's why I like you"

"Why do you like me?"

She smiles "Because I think you are the only person who will understand me"

She leaned in and kissed me. I responded immediately but I searched for the feelings I thought I'd feel at this moment. I searched for the sudden spark or the high I thought i'd feel.

Her arms wrap around my neck, pulling me closer and my hands go to her small waist for support. I pull away and covered my disappointment with a smile "Hey, let's take our time, yeah?"

She looks down shyly and nods "Okay" Her eyes look up to mine, "I think that's a good idea"

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I push through the crowd and ran into Changbin, I furrowed my brows "When did you get here?"

"A while ago, you wouldn't know because you were off with Maya"

I look around "Have you seen Minho?"

"Don't look for him, I saw him leave with some boy not long ago"

I nod slowly, "Right, he mentioned he was gonna sleep with someone"

"Don't worry about him, he can handle himself, I mean he takes care of you and that's a whole ass job"

I glare at him and he laughs loudly "I'm not worried, I'm supposed to be sleeping at his house and if his mom finds me there alone with no Minho it's gonna look suspicious"

"Damn, looks like the plan is falling apart right before my eyes"

"Shut up, if you see him tell him to get his ass home"

"Yeah I'll get him his girlfriend demanded it"

I didn't try to argue with him and just walked away and through the crowd.

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"You are so fucking dead, Minho" I mumble as I roughly run my fingers through my hair. I haven't slept, why? Because Minho thought it was a brilliant idea to sneak off with a random boy and not answer his phone all night.

His mom came home and I somehow convinced her that he was in the shower and that she should get rest.

The sound of my phone ringing made me pick it up immediately when seeing Minho's name.

"Where the fuck are you?!" I whisper shout as it was five in the morning.

"Hey, lower the tone," He said with a groan and I knew what this was. He was still slightly drunk and the hangover is starting. "Can you pick me up?"

I stand up and grab my keys, "Where are you?" I asked, walking out of his room and trying to be as quiet as possible as I walk out of the house.

"I'll send the location, but hurry I feel like I'm gonna throw up"

" Yeah, whatever, I'll take my time"

"I said hurry!" He whined and I suppressed a smile as I get in my car and drive away from his house.

He stood on the phone whining and saying how much he regretted drinking so much before I pull up to where he stood.

He got into the car and sighed, shoving his phone into his pocket "I feel like I'm dying"

"Who's being dramatic now?"

He glared at me "I'm serious"

I turn and look at him "I thoughtfully you were dead in a ditch somewhere"

He chuckled lowly "I wish, anything over this hangover that's gonna get worse" He sat sloppily in the passenger seat.

"That's not funny, I even had to convince your mom you were in the shower when she came home"

His eyes widen "Oh shit, I forgot about that"

"Yeah because you were being selfish"

The silver-haired boy scoffs "How? I'm the one that covered for your ass so you can cuddle up with Macie"

"It's Maya"

He shrugged "Good for her"

I look away and out to the empty streets "Don't do that again, you could of at least sent a text saying you weren't going home and maybe I would have made my way back to my own house"

"Why? You already told your mom that you would stay at mine"

I look at him "Better than staying in your room alone and not knowing if you were dead somewhere"

He chuckles lightly "I'm fine, suffering but definitely alive"

I look away and start the car and Minho grabs my hand, making me look at him "Thank you for coming for me and lying to my mom"

"You're always there for me"

He groans and pushed my shoulder with a weirdly large smile "That's sappy"

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