"Geez, you look horrible Soob" Arin said as Soobin knocked on her door. "Aww, y' think so?" he flashed a smile at her, "I stayed up way to late, binge watching another kdrama..." he shook his head, he hadn't been binge watching a kdrama but Arin didn't have to know. 

She chuckled, and urged Soobin to get in. "I still have to put my shoes on," she squatted down by the shoe pile her parents hadn't had a chance to clean up yet, "and I also have to find them."

He nodded at her, not really focusing as he was incredibly sleep deprived. You see, he'd stayed up overthinking his feelings and life in general, he'd do this every now and then but this was one of the first times Choi Yeonjun was one of the things he was overthinking.

Thoughts went from "I can't like him, right? We're just friends" to "Do I like him?" to "Fuck, I might like him, shit, how will this ever work?".

Eventually, when the thought "Do I want to sleep with him? Am I 'a sluttly little gay boy' like mom said a few weeks ago?" came, he decided it was time to just go to sleep.

"Is Yeonjun up?" he asked, looking from Arin who was trying to tie her shoes to the basement door. "I dunno', why r you asking?" she replied, looking up from her shoes.

"Honestly, I don't know... I guess I just don't want him to be late? His teachers get so upset, you know?" Soobin explained, but if he was going to be honest he just wanted to see him.

He'd come to the realisation that he liked the other, and so he wanted to see him – to confirm that he had "a crush" on him, or to realise that it was just late night nonsense.

He sort of wished the latter was going to come true, because then it would be so much easier.

I mean, how do you confess to your best friends brother that you like him? And how do you tell someone you've known for ages that you like him? Even worse, if they somehow actually started dating, how would he tell his parents?

"You can go check on him if you wanna, I'm sure he'd be happier to have you knock on his door than me," Arin said as she finished tying one of her shoes, moving on to the other one, "Like, you don't give 'upset mother' vibes, you know?" she chuckled, and he chuckled, before walking over to the basement door.

He opened it, and walked down into the cozy basement where Yeonjun had his room. He knocked on the door. "Hey, jjunie! You done?" he said, rather loudly so that the other could hear him from the other side of the door. 

When he got no reply, he creaked open the door. "Yeonjun?"

"Mmh..?" 

"Oh my fucking god, you haven't even–"

Yeonjun sat up, his hair messy and his eyes tired, and that in itself shut Soobin up. "You sound like Arin... it doesnt suit you."  

Soobin ended up forcing Yeonjun up from the bed, and after he was up the other quickly got on his school uniform. Soobin didn't really plan on staying in the room until Yeonjun was done, but somehow he stood by the bed and watched as Yeonjun hurriedly got ready.

"You coming?" Yeonjun said, yawning slightly as he held the door to his room open. "Oh, shit, yeah! Sorry!" he rushed over to the door, feeling like an idiot for just standing there and watching the other. "Don't say sorry Binnie, it doesn't suit you."

"There's a lot that 'doesn't suit me', huh?"

"I'm just saying..." Yeonjun trailed off. 

He watched as Soobin ran up to Arin and started babbling. He couldn't help but stare at the other, he felt guilty for liking him.

I mean, it was obvious that Soobin had a thing for Arin, and Arin probably liked him back too. He just really didn't want to disturb any sort of brocode by flirting with him, and so it was useless for him to ever think that something could happen between the two.

They were friends, and that was the way it was going to stay.

a/n:

im literally like so bored and like idk "understimulated" (i feel like my cats probably feel frfr, they dont go out as muhch during winter and get so understimulated and i feel like that rn like iM SO UNCOMFY TOO LIKE YALL I HATE BEING WITH MY DAD FOR CHRISTMAS i cant do this like frfr

^^^this is so messy and literally nobody will understand plsss, i just ranted when i wrote this and then forgot to post it???? lmao??? 

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SOTC

[25/12 - 22]

https://youtu.be/G9iDK2LrhHw

Song ; WISH YOU BACK by HAN

han's solo songs (and skz music in general) slap SO HARD, so anyways wanna write a skz fic AJKDGHSDKJHG