(Jimin's POV) 

Once Yoongi and I got into the van we started on our way towards practice and once we got there it was unusually tame and peaceful other than the dance. We only had to do it until we had it perfect which didn't take us very long. After our dance instructor said that we were good and that we could go home, I was so ready to get in bed and sleep, but the world had other plans.

"Do you guys want to go to a bar?"

"Absolutely!" The others said and they looked at me like they all of a sudden cared about what I thought.

"Um, sure but I don't want to drink too much, I don't really like alcohol."

"That's okay too." Namjoon said.

We all got in the van and made our way home in order to freshen up and get ready. I jumped in the shower and quickly washed away the sweat and put on black jeans and a fitted black t-shirt as well. I walked out of Yoongi's and I's room and went out to the living room to wait for the others to be ready. I sat on the way left of the couch by the arm rest and was reading Instagram comments on our most recent post. After another ten minutes the others came into the living room and I quickly got up because I didn't want to be called lazy.

"Let's get wasted!" Jungkook yelled excitedly and we all quickly went to the van and went to one of our favorite bars.

Once we got there we all headed into a booth on the way back so we could have fun but have enough privacy that people wont recognize us. A waitress came up to us and pulled out a notebook.

"Hello, welcome to the Midnight bar, my name is Seo-Jun and I'll be your server tonight. What can I get you?"

"Um, can we have 7 shots, three bloody marys, two margaritas, three beers, and a blue lagoon plase." Namjoon said as Seo-Jun nodded her head, writing everything down.

"Of course, I'll be right back with those."

"Practice went really well today, you all did really well!" Hoseok said.

I was kicking my feet back and forth since no one was talking to me directly. I was sitting by Yoongi who quietly grabbed my hand making me smile slightly, like emotional support.

"Has your ankle been giving you any problems?" Seokjin asked, looking up at me.

"Not really, it's a little sensitive but I can make due with what it is. Thank you for asking."

"Of course, it's important for us to know just in case. You're really important to this group."

"Eh, I guess." Taehyung mumbled quiet enough that I thought I was the only one who heard him until I felt Yoongi Hyung squeeze my hand letting me know he heard it too. Soon enough the waitress came back with all of our drinks and set them on the table.

"Here you are, is there anything else you would like?" She asked.

"No thank you, I think we are okay for now." She bowed and went to a different table. We all grabbed a shot and counted to three and drank it. It was a foreign feeling of it going down my throat. Namjoon gave Yoongi, Hoseok, and Jin Hyung the beer since the rest of us don't like it that much. It tasted disgusting to us. He gave the bloody marys to Taehyung and Jungkook while I just stuck with the blue lagoon. I was a lightweight when it came to alcohol, since I don't really drink very often. I was sipping on it throughout the night while the others got wasted. As they were laughing and drinking a lot I thought I could slip away unnoticed. I went to the counter and waited till the nice bartender was done with a customer.

"Sorry about the wait, what can I get you?"

"Can I just have plain water please?"

"Not much for alcohol?"

"That obvious huh?" I said nervous.

"Just a little. Here's your water."

"Thank you." I said and walked back to the table to set my water down and headed towards the bathroom.

I went into a stall because I didn't need anyone to walk in on me doing my business. I was washing my hands when I heard the door open but I went to leave but saw Namjoon Hyung.

"Hey hyung."

"Hiya Jimin. How are you doing?" He asked, slurring his words.

"I'm doing okay." I said carefully because who knew what he would do if he was angry too. Namjoon gently and firmly pushed me against the wall and was really close.

"Hyung, what are you doing?"

"I really like you, ya know. I think you're so pretty and I would really like to kiss you right now." He said quietly, looking at my lips.

"Umm, I would really prefer if you didn't kiss me, I don't feel that way about you. I really need to get back to the others." I said, trying to get away from him.

"No! I want to kiss you right now." My breath hitched as I froze in place. He wouldn't kiss me anyways right? I know he hurt me and did evil things but I couldn't imagine him ever forcing himself onto someone, even though it's happening to me right now.

"No wait, let's think about it real quick okay. Let's just get back to the others, it would be best." I stuttered out trying to gently push him away. He came closer to me and my eyes welled up with tears as he kissed me. I tried to push him away but it didn't work. It's gonna happen, I wasn't able to fight him off as much as I wanted to. He kept kissing me and licked my bottom lip and I tried to turn my head away from him. He grabbed my chin and turned my lips back to him.
"Namjoon! I don't want to do this!" I sobbed and he stopped kissing me.

"Why won't you kiss me back! We all know you're a little whore for Yoongi Hyung."

"What are you talking about? Why would you say that!"

"How else would you have him wrapped around your finger, you're obviously sleeping with him." He slurred angrily. I got really angry at his accusations and slapped him across the face.

"How dare you accuse me of sleeping with Hyung. You should've just fucking asked! It is what this is about, you're jealous because you think i'm sleeping with Yoongi hyung, and even if it was true, it's none of your business because you're not my boyfriend. We aren't even friends!" I said angrily and was super confident until he looked at me completely pissed off.

Oh shit, maybe I shouldn't have said anything. He shoved me harder into the wall and even though it was only a few centimeters it knocked the breath out of me. He put his hands on my shoulders and shoved me onto my knees. I looked up at him with wide eyes as he smirked looking down at me.

"What are you doing!?"

"What does it look like? You know exactly what you need to do if you want to go back to the table."

"Namjoon hyung please, don't make me do this. I don't want to do this!" I said as I started to sob, looking up at him.

"Do it, I was going to tell everyone you did it anyway you whore, just do it."

"Hyung, come on I don't want to, please don't make me."

"Do it right now! I won't ask again!" He said, shoving my head closer to him. I looked up at him and with shaky hands I undid his belt as He smirked down at me. I closed my eyes and he shoved it down my throat and I let my mind roam, or try to as my throat burned and hurt. I should've known that this was going to happen. How could I think he would actually apologize without anything in return. Once he finished I crumpled to the ground sobbing and trying to catch my breath as he stood over me watching.

"Thanks, that was the best blowjob ever. Now if you don't want everyone to think of you as a whore, you'll do what I say from now on, understood?" I nodded because my throat hurt way too much to even try speaking. After a while I was able to breathe again and when I looked up I didn't see him standing over me. He must've left, thank god because I don't think I could handle it if he stayed here. I sat up against the wall and cried, of all things he has done I never thought he could do something like this but he did. I got up and wiped the access fluids off my face and went out to the table.

"Where have you been?" Yoongi slurred as he saw me approaching. I saw Namjoon and looked down.

"Sorry, I got sidetracked by the art on the walls." I mumbled about sitting down next to Yoongi when Namjoon spoke up.

"You should come sit by me Jimin, you haven't sat by me all night."

"Of course hyung." I mumbled and sat by him. I didn't need the others to think I was weak for not being able to fight him, so I have to do everything I can to keep it a secret, even if it means suffering.

Once I sat down I felt a hand touch my upper thigh and tensed up. As I saw everyone enjoying their time I was quiet again, hoping that Namjoon would forget that I was with him. I silently reached over and grabbed my long forgotten water and drank some of it as I sat quieter thinking it was for the best. After twenty minutes we all got up and Namjoon paid the tab and we went to the van where the driver was and drove us home. I quickly went to my room and slammed the bathroom door closed and turned on the shower to the hottest setting and tried to wash off his touch from my body. It didn't matter how hard and long I scrubbed but I can't seem to forget it. I left the bathroom with my pajamas on and saw Yoongi hyung in bed. I went to the door and locked it just in case, I could never be too careful ever again.I laid down in bed and tried to get some sleep but I could only think of the unwanted touch on my skin. I got out og my bed and went over to him and laid in his bed hoping that maybe, just maybe if he held me I would feel protected enough to be able to sleep and forget what happened to me, just for a little while. Without thinking he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close to himself and I smiled a bit. Maybe one day I'll feel whole enough to be able to say it out loud and accept what happened to me and why it happened. I still can't wrap my head around the fact that it happened. How could I let him do that? How could I not fight back hard enough? Why didn't I fight harder? Why do I have to be weak? But for now I snuggled into Yoongi Hyung's arms and tried to forget about it for tonight, since we had a big day tomorrow. 

Sorry I didn't post even after I asked my question because I know this isnt the type of smut you guys wanted but I do promise that you'll get it eventually but right now thing's need to get worse before it needs to get better. I knew how this chapter was going to go but I didn't want to actually have to think about it and write it.