-my friend invited me to a birthday party that's next weekend & we're going to like some sort of springs or whatever you call them,,, & we have to bring our bathing suits & me or my body is ready for that yet

-i really wanna cancel but this is like one of my best friends ):

-PLUS my crush is gonna be there & he'll judge me n shit

-she refused to invite my bf bc she doesn't like him /:

-i dont think i wouldve made a big deal out of this if i had a one piece,,,,but i have a bikini bc my mom forced me to get one,,,,& it's like so short & small on me im literally considering to try & buy another bathing suit behind her back

-ive jus been really depressed lately & no one seems to notice,,,hmm mayb i hide it too well ??? i have to stop expecting people to know somethings wrong with me if i don't express it

-one of my best friends stopped talking to me,,,like idek what i did & im telling yall it's eating me up inside. i can barely sleep

-i started on that project a little bit but im so fucking sad & stressed t even finish i might just take the fucking zero man istg

-on a happy note,,, im seeing tøp live !!!

-i almost had an emotional breakdown in science class, bc i tried to talk to my friend who's ignoring me,,,but i was totally ignored,,,yall istg i almost cried so hard i miss him so fucking much ??? like ive never even considered him to be one of my close friends but now that he's not talking to me i really fucking miss him guys

-god, one of my friends thinks everything's about her some times & it really annoys me ???
when i was talking to my friend about my one friend not talking to me,,,she kept coming up to us & saying,, "if it's about me, just say it to my face",,, nobody mentioned her name?? idk i thibk im overreacting in that department

-i keep going over things i might've done,,,,,but the only thing that comes up is me kind of picking on him (in a friendly way) ,,,,& i totally would've understood if that was the case,,,,but he still talks to this girl who like actually bullies him??? yall idk

-sorry this is long i just really needed to fucking rant hardcore

-i really feel like no one at my school likes me,,,,i just wanna curl up into a ball & sleep man

-i also snorted a kool aid packet & got a nosebleed,,,, i also threw up,,,, it was wild

-i want to work out & get a little bit skinnier for the the birthday shit,,,but im so fucking tired & depressed that i cant fucking get out of bed,,,so ig i'll jus not eat /:

-i wanna end this on a positive note but i dont really have anything,,till next time 😩👊