apologies ; slight angst coming up ! also im writing this in the middle of the night (or like early morning, so uhhhhh sad sleepy but cant sleep brain here <3

Yeonjun sat down at the kitchen table, opposite to his twin who was reading some book whilst sipping on something – either tea, hot chocolate or coffee. To be honest he wasn't paying attention to that, at all, what she was drinking was not his main issue in life.

"Rin... do you remember when–"

"Ah... The One Who Shall Not Be Named, our Voldemort?" Arin put down her book, and cup, and did one of those cute and meaningful but sort of awkward smiles. 

"Shit, we're still calling him that?"

"I dunno', are we?" she knew why the other wasn't looked directly at her, she understood him. "But to answer your question, Yeah I remember that. And I remember everything that was going on. Of course I do."

The table went silent, Arin looked around in the room. Something was up with her brother, she knew that. Honestly, she hoped with all her soul and being that it was nothing bad, nothing like... like back then. 

"Hey... Junie, why are you bringing all that up?" she didn't really know why she was talking, she knew he preferred not talking about everything, "Should I– Should I be worried?"

"No, no, not at all, it's not like that" Yeonjun began, regretting bringing it up every second that passed,"I just... I saw his mom today, at the store... or, she was leaving the store and she waved at me and... and yeah."

Arin watched as her twin rocked back and forward as he spoke, oh yeah she was worried.

"Oh, sorry, I thought you meant–" he interrupted her.

"No, it's okay." Yeonjun paused, he hated this so much. As he just stared at the cabinet behind her, Arin reached out and held his hand.

In times like these, she felt like she was an older sibling. Yeonjun had grown up a bit too fast and had missed so many things she hadn't, because when he was going through hell she was talking shit with her friends up in her bedroom. Even though they grew up simultaneously, they grew up so differently.

 "I just... I wish things would've gone differently. And... and how could she smile at me Rin? I mean, like, hell... I don't even understand how she's alive, you know?" he felt a tear run down his cheek, and even though Arin had already seen it he wiped it away as fast as he could.

"It's not your fault, you know that Yeonjun..."

"I know..."

"Oh, shit, I should tell Soob to not come over, this is not a midnight conversation we'll be having."

"No, no don't, I... I have nothing against seeing him. Or just hearing his voice really." Yeonjun quickly replied, drying his eyes, "I'm so glad you've always had Soobin..."

"And I'm sad you didn't get to keep yours forever, but we can share."

"No, Rin, stop it. I'm getting water, and then we're playing some fun... boardgame."

Arin smiled at her twin before nodding.

To which he nodded back, saying a little "I'm fine" out loud as he gulped down a glass of water.

"Yeah, plus we both know his parents are hard to deal with so it's better he stays here, right?" Arin said as her phone dinged. Soobin was just a few houses away, amazing! 

a/n:

this was not what I had in mind for this chapter (like at all, chapter 10 will be what i was planning lol), but!! okay, like, i rant through what i write and i can't really put anything else into words right now so... yEAH enjoy what the broken author has cooked up for u <3

i might go in and edit stuff later, but yeah no obviously nothing i ever write will be angstless.

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SOTC

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https://youtu.be/V37TaRdVUQY

Song ; DITTO by NewJeans

such a bop lol, i go around singing the "ratatata"-part on the daily lol