Don't read the last page but I stay, when you're lost, and i'm scared, and you're turning away
I want your midnights
I'll be cleaning up bottles with you on New Year's day
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New Year's Eve - Two Months Later
I never thought I would get to this point in my life. I'm happy, like truly happy.

It's been peaceful and one would think that's boring but I liked it. It's content and refreshing. Usually when the winter rolls in I get sick of the cold and can't wait for the spring to come but this winter was bearable, mostly because I kept warm in Minho's arms.

He didn't complain, if anything he was the one to climb into my bed most nights when I wouldn't go to his. You would think we would tired of each other but that's not the case. I want to be around him all day every day. He just puts me at ease.

Especially since I talk less to my mom nowadays, she checks in here and there but it's brief. My dad, he doesn't try anymore which I actually appreciate. In the beginning, it felt awkward to talk to Minho about my family problems, given he was close to his. I'm even set to meet them soon, a bit nervous about that but Minho reassures me that they will love me.

And there's that word. The one that lingered on my tongue but I never say it because I don't even know if that's what I feel. I'm just happy. I want to keep it that way.

Arms wrap around my waist and Minho groans into my neck "I've been looking for you" His slight slur makes me smile, I turn in his arms and wrap mine around his neck.

"For me? What do I owe the pleasure" I say jokingly and he smiles.

"Do I need a reason to look for my boyfriend?" I hum and shake my head, "Changbin doesn't know how to stop taking shots" He tells me, "But I have fomo so I took them with him"

I roll my eyes and smile with a shake of my head "I'm not babysitting you tonight" Minho gasps and puts his face in the nape of my neck, planting a small kiss on my skin.

"Please, drinking makes me even more lonely" He kisses up my ear "And I want you so bad right now"

I push him off me gently, "You're drunk Minho, not tonight" He rolls his eyes and crosses his arms like a kid.

"I'm not even drunk, I just want my boyfriend's attention" He admits.

I put my hands on his waist and walk closer "My attention is yours babe" He breaks into a smile "But no sex tonight" He sighs.

"Yeah, okay fine" He wraps his arms around me and pulls me into his chest. The music surrounds us.

Georgia decided this New Year's Eve we should host but instead of staying cooped up in our apartment, we partied on the roof of our apartment building. Close friends only, which was nice.

"Guys, it's 11:55!" Georgia shouts over to everyone. I pull away from Minho's chest and he looks at me.

His eyes linger on mine for a moment and this is where I want to be, where I want to stay, forever in his arms. Nobody had ever made me feel this way. Nobody has ever allowed me to break my walls down.

"You don't know how happy I am right now" I whisper between us, ignoring the others. We were in our own little world. "Genuinely"

Minho inhales deeply "Ji, you're everything I've ever wanted and more" He shakes his head lightly, "Promise to never leave me"

I was about to speak up when everyone cheered and fireworks went off in the distance, "I promise" I smiled and leaned in to kiss him. His lips capture mine and his arms tighten around me.

I smile against the kiss, pulling away Minho cups my cheeks but he isn't smiling. He's serious, so serious and I don't have time to think much about it when he says "I love you"

I felt as if my heart stopped beating, the noise around us drowned out and I couldn't get myself to say it back, I was speechless. My heart pounded at his confession and I was about to speak up, to say anything as a hand captured my wrist, pulling me away.

"Shots!" Felix shouts and a happy Seungmin grabs the liquor bottle. I didn't have time to think or react when Georgia grabbed my face and smiled at me, grabbing my chin and tilting my head back for me to open my mouth and I did so, allowing the strong liquid to fill my mouth.

Cheers surround me and I swallow and grimace, wiping my mouth as I mentally try to stop myself from gagging. I looked around to find Minho but he was now talking with Chan, Hyunjin, Changbin, and Jeongin, passing a blunt around and I chose to leave him. Joining my friends instead.

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"Go to sleep," I say lowly, pushing Georgia into her room and she stumbles a bit with a loud laughter. Maybe I was a bit more drunk than I had hoped but it was her fault. She kept me up while everyone started leaving, including Minho who called it a night around 2:00 A.M.

I shush her and she puts her pointer finger to her lips, it was now almost four in the morning and I could tell you she kept me up for a good reason but truthfully she ranted and reminisced for hours. I missed Minho.

I get to his room door and walk in. We sorta stopped knocking on each other's door a month into this. It felt useless because we both knew we wouldn't be sleeping alone.

I strip my shirt and jeans off my body, slowly climbing into his bed where he lays, sleeping. As I inch closer he stirs a bit, turning his head to me. "I didn't mean to wake you"

"It's fine" He opens his arms up for me to cuddle up to him. He was so warm. I subconsciously let my eyes close, but I opened them again as the room started to spin. Yeah, I drank too much.

"Georgia kept me up, I wanted to come back to the room with you," I tell him.

He tightens his arms around me and my head goes to his chest, "It's fine baby" His voice is gentle as his hand slides up and down my back.

We've gotten so much more open within these past months, it felt nice to have him to talk to even about the littlest of things. He's my best friend.

I pick my head up the second I feel his hand slow down "Wait no, don't go to sleep yet" I lightly beg, and my words come out with a bit of a slur. He looks at me, with tired eyes. "You told me you love me earlier"

Minho inhales deeply, "We don't have to talk about it Ji" He tries to reassure me. I get the feeling that he's scared to talk about it. He's scared I'll run away.

I prop myself up on my elbow and stare down at him "But I want to" I push, he looks at me confused, "Don't tell me I'm just drunkenly talking nonsense because we both know I would never just say those words unless I feel them and truthfully I've felt them for a while now, I was just scared to be the first to say it and I thought you would never say it which made me irritated because it's all I could think about every time I'm with you—" His lips on mine, shutting me up from my drunken rant.

But even though I was possibly drunk, I knew what I felt. I love Minho and I love being around him.

His hand on my jaw, lighting grazing my cheek as he deepened the kiss and I hum lightly. He pulls away, "You love me?"

"Don't make it weird or else I'll go sleep in my room and lock you out" I say as my cheeks heat up. I would never.

Minho groans and pulls me onto his body, tightening his grip "No, stay" I pick my head up from his chest and he stares at me "I love you, Ji"

I shyly smile at him "I love you too"

[Song rec - New Year's Day by Taylor Swift]