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Heavy breathing, your eyes on me
And your lips rinding all over my skin
Time is steady still
I'm losing track, I'm dizzy, so amazing

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YEOSANG

"Oh my God! You guys suck!"

Yeosang rolls his eyes back so far they might get stuck, when Hyunjin is screaming at him and Felix once again. The guys are at the beach, and Hyunjin has found an abandoned beach ball in the sand, which he's now using to teach the others a game. A game that makes no sense.

"It's your stupid game that sucks!" Felix shouts back, stumbling around in the sand, as his steps get uncoordinated by his frustrated arm gestures.

While Hyunjin and Felix are busy flipping each other off several times, Yeosang peeks over his shoulder to look at San who's resting in the shadows. It's late in the afternoon, but it's still dreadfully hot outside.

San has pushed his sunglasses up in his hair, laughing so hard at the commotion his friends are causing that the hammock he's lying in is swaying from side to side.

Looking at him, being as gorgeous as ever, Yeosang has to turn around to hide the smile that he can't hold back. If the sun hadn't already heated up his sweating face, his cheeks would give him away as well.

The tension between him and San has disappeared completely since the surprising event, which happened between them earlier that day, and Yeosang is finally starting to enjoy this vacation.

There's only one bothersome thing left.

"What is it that you don't get?" Hyunjin shouts, kicking the sand around, "I've explained the rules a million times already!"

"But you keep changing the fucking rules, all the fucking time!" Felix scoffs, dumping down to sit on his butt, arms crossed like a dissatisfied child.

"It's not my fault you're such a moron!" it instantly comes from Hyunjin.

"And this is why we don't play Overwatch together anymore! You're such a jackass when it comes to games!" Felix grumbles back.

"No, we stopped because you can't play for shit, and also because you flicked me in the face that one time!"

"I only did that because you pulled the chord out, and threw your mouse at me! You're always overreacting!"

With slow steps, Yeosang sneaks away from the discussion - letting Hyunjin and Felix have a go at each other in "peace". Hyunjin is usually the most mature, calm and pleasant person of their friend group, but when it comes to games and gaming Yeosang has learned he's a complete monster.

"God, these two..." San mumbles from the hammock, as Yeosang sits down on the sand next to him.

Yeosang nods with a small hum, letting his body cool down in the shade - or, as much as is possible with San right next to him at least. San suddenly leans over the edge of the hammock, gently brushing some sand away from Yeosang's cheek.

"W-wha-" Yeosang stutters, surprised by the sudden soft touch.

"You had some sand on your face," San replies, before lying back down.

"Oh... Thanks..."

There's something different about San, but Yeosang can't quite pin-point what it is. But it is in the way he looks at Yeosang, the way his voice has changed whenever he has said his name throughout the day.

"So... How are you feeling?" Yeosang asks, with a sudden shyness sneaking into his voice.

He pushes the sand together with his hands, not really to make anything - only to look like he's busy with something, and that his question is more mandatory than coming from his actual concern and interest.

To be honest, Yeosang isn't sure how he is feeling himself at the moment. Although he is happy that he and San aren't at each other's throats anymore, too many things have happened within the last day.

"I'm fine? Why?" San then replies, and Yeosang takes a quick look at him.

"No specific reason..."

"Hm... So, you're not asking me, because you got to fuck me earlier?" San says with a smirk, and Yeosang flinches by his words.

He nervously looks around, making sure that Hyunjin and Felix are too far away to have heard anything. San chuckles next to him when he sees the sudden stress on Yeosang's face.

"I... Don't just say it like that," Yeosang mumbles, staring at his feet which he has buried in the sand. "But... Yeah, maybe..."

"I'm feeling fine. Still a bit surprised though, didn't think you had that in you."

Yeosang turns his face just enough for their eyes to meet, and his cheeks heat up again. He still feels a little surprised by his own actions, and the aggressive way he had acted, but he doesn't regret it at all. It wasn't the first time he has tried being on top - he's tried it a couple of times during his relationship with Taeyong too.

Taeyong... Who still hasn't called him back, and with whom his relationship is still unlabeled - which makes it unclear if what Yeosang did earlier is considered cheating or not. While his eyes follow his two other friends, shouting and chasing each other around on the beach, Yeosang can't help but feel like this is all just a dream. This place is so amazing, and everything that has happened here has been so strange.

And whenever he looks at San, nothing feels real anymore. San is looking at him with such a soft look in his eyes, and a gentle smile on his lips, lying in the hammock only wearing his swimming trunks. A few faint marks from earlier are still showing on his naked upper body, and Yeosang bites his lower lip as his eyes are tracing them.

"Did you... Like it?" he suddenly hears himself asks, completely lost in looking at San's body and the memory of how it felt against his own.

"I believe I made that pretty clear, didn't I?" San replies, and Yeosang just shrugs his shoulders, although he is well aware that San seemed to enjoy the things he did to him. "If not, maybe you should just do it again?" San adds, teasingly stroking Yeosang's neck.

"I-I... I don't know," Yeosang chuckles softly, feeling his ears turning red. "I mean... I think I need to..."

"Talk to your boyfriend?" It's the first time San doesn't sound degrading or sarcastic using the word boyfriend, instead his voice lowers as the word slips out, as if it hurts him to say it.

"We are not really boyfriends," Yeosang admits, too embarrassed to look at San, "And I think he's dating someone else too."

"Oh, shit..."

"So, when you said I'll always be the second choice, you were wrong. Apparently, I'm third choice. Or forth or seventh, I don't really know..." A bittersweet smile unfolds on Yeosang's lips, as he confirms the words San had said to him in their heated argument the night before. Although it wasn't completely true, since he obviously isn't even second choice at all.

Yeosang sighs as he has to accept his own words as well, but just as he fears he will fall into a dark hole of sadness, something unexpected happens.

"I'm sorry I said that," San says, breaking through his thoughts. "But... You should always be the first choice, Sangie."

When their eyes meet again, Yeosang feels his heart melt by the sweet voice running through his ears, and he realizes he's never noticed the cute dimples that show on San's cheeks when he smiles. Maybe, because Yeosang has never seen him smile this way before.

And just like that, Yeosang forgets everything around him, all of his worries with Taeyong, just everything. Looking into San's eyes, Yeosang is overwhelmed by the emotions he had felt that night he had run down the streets, after the engagement party. The feelings he had suppressed and hid are finally let free again, and it feels like such a relief.

He has fallen in love, and he can't deny it any longer. He won't, just like he won't let anything stand in the way of seeing clearly anymore. To hell with Taeyong, and whoever he wants to fuck around with. His only worry should be, if San feels the same way or not.

"Yeosang, I..."

Yeosang feels his heart speed increasing while he waits for San to finish his sentence. But the older seems a bit hesitant, which only makes Yeosang even more nervous.

"Hey guys, wanna go grab something to eat?" Hyunjin shouts, as he and Felix are coming towards them.

San and Yeosang share one last look, both of them disappointed by being interrupted, before they both nod. Yeosang gets up, brushes some sand off his legs and butt, and then turns to help San get out of the hammock. When San almost stumbles onto his legs, their bodies bump into each other, and Yeosang stares at him in surprise.

A short moment of silence pulls them in, when Yeosang notices how San's eyes fall to his lips. As their eyes meet again, San looks at him so intensely - as if all he wants to do, is to kiss Yeosang right there on the beach. And there's nothing else that Yeosang would rather want.

They do manage to control themselves however, and quickly follows Hyunjin and Felix who are already walking a few steps ahead.

✧

Yeosang feels completely high from the day that is coming to an end. After a delicious dinner, they all went to a club and danced all night. The multi colored light had been glowing on their warm skin, and Yeosang had never seen anyone as beautiful as San right in that moment, when he turned and smiled at him on the dance floor.

Back at the bungalow, Hyunjin, Felix and San are eating some late night snacks, while watching TV in the shared living room, but Yeosang has excused himself to go to bed - being absolutely exhausted by now. He stumbles down the small hall way on his way to his bedroom, with a storm of thoughts talking over each other in his mind.

He just can't stop thinking about how much he had wanted San to kiss him on the beach. Although they kissed several times during sex earlier that day, the longing had felt different.

"Hey, Yeosang?" San suddenly whispers behind him, just as Yeosang is about to open the door to his room.

Yeosang slowly turns around, and with no further words, San gently pushes him against the wall. When San smiles at him, Yeosang feels his knees weaken under him, and when he feels San's fingers stroking down his cheek, he is ready to turn into a melted blob.

The older then leans in, their lips finally meeting each other again, and Yeosang smiles into the kiss. He wraps his arms around San's neck, pulling him closer while San puts his arms around Yeosang's waist. Their lips part, and their tongues meet, this time with a new, incredible tenderness.

The noise coming from the TV, and Hyunjin and Felix' loud talking, fades away - and all Yeosang can hear, is his own heartbeat, and the soft hums San leaves on his lips.

"Good night," San whispers, as he pulls away again. With a last smile, he turns around and walks back to the others.

Yeosang stays leaned against the wall for a couple of seconds, his cheeks flushed and his heart beating faster than ever before.

"Good night..." he then whispers through a silly smile, opening the door to his room.

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♫ Loreen - In my head

A/N: OH WHAT IS THIS? A soft moment in "Afterglow" ?? I think you all know what this means though... HURHURR