" I sit there, holding him in my arms as he takes his last few breathes, I want to tell him so many things, I want to tell to him I love him, I want him to know that as he dies, a part of me dies with him, yet I sit there silent, my lips not able to formulate words. "Hey I know you wanna tell me many things, but I don't have much time, so let them stay unspoken, I'll miss you, a lot", he croaks. And that's the last thing he says as his body becomes as lifeless as a rock, and that's when my eyes give up and tears run down my cheek.

I lost him and I know I can't have him back. I still love him and I'll always do. I could never believe that I lost him...everyone tried to make me understand that he died but I didn't believe them becuz he will always be in my heart. A part of him will still be alive within me. He would die only when I'll take my last breath. I'd keep him in my heart as I had promised him on his deathbed. I know I hadn't been there when he left me but still... he's somewhere around me and I'm never letting that one part of him go. if anyone just cuts through my heart...they would see him and me together....we both promised to live and die together....and my heart died away with him...it is just my brain who reminds me of him every moment...our moments together and everything related to what I won't get back...never...but I loved him...love him and will always love him....

Not every soulmate is meant to be.... "

I stand alone on the sandy beach
my tears flowing into the sea
because I know you're out of reach
and no longer here with me
The haunted glaze over my eyes has become an all too familiar sight.
It reflects the emptiness inside of me, my soul's plight.
There's total darkness now when everything was once bright.
How I long for the day you welcome me into your light

You were so beautiful
In every way.
So amazingly wonderful,
I think of you every day.
What keeps me sane is knowing I have memories of us.
The pictures captured a glimpse,
but my heart captured
everything like a film recorder.
You are now lost to me for rest of my living life and so I cannot stop the endless tears that keep escaping my puffy, bloodshot eyes.

A new day dawns once again.
I stare at where you used
to lay your head.
I close my eyes, your face I plainly see.
That smile that could always bring me to my knees.
Those eyes that saw
into the very soul of me.
My heart aches for the touch of your hands on my skin,
The taste of your kiss on my lips.
I've come to understand
what the meaning of loneliness is.
I wipe away a tear.
It's almost more than I can bear.
I pray for the strength to get me through another day without you!