-Two weeks later-

|Nurgül's POV|

I was walking around the room at night nervously, feeling some pain in my stomach, this has been happening for the past week and the doctor says that the due date is approaching, I wish Ayşe was here, as for cemre kalfa I don't know where she is, she disappeared a few days ago, it is said that Mehmet gave her some time to rest, she is sick.

I lowered my head slowly when I felt some liquid filling my dress, then the pain started to increase and with that my screams got louder then I saw some maids entering the room.

After the doctor arrived I was lying on the bed, screaming loudly while sweat covered my face and body.. "Push hard!" This is what she kept saying but I was really trying to do it, it is very difficult!

"Come on Nurgül try" Ayşe said worriedly as she held my hand and tried to provide me with some support.

One hour, two hours, three hours, finally it's over...what happened was beyond my imagination. As soon as I changed my clothes, the door opened and then Mehmet and Hürrem Sultan entered, I didn't even expect that they would come here and I could feel the happiness that filled Mehmet's eyes, definitely not for me, when he looked at me he was very cold and seemed like he didn't care that I was there at all.

"Congratulations, şehzade, congratulations, Sultana, you now have two new şehzades" the doctor said with a smile.

Before anyone could speak and while Mehmet was looking beside me, we heard someone announcing Sultan Suleiman's arrival, Ayse quickly put a white shawl over my hair and then we saw the Sultan entering with Safiye Sultan behind him.

"Congratulations, my son" the Sultan said with a smile as he looked at Mehmet and then looked at me with a smile "Congratulations"

"Thank you, father" Mehmet replied with a calm smile.

"Thank you, your majesty" I said in a low voice, feeling terrified inside.

Safiye Sultan's eyes widened as she said "MashaAllah, twins" She looked at me then at Mehmet"Congratulations"

"Thank you Sultana" Mehmet replied smiling at her then came closer to me, took the first baby and kissed him on his forehead then gave him to his father.

After the Sultan recited the Adan in his grandson's ear he said in a slightly loud voice "Your name is Ibrahim... Your name is Ibrahim... Your name is Ibrahim"

He gave the child to Hürrem Sultan then turned to Mehmet and took the second baby, and again after the Adan he said "Your name is Bayezid... Your name is Bayezid... Your name is Bayezid" He kissed him on his forehead then gave him to Safiye Sultan who seemed happy to be with him.

"Now the şehzades and their mother should rest" the Sultan said then looked at everyone with a smile and left.

Safiye Sultan looked at him worriedly, she always fears for his health as far as I know, she kissed Bayezid on the forehead then came closer to me and put him in my arms "Congratulations Nurgül" she put a gift next to me then excused herself and left.

"I am proud, Mehmet, your sons will be by your side" said Hürrem while looking at her son "Selim, Ibrahim and Bayezid, may God protect them" she put Ibrahim in Mehmet's arms then added "I also trust your decisions and your justice, my son" she gave me a deadly look through which I did not understand what was the matter but anyway she hated me from the beginning.

Now that Mehmet and I were alone I felt terrified, the moment I was afraid of had arrived, I looked at Bayezid who was in my arms and kissed him on the forehead while my eyes were filled with tears.

“Mehmet, you have to listen to me” I said looking at him while he just looked at Ibrahim who was in his arms “Even if you want to kill me just listen to me, then I will die somewhat at ease”

Again without any answer, he placed a long kiss on Ibrahim’s cheek then approached my bed and placed it next to me. He looked at Bayezid who I was holding, he ran his fingers over his cheek then before he could turn around I had grabbed his hand with one hand “Please, don’t do this to me”

He looked at me with eyes full of questions “What about what you did to me?”

Finally I heard his voice after all this long time "I swear to you that I was forced and then I loved you sincerely.. I just wish you could read my thoughts and what's going on in my mind and heart, then you would be sure of the sincerity of my feelings and the extent of my loyalty to you"

He sighed a little and looked away as if he was thinking for a while then he pulled his hand and left the room leaving me drowning in my tears and sorrows, now all I can do is hug my two sons and kiss them as a final farewell because my punishment is irreversible.

I don't even blame him, Mehmet is kind and affectionate and I concluded this during the months I spent with him, he is the humble type despite the power he has, he is very generous with me and fulfills everything I want, he showers me with hugs and kisses and he never treated me like just a concubine.. It was me who made the biggest mistake towards him and knowing my truth made him doubt my feelings towards him especially since he previously told me that the worst thing he hates is lying.

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|3rd Person POV|

After a long day, Mehmet returned to his room in the evening after saying goodbye to his father and Safiye Sultan who suddenly decided to return to the capital.

He sat in his office and leaned his head back while thoughts clashed in his head, happy because of Ibrahim and Bayezid but very worried and angry because he had to make a decision regarding their mother, who a few months ago he considered the love of his life but until now he is still shocked about her reality, how she was so clever to make him fall in love with her... with her cheerful, funny, bold and spoiled personality.. As if she was really trained for all of that and he, like an idiot, fell in love with her without any hesitation.

‹I wish you could read my thoughts and what is going on in my mind and heart› This is what she said, it is still echoing in his mind and there is one thing that enables him to do that, her diary.

He sighed deeply as if he was preparing himself for whatever bad thing he might read, then opened his desk drawer and took out her notebook that she had hidden more than anything else. He opened it and started flipping through its pages.

«In a corner of my room, where the dim light meets the shadows of memories, I find myself immersed in my thoughts. Prince of my heart, how can I describe my feelings towards you? Your love burns in my chest like a flame, and overwhelms me with a feeling I cannot escape»

«Today was so wonderful, simply because I spent it with Mehmet, he is really attractive in a wonderful way and time with him is never boring, it makes me forget those worries and problems that fill my head»

«I tried to do it but I couldn’t, killing Mehmet? That seems to me like I would bury my soul with him, I know they will make me regret it but I really can’t do it… I am in love with him and with anything related to him»

«Whenever I remember our moments together, I feel like I am living in a different world, a world full of magic and love. But, in the midst of this love, storms of doubt and anxiety stand before me. How can I be a killer of my heart? How can I hurt the person who reflects my dreams and hopes in his eyes?»

«I am trapped between love and duty, between heart and mind, whenever I try to make plans, his eyes attract me to him, as if to say to me: "Don't think about harm, just live the moment", he is everything to me, and I know that I will not be able to hurt him, even if it means losing everything. Your love is a star in the sky of my life, and I will not accept causing its darkness»

«My love for him is like a gentle breeze dancing between the rose trees, telling stories of love in every whisper and igniting the hearts of lovers with an inextinguishable light»

«Today I miss my family very much, I wanted my mother to be here with me, I miss her very much... and my father? Well I don't know.. but I also miss him»

«I don't know if this is a dream or a nightmare, but I am about to become the mother of his child, and with this I will be attached to him for the rest of my life... I tried to tell him the truth several times, maybe this way he will forgive me and help me save my family, but I can't do it every time because I am afraid of losing him forever»

After hours of reading, he closed the notebook and went back to drown in the sea of his thoughts, but this time in a different way because now he has very different questions.

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|Nurgül's POV|

Two days have passed since I gave birth to the twins, I am in a strange and terrifying mixture of feelings, the time I spend with them is my favorite, I wish they would just tell me my fate because I am confused here and I wish I could share my worries with Ayse but I am afraid of her reaction.

Ayse went to change her clothes and I was left alone with the two babies, I checked on Bayezid who was sleeping in his bed and I picked up Ibrahim who was crying a little then I stood in front of the window I could still see the fireworks and I could hear the celebrations in the harem even though two days had passed, well everyone must be happy not every day someone gives birth to two princes. 

I kept holding Ibrahim with one hand and with the other I held a copy of the Quran to read a little from it. I heard the sound of the door and when I turned around shock covered my face, it was Mehmet, the time must have come they will execute me at night to avoid tarnishing their reputation and the reputation of the mother of their princes, which is me, I bowed to him a little then hugged Ibrahim tightly and stepped back a little, I trust him but I know very well that now he sees me as a traitor.

He looked away from me and then approached Bayezid's bed, he must have wanted to carry him but backed off when he noticed that he was sleeping peacefully, he just ran his fingers over his cheek then leaned down more and held his hand and placed a kiss on it, he raised his head to look at Ibrahim who was in my arms and before he moved away and left I extended my hand and gave him the baby, after he finished kissing him he put him in his bed then turned around.

"Mehmet, how long will this situation last?" I said without warning before he left, this is my only chance maybe "Every minute is like hell"

He sighed a little then turned to me again speaking in his calm voice that I missed "Do you think it's that easy, Nurgül or Mary or maybe Charlotte I don't really know?"

Finally he responded to me, I quickly put the book down from my hand and approached him "I know, but.."

He interrupted me saying "Let's talk in my chamber we'll wake up the babies"

Am I dreaming? Does he want to talk to me? Is he talking to me calmly indicating that he is no longer cold towards me! And finally I will leave this room.

He opened the door and I followed him, he gave instructions to one of the maids to take care of Ibrahim and Bayezid then we continued on our way to his chamber.

"So..." he said as he sat in his office then he held up a notebook, not just any notebook it was my diary! "I read it"

"Really?" My eyes began to fill with tears, happy that now he might know that my feelings for him are real and pure but nervous because he saw a vulnerable part of me there that I didn't want anyone to see.

“I still don’t understand many things” He raised his eyes and looked directly into my eyes “Since you insist on telling the truth, I am ready to hear what you have to say...I will not carry out a harsh punishment on the mother of my children without hearing her justifications”

I lowered my head a little, gathering my thoughts...Now, for the first time, I will tell my story to someone from the beginning “I was a valuable girl, like any noble girl... My father was one of the richest men in Britain... He was a very well-placed politician, but suddenly, about two years ago… he committed suicide" This was something that was very difficult for me to say, so I quickly raised my hand and wiped away some tears.

“It was a summer morning, my mother started screaming loudly and when we all headed towards the source of the sound, I saw my father who was lying on the ground in his office and next to him was a small bottle, which we later learned was a bottle of poison… After that, weeks of sadness and darkness passed, but when we started to regain our laughter and happiness, suddenly some people appeared one day in front of our palace, they were politicians and they told us that my father had many financial problems, to the point that he became bankrupt a few weeks before his suicide, so we are poor and do not own anything, our palace, our possessions, our wealth and even our jewelry will all be taken away from us” 

I looked back at Mehmet again who seemed to be listening to me with great interest “I think this is the most important part for you in this story, anyway we got one month before leaving everything and it seemed that my mother who was a lover of wealth, fell into a severe depression not accepting our new situation, suddenly on a cold and dark night, many men visited us and this time the situation was not comfortable and respectful, but terrifying, they locked us in a room and then what they told me was so shocking” 

I intertwined my fingers as I felt nervous “Our country has big enmity with the ottoman empire and they wanted to get rid of you, so for some stupid reasons, I was chosen to carry out this mission” I raised my eyebrows as I felt stupid “Indeed, I was a suitable victim for their evil plan, to end your bloodline in exchange for my mother, my sisters, and a small part of our wealth that would allow us to live a good life, so my mother would be a little more at ease”

I felt a little dizzy, remembering all the events that led me here made me want to collapse, it must have reflected on my face because Mehmet quickly stood up and approached me while giving me a glass of water then raised his hand to wipe my tears.

"Sit down" he said as he pointed to the couch and that's what I did.

"Thank you" I drank from the glass and when he sat next to me I felt a little strength to say what was left quickly "We didn't have the option to refuse, they were holding us captive, I couldn't bear to see my mother and sisters in that situation, and as the older sister I felt responsible... After they explained the plan I thought it was simple, the empire has one prince and by killing him the rule is in danger" I don't know what to say anymore so I just remained silent.

"Then why didn't you do the easy thing and regain your family and position?" he asked as he looked at me.

"I couldn't do it, I fell in love with the prince who was supposed to be my enemy" I said simply as I looked into his eyes.

"You preferred to tell your diary this and not me from the beginning" he said as if he was blaming me with the way he spoke.

"I was afraid of losing you after I found you" that's the truth, fear has been my number one enemy since the beginning and it's what caused me this series of suffering.

"My reaction would have been very different" he looked away and looked out the balcony window "You have no idea how different the situation would have been if you had told me from the beginning, I wouldn't have walked away from you but I would have helped you in all of this and instead of you allying with them we would have formed a good alliance and killed two birds with one stone"

His words made me feel guilty and hurt me a lot, I caused him a lot of problems and I will never forgive myself.

"Mehmet" Tears started to leave my eyes as I put my hand over his "I didn't want all this either"

He looked at my hand then back at my eyes and without me realizing it he wrapped his arm around me and pulled me into a hug "It's okay, what matters is that your love is real so I'm ready to face anyone just for you"

I felt safe in his embrace, I missed him so much "Finally, I was so scared"

"As long as you're by my side, you don't have to be afraid of anyone, butterfly" he said calmly as he ran his fingers through my hair.

I closed my eyes in relief "I missed you, and I missed the title butterfly"

He placed a kiss on my head "I missed your entire existence"

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