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𝙀𝙄𝙂𝙃𝙏 𝘼𝙉𝘿 𝘼 𝙃𝘼𝙇𝙁 𝙈𝙊𝙉𝙏𝙃𝙎 𝘼𝙂𝙊

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𝗦𝗔𝗡 𝗗𝗜𝗘𝗚𝗢, 𝗖𝗔𝗟𝗜𝗙𝗢𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗔

My eyes shot open the moment my dream turned into a nightmare, I was breathing heavily and my skin was slightly damp from a cold sweat.

The remorse, hurt and desolate feelings were all coming back and now every night all I could see was Chase dying in my arms when I tried to sleep.

For years I had tried to run from this truth to bury my inner pain and now everything was cracking down on me all at once.

And it hurt like hell.

I then rested my hand on my head before I heard sounds coming from me and Dinah's room causing me to make my way upstairs.

I wouldn't even doubt if it was her crying and trying to stifle the noise so I wouldn't hear. It was no more her being silly and making me laugh all day or being able to hold her in my arms for more than half of the day. I hurt her and was now paying for it.

Leaning against the door I then said lowly, "Dinah" while placing my hand on the door handle

I began to notice it sounded like she was throwing up causing me to slowly walk in, thankful the door wasn't locked this time.

"Dinah?" I called lowly as I made my way into the bathroom seeing Dinah was holding her hair back as she leaned against the toilet throwing up into it with Max and Sky standing near her

I then rushed by her side and kneeled beside her holding her hair back for her as she continued to throw up.

"Go back to sleep." She then said lowly as she finished throwing up whatever it was she ate

"No" I replied simply as she leaned against the side of the bathtub while breathing heavily

I then wiped her mouth with a piece of tissue before she got back on her knees and began throwing up into the toilet again causing me to grab her hair and rub her back gently.

She then groaned lowly before pulling away again this time beginning to cry causing me to look at her guiltily knowing I was the reason.

Dinah then got up and went to the sink beginning to brush her teeth continuing to cry.

"Are you pregnant?" I asked while trying to look her in the eyes

She then ignored me as she finished brushing her teeth before wiping her face.

"No, I'm not. I'm stressed." Dinah replied tonelessly

She then walked back to the toilet and gagged slightly causing me to grab her hair again before we both noticed it was a false alarm.

She then turned to face me and pushed me causing me to stand there and take it.

"Why?!" She cried continuing to lightly push and hit my chest before I just wrapped my arms around her resulting in her trying to fight to get free and me softly tightening my grip

"Why'd you lie to me again?! It's like I don't even know the man I married!" She wept as she rested her head against my chest causing me to silently cry with her as I held her

"There's no valid answer why but I genuinely am sorry, baby...and I can't stand the fact that we are apart right now. I know why you're pissed and you have every right to be but I swear to God I'll do whatever you need me to do just please forgive me." I replied as she sobbed in my arms

"Lord knows I can't stay mad at you and maybe I'm a fool for it but I need you to please stop lying to me," She said lowly after a long pause of silence minus her sniffles

"I promise on everything I love there's nothing else you don't know about," I promised finally admitting the full truth as I pulled away beginning to wipe her eyes before kissing her

She slightly tried to fight it at first before melting in my touch and kissing back, "Can I sleep in bed with you please?" I then asked as I pulled away slowly

I had been sleeping on the couch now four days and I was tired of not having her by my side and at least wanted to sleep with her the last few days I was going to be here.

"Yes." She said lowly causing me to lift her into my arms as I flipped the switch to the light turning it off before laying her in bed

Dinah then placed her hand on my chest causing me to place my hand over it.

"I love you." I then said watching as some of the light gradually came back to her person

"I love your dumb ass too." She rebutted causing me to laugh lowly as I sat on the bed beside where she laid

"I guess I deserved that one." I then said beginning to smile while looking at her

"Colton, I'm sorry I told you, you were going to lose me for doing what you did...I guess I can slightly understand why you didn't tell me about your brother but if you lie to me about anything concerning the Military or something that possibly results in you getting hurt again you won't have to worry about getting hurt in the line of duty because I'm going to hurt you." Dinah said after a long moment of silence in a promising tone

"Everything with Chase I tried to forget and for a long time I did forget but at the end of the day it was bound to come to light. But when my Admirals kept bringing him up after they found out I initially was not going to go with the guys, it felt like I was in a way they pressured me into going by using the guilt I still had stashed for my brother which was still my fault because I'm a grown man and no matter what you should've been my first priority." I ranted causing Dinah's eyebrow to raise

"Stop telling people how happy and healthy our relationship is, Colton." She then blurted causing my eyebrows to furrow

"Why?" I then asked

"Because whether you believe it or not, those same people are out to destroy that happiness. Your Admiral was the one who told me about your brother and that you were leaving and I truly believe he knew I didn't know about both of these things." She replied

"He did know I hadn't told you about going back to Iraq yet," I replied as my jaw tightened in slight anger

"See, if I didn't pray, meditate and think about this situation I would've been trying to kill you at this point," Dinah said before yawning lowly

"I thank God I married a woman who's the real deal as far as religion goes then," I said

"You better thank him, because he really did save your pink butt." She said beginning to laugh

"More than I can imagine." I rebutted laughing lowly with her

"And you better apologize to Boone and the rest of your other brothers for being an asshole the other night." Dinah then said as she closed her eyes

"You talked to them?" I then asked beginning to slightly feel bad about all I said that I shouldn't because they were right

"No" She replied simply causing my face to slightly scrunch confusingly in response to her statement

"How'd you know then?" I asked while walking over to the other side of the bed and slipping in behind her

"I can feel and see things a lot of people can't." She then mumbled as I placed my arm around her waist

I then stared off slightly in deep thought about what she just said. This wasn't the first time Dinah had said this, but I didn't doubt it anymore because a lot of the time when she'd say something was going to happen it would come to pass.

"I'm going to take you to your doctor tomorrow, baby." I then said after another long moment of silence passed between us

She then made a noise indicating an "Okay" before holding my hand which was laid on her stomach.

A/N: Hii!! How'd you all like the chapter? How do you all feel about all of the emotions too? Also, what about Dinah and Colton finally moving on from their argument? And is Chase still a big shocker? Remember to vote, comment, share and add to your library!! Love yaaa🖤🖤🖤