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𝙀𝙄𝙂𝙃𝙏 𝘼𝙉𝘿 𝘼 𝙃𝘼𝙇𝙁 𝙈𝙊𝙉𝙏𝙃𝙎 𝘼𝙂𝙊

0245 𝗛𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀
𝗦𝗔𝗡 𝗗𝗜𝗘𝗚𝗢, 𝗖𝗔𝗟𝗜𝗙𝗢𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗔

As I leaned against the wall beside the door separating me and Dinah all I could think about was how I could've done some things better in our marriage.

I just wish I could take back the fact I kept her in the dark about my brother, this upcoming deployment and how severe my mental health issues were at one point.

I then began to hear low noises coming from the inside of the bedroom causing me to sigh lowly.

"Dinah..." I called softly

"What?" She asked lowly

"I just want to talk, you don't have to open the door but I just need you to please listen and hear me out...because I know over the course of our marriage I haven't been clear to you about things and need you to understand." I said

"I'm always listening, Colton, and you know this...You just took and ran with the thought that I'd judge you even though somewhere in your mind you know I'd never." She replied

"That's the thing ever since I've been diagnosed all those years back, I've maybe tried to downplay it to make myself feel less ashamed with the fact some of my choices are still impulsive and contradicting. I tried to forget about Chase because the only thing my Mom asked me to do was take care of him before she died...and I couldn't even do that." I said wiping my tears as they silently fell

"What were you diagnosed with?" She then asked causing me to take a deep breath as I said, "PTSD, BPD, depression and a bipolar disorder."

"You are going to kill yourself trying to hold all of that in." She said causing me to nod

"The only time I've ever truly seemed to be able to keep my mental health under control is with you. I fell in love with you because seeing your smile everyday helped me cope on something I thought I could handle on my own and now everything is shattering because of me and my impetuous choices." I admitted as Sky crawled onto my lap causing me to rub her head

"I still wish you would've said all of this long ago...I wouldn't have been as hard on you since I know from all those years I worked and studied as a Corpsman how bad those disorders are especially combined." Dinah said softly

"Still isn't an excuse. I'm just trying to tell you before I potentially lose you because, hell, I don't even know whether at this point I'm a good husband or not. I just seem to be hurting and pissing you off all the time at this point..." I said mumbling the last part with a sigh as I looked toward the floor

The door then opened before a few seconds passed and Dinah sat beside me causing me to look over at her as she gently grabbed my hand causing Sky to move.

"Despite your bit of flaws you're a great husband and I think you're going to be a great Father, whose son or daughter will need just as much as I do...that's why I need you to come back home to us, okay?" Dinah said causing me to nod slow and repetitively

Dinah then slid onto my lap and placed her hands on my cheeks while leaning her forehead against mine as tears fell from my eyes onto my cheeks.

"Please promise me you'll do everything in your power to come back to me and our child." Dinah then said with a few tears falling from her eyes

"I never said I wouldn't." I replied causing her to kiss me passionately

"I'm scared for you" She then said causing me to nod in agreement as I said lowly, "You don't worry about me...I made a promise that I intend to keep, you just worry about our son"

Dinah then laid her head on my shoulder causing me to sniffle not wanting to cry anymore, the more I show my emotions the more it seems to scare her.

She then laughed faintly as she said in a subtle tone, "Son?"

"You know how you have that little voice in your head? Mine is telling me we are going to have a little boy." I replied beginning to slightly play with her hair with a long pause of silence

"I can feel your heartbeat..." Dinah then said leaning up to face me causing me to move my hand to her cheek wiping her tears as I replied, "That's what you do to me."

She then placed her hands on my cheeks causing me to place one of my hands on part of her hand and wrist softly as I leaned in to kiss her long and slow.

"Let's get you in bed, it's cold down here." I then said after pulling away as Dinah gazed at my lips before looking me in the eyes catching and fully divulging what I had just said

Dinah then lifted herself out of my lap and held her hand out for me to grab causing me to shake my head as I said, "No, the baby."

I then got up as she said, "You know, I'm not helpless?"

"I'm aware." I rebutted as I gently took hold of her hand beginning to rub her knuckles while looking her in the eyes

"You know, that's how you looked at me after our first kiss." My wife then said

"That's because after that kiss I ended up wanting more than I received" I replied causing her to laugh lowly resulting in me smiling in response to a smile finally appearing on her face

"You promise to write and call me back everyday, right?" She then asked causing me to hold up my pinky finger as she usually does to me -which I reluctantly refuse before giving in - Dinah then smiled harder and entangled her pinky with mine indicating a promise that I couldn't break.

She then hugged me tightly causing me to do the same as she murmured, "I need you in my life no matter how cool I try to play things or how mad you make me."

"I need you too, Bubba."

A/N: There's the chapter! You guys are so quiet now :( but thank you for reading. Remember to vote, comment, share and add to your library!! Love yaaa🖤🖤🖤