(Jimin's POV)

As Namjoon and I were sitting in the living room waiting for food to arrive, I continued to fidget with my stuffed animal.

"Do you want to watch tv as we wait for the food to arrive?"

"Sure, what do you want to watch?" I asked softly and carefully.

"Do you want to watch 'Cinderella and the Four Knights'"?

"Sure." I responded, trying to be more open and comfortable around him. He put on the show and I started to watch intensely.

"What! How could Ha Won pick him! He was so mean to her in the beginning!" I whined looking over at Namjoon.

"Right! She should've picked Kang Hyun-min." Namjoon said.

"He even said he loved her." I continued to whine and then the doorbell rang. Namjoon got up and answered the door.

"Have a goodnight man, thanks." I heard Namjoon say and then he came back with the food he ordered and put it on the coffee table in front of the both of us.

"Food has arrived and ready to eat." He said bringing two plates and chopsticks.

"Thank you." I said quietly and held the plate awkwardly not knowing what to do with it. I can't possibly eat right? They might make fun of me!

I held it while Namjoon got food for himself and sat back down on the couch.

"Are you going to eat? You can eat. I hope you know that." He said gently.

"Yeah, yeah. It's just that I'm not that hungry right now." I mumbled fidgeting with my stuffed animal after putting my plate on the table. I blushed when my stomach growled loudly and hid my face in my stuffed animal trying to disappear.

"Right..." Namjoon said teasingly and gently took my empty plate from the table and put food on it, it wasn't a lot but I'm guessing he knew I couldn't eat much at a time.

"Here." He gently stated and handed me the plate.

"Are you sure?" I hate that I had to ask the question but I had to be sure that it wasn't a trap. There was a good possibility that it could be since he's the type of cruel man who would play that sick joke on me.

"Yes Jimin, please eat, the doctors right."

I nodded softly and I looked down at the plate. Namjoon began eating and looked at the show that was on. I started to do the same and ate the food that was on my plate. Eating is a lot easier when you're distracted. I finished and put my plate on the table and sat back with Bubbles. I was messing with her ear when Namjoon looked at me and put his plate down as well.

"How long have you had Bubbles?"

"I've had her since I was a little kid."

"Can we talk now? Like real talk."

"Yeah." I was hesitant but more willing since I was a bit more comfortable around him than I was 2 hours ago.

"I wanted to talk to you because I don't like that you're scared of us and flinch a lot. I know it's our fault and that we did this to you, but want to talk about everything I did to you. I'm sorry that I hurt you so many times, even when you were asking me, begging me not to. I shouldn't have hurt you but I did and I regret everything that I have done because I don't want to hurt you anymore. I failed as a leader, as your hyung and I'm really sorry. I'll do so much better and I promise not to hurt you anymore." He said looking at me with regret in his eyes.

I wanted to be angry and I wanted to yell and scream at him that a talk isn't going to fix anything. A talk isn't going to fix anything. A talk is just words. Anyone can say anything and it wouldn't prove anything. I could say that I hated all of them but deep down I know it's not true. I wanted to do all these things to show how angry and hurt I was but no matter how hard I try I can't be angry at them because I don't blame them for what they did. I don't understand why they do what they do but I also can't love them any less. They are like family to me and I don't think it would ever be more than that. I looked at Namjoon and tried to find any hint that he was lying but found nothing.

"Thank you for apologizing Namjoon-shi but I don't think I will ever stop flinching.Maybe one day in the future but right now, it's something I do unconsciously. I'm sorry you don't like it but it's not my fault." I said quietly looking at Bubbles since I don't want to see him be sad.

" You don't need to apologize, I completely understand. It'll take time and I promise that I mean every word I say. I know that words mean nothing unless there is action behind them, so I'll show you that I care. One small step at a time." He softly murmured, making him smile softly at me.

"Thank you Namjoon hyung." I softly added the last part and he looked really happy.

"Can I hug you Jimin?"

"Y-yeah." I said internally panicking because does he want me to stand up for the hug, or does he want me to awkwardly stay sitting. Oh god I'm going to die, why is this so awkward for me.I took a deep breath and just went over and hugged him. Why did I think so much about this, it makes me cringe. After we hugged I awkwardly sat there with my stuffed animal kicking my feet and trying to get them to touch the coffee table and hit the bottom of the couch. He sat looking at me, not saying anything, just watching and it was a little weird.

"What?" I asked.

"Nothing, you're just really cute." He said resting his head in his hand.

"Stopp." I whined blushing really hard. He laughed and pulled me in for another hug, which I didn't mind because I didn't have time to overthink this one. I continued to blush and he hugged me around my waist and I put my arms around his neck.

It was good to finally have a talk with him, but something about it felt off. It wasn't bad but it was different. There was something about it that seemed off but I can't prove it because it's just a feeling

So I updated again, and I hope to at least once next week, but I'm not sure since exams are next week and I want to study since I haven't been at school much this week because I've been sick and I need to pass if I want to live. Anyways enjoy, if there's a way to make it better or if you have an idea where this story plot should go feel free to tell me, as I don't know where it's going either but have a small idea. So yeah, see you in the next one (Why did I write that it was cringe)