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Summary of the happenings until now: Me and Damon are now in a slightly awkward position but then he made out with Kelly so... Everything is back to normal. Anna started talking to Jer. He knows (about the using thing) but he says he likes her vibe... Bethanne died. Oopsie. Frederick got angsty. Steffy did get kidnapped but we went on a killing spree of the vampire tombs. But! He's not ripper Steffy (kinda, unfortunately) he just took more time to heal – I gave him Bambi blood. Then John came home. I just ignored him to the best of my abilities. He's a dick. Then... the whole thing with Isobel and the device – that's in Damon's possession. We gave it to her anyway. But I had a nice talk with her at Grill. Here's how it went:

She sat down and smiled, "Hello Elena. You look just like her, that's eerie."

"You've met Katherine?" I asked acting oblivious. I'm a great actress. Hehe.

"She found me after I turned. Genetic curiosity, I suppose. She would be fascinated by you." She said.

"Duh. I'm awesome." I scoffed and she looked at me weirdly. "That tacky necklace. Is that how you can walk in the sunshine?"

She glared at me and then smiled falsely "Katherine helped me obtain it."

"Who's my daddy?" I asked her like I don't know and to be more like the OG.

"Not important. He was a teenage waste of space."

"You don't say so. Like you were anything else. A name would be nice." I said.

She glares at me again – what's with her? – "It would, wouldn't it? You ask a lot of questions."

"Eh. I have them why not ask them? You killed that man" I didn't actually know who I was talking about, but I went with it. "Human life means that little to you?"

"Means nothing to me. It's just part of being what I am." She explained.

I snort, "No it's not. I know other vampires, that's not true."

"Your new boyfriend over there by the pool table? Stefan Salvatore." She asks me cause Stefan insisted on coming. What was I supposed to do? "Why Stefan? Why didn't you go for Damon? Or are you enjoying them both like Katherine did?"

"I didn't go for either. Much less Stef. He's my best friend." I tell her. "Why did you want to meet me anyway? It can't be just mother-daughter bonding."

"Because I'm curious about you. But the real reason is, I want what your uncle wants. Johnathan Gilbert's invention." She answered truthfully.

"You know my uncle?" I asked her.

"I used to spend a lot of time here when I was younger. John had a crush on me for years. He was the first one that told me about vampires."

"Poor you. Meeting the guy. But I guess it brought great things to the world" I smirk and like the OG I ask, "So what made you want to be one?"

"It's a very long list of reasons, Elena. All of which I'm sure you've thought about."

"No, actually. And it's Ellie." I told her. I haven't really thought about it actually. Eh.

"That was your first lie. It's inevitable, you're going to get old, Stefan won't. Forever doesn't last very long when you're human." She told me.

"I just told you I'm not with Stef. Nor will I be. I love him but not like that and he knows. So don't come in here like you know every fucking thing. Cause you don't." I told her and she glared at me, "And by the way, I don't have what you want."

"I want the invention." She said as she grabbed my arm and I pushed her away.

"I don't fucking have it."

"I know that, but Damon does and you're going get it for me." She told me.

"Yeah, like he's going to give it to me." I scoffed even though I know he would. He trusts my judgment and he knows about the device.

"Then the blood will be on your hands." She said as she stood up.

"No. It will be on yours. I'm not killing anyone." I said to her.

"But it will be because of you."

"Nu-huh it'll be because you decided to go on a killing spree. It's none of my business."

"Well – I – I'll do it anyway." And she left totally confused cause I messed with her mind. That was our little meeting. Then she kidnapped Jer, and we met in the town square. Here's how that went:

"Where is the device?" She asked gloomily. Drama Queen.

"Where is my brother?" I asked her back.

"This isn't a negotiation. Where is the invention?" She said.

"Uh-Where is my brother?" I scoffed.

"Do you really think that I came alone?" She said cockily and her pets appeared behind me.

"Did you think I did?" I asked back. And Ty, Care, Steffy, and Day appeared behind her – the rest of the group was waiting for Jer at my house and Enzo is still hiding from the Salvatores. She glanced back and turned back to me.

"For god sakes, call home."

"Nah. I know he's home." I smirk (just got a vibration from my phone, with the text from Bonnie to say Remy was home). "You were never gonna hurt him."

"No, I was going to kill him. Don't look for any redeeming qualities in me. I don't have any." She told me.

"Oh, I know. But you took a risk with Dames. How did you know that he was gonna give it to me?" I ask her with an eyebrow raised.

"Because he's in love with you." She said casually and I could see Damon stiffen and Stefan just looking confused. Not upset or jealous. He's over me. I think. Probs. Ty just had a knowing smirk. What does he know? And Care was wide-eyed like she just realized something. What?

"Well, that was a big risk. But thank you." I told her.

"For what?" She asked me confused.

"For being such a disappointment. A raging bitch, really. It keeps the memory of my real mother perfectly intact." I told her. I was referring to Persephone, my mom from the other world, and even Miranda.

"Goodbye, Elena. As long as you have a Salvatore on each arm, you're doomed. Katherine was smart. She got out. But we all know that you're not Katherine." She said like it hurt me.

"Thank God I'm not her. I'm much more awesome and badass." I scoff adjusting my cute black tube top casually. Isobel just looks at me and then she's gone. Then the brothers and Ty and Care come closer to me. "Well, that was a dramatic shit show."

"Are you okay?" Stef and Care asked me. They're so in sync... yay.

"What? I'm fine. It was just my egg donor, guys. I have had a lot of moms. One less doesn't make a difference." I told them with a laugh.

"Are you sure?" Damon asked looking deeply into my eyes. He wanted to talk about it. But I just...

"I am. I'll see you guys later." I told them and then apparated. Maybe I wasn't that fine. But I am now. I was the next day actually. But that's how that went. Now moving on. Now it's Founder's Day. 150th anniversary of the founding of Mystic Falls. I told Anna to take her mother and Harper out of town a long time ago. So they're not dying. Jer understood though he speaks with her by Skype. And Steffy and Dames... Well, we brought them to Enzo's place. Tyler is also here (plus the scooby gang), and his father is home – Tyler convinced him to stay in (don't ask how). Anyway, we're all in Enzo's place but Enzo isn't here yet, and the brothers don't know whose place this is.

"Whose house is this?" Damon asks sitting down on the couch.

"An old friend of yours." I grin as I sit down on the armrest of the couch.

"Old friend?" Stefan asks the group.

"Not yours though." Tyler grins, "Damon's."

"Who?" Damon asks confused.

"A really British vampire." Caroline beams.

"Who are you talking about?" Damon asks even more confused.

"Me of course. Don't tell me your memory is that bad Damon." Enzo says as he dramatically enters the room with a smirk.

"Enzo?"

"Who else?" Enzo smirks.

"I thought you were - you were-"

"Dead? Well, I'm not. And the only reason I'm not killing you right now is her." He points at me and I grin while Damon side glances at me. "She told me I could torture you or kick your arse, though."

"Ellie!" Damon exclaims and I put my hands up in surrender.

"You did leave him to burn. At least he's not killing you." I shrug, "And he knows about how you killed the love of his life too so..." I told Enzo but after much breaking glasses, a breakdown, and a lot of talk with the gang he passed on from that.

"Look Enzo I'm sorry. I really am. I just-"

"Had to get out?" Enzo glares at him, "Well you're not forgiven. Ask me in a month or so. After I kicked your arse." And then a vampy fight breaks out with me, Ty, Matt, Jer, and Vic cheering for them and Stef, Care, and Bonnie trying to tear them apart (wusses buzz killers). Then the device broke their fight off and we the non-affected by it went into the town square to watch the fireworks. Yay. But when I got home John was on the floor of the kitchen without fingers and stabbed. Fuck. I called an ambulance and it took him away and then Stef and Dames were in my kitchen with me – Jer saw us and sensed drama so he walked out with some lame excuse ("I got- this thing- right now- uh-feed the fishes" He doesn't have fishes.). So I'm here with the Salvawhores about to have a talk with both brothers about Kitty Kat.

"When I saw her," Stefan starts referring to Kat, "She told me she almost got one of us fooled. What did she mean Damon?"

"We almost kissed." Damon mutters and I try to keep my blush down (fucking hormones), "But then... I saw her eyes..."

"What do you mean you almost kissed?" Stefan asks Damon.

"I mean when you pucker up your lips and-"

"I know what kissing means Damon." Stefan sighs, "Why would you kiss Ellie?"

"Jealous?"

"Protective." Stefan corrects.

"Well, I'm not her," I tell them.

"Of course you're not Ellie." Stefan smiles at me. "You're Elena Gilbert." And that comment threw me into an existential crisis. I swear, being on your period does not help my emotions. Fucking hell, I bet I'll even cry...

"But that's the thing. I'm not." I mutter to them.

"What are you saying-" I cut Stef off.

"I'm not Elena. I'm not. I just took her place. I'm a thief." I say.

"That's not-" I cut him off again.

"I might've been a better friend to my friends than she was. Even a better sister but..." I trail off.

"El, you're not a thief," Damon tells me softly.

"Yeah, I am. I stole a lot. Her life was just part of it. I stole your happiness. Both of your happiness." I say, "Do you know what would've been happening if I wasn't here?"

"Ellie we don't want to –"

"She would've been dating you Stef" I cut Stefan off, "She would've been your epic love. And I took that from you. You could've been happy. But I can't be your epic love. You're one of my best friends. I love you. But-"

"-not like that." Stefan finishes with a nod, "I know. And I'm fine with that Ellie. I don't see you like that anymore and I'm happy anyway. You're my best friend."

I snort teary-eyed, "Don't you forget about Sexy Lexi, Stef, you've known her way longer than me." I grin but then I stop smiling and turn to Damon who's watching me "And I also took away your epic love. The bitch would've left Steffy for you. Which broke his heart and was really low of her. But in the end, you were both fine. And Day, you were happy. You loved her. You would've gotten married. Taken the cure and grow old together. And I took that from you. And I'm so sorry. I'm not her."

"You're right you're not." Damon nods, "You're Ellie. The girl who told me she wanted fries when she met me. And that shrugged her shoulders to a creepy guy laying on the road. You even told me to enjoy it. That it looked comfy." He chuckles and I shrug with a sad smile.

"And that when we met told me not to think you were mad even though you walked out of the man's room and then introduced me to your friends as Stefan 'Cool Jacket' Salvatore." He laughs.

"You did have a cool jacket," I mutter chuckling.

"You're Ellie." Damon repeats, "You're carefree, badass, sassy, selfless, caring, kind of mental, really fun, and with an obsession for movies. You're awesome. And you're right. You're not Elena. You're Ellie."

"Sure. I'm Ellie. But I still took away your happiness. It's what you want and now you can't grow old and in love with Elena. All because I'm not her."

"But I don't want that, Ellie. I don't want her. From what you told us, she seems like a bitch. She seems like Kathrine."

"Well, I'm kind of biased" I shrug as I wipe away a stray tear. God! I'm crying...Urgh.

"I trust your judgment." Damon shrugs.

"I'm gonna go see John," Stefan announces and I look at him weirdly.

"Why on earth would you want to see him?"

"I'm telling him to leave town." He shrugs and I snort.

"Telling?"

"Fine. Threatening." And whoosh he's gone. And it's just me and Damon, he looks at me weirdly and then says,

"I think I'm gonna go too. You'll be safe right?" He asks me.

"Of course. No biggie..." I mutter "Just... Kitty Kat is probable to show up. Be careful." He nods and goes away. That night though, as I put on my PJ's (one of Jer's shirts and underwear) and was getting ready to bed Damon appears in my room. Drunk-ish.

"Geez Day, gonna be any more creepy?" I ask him.

"Just doing my part in the neighborhood watch." He shrugs.

"Thanks. For what you said earlier. And being here for me." I say to him.

"That's me, your trusty bodyguard. Calm in a crisis."

"Were you drinking Dames?" I ask him and Damon holds his forefinger and thumb a small distance apart, indicating that he has been drinking a little. "And you're upset. Not a good mix."

"No, I'm not upset. Upset is an emotion, specific to those who care."

"Why are you lying?" I ask him.

"You're surprised that I would kiss you, right? You can't imagine that I would want to?"

"What? No. I-"

"That what we've been doing here means something? You're the liar, Ellie. There is something going on between the two of us and you know it."

"Of course I know it." I scoff.

"What?"

"I wasn't surprised you would kiss me, Damon."

"Damon? Not Ocean Eyes?" He asks, "If you know there's something going on why didn't you say something?"

"Cause you're too hung up to Kathrine."

"No, I'm not."

"Then why were you drinking?"

"I- uh-"

"Day, I care about you, a lot. And not as a friend. But you've spent a century and a half hung up on her." I tell him.

"Ellie I care about you too." He tells me as he grabs my face, but I pull back.

"I know. But I can't right now. Much less with you drunk." I tell him.

"Then what? You're gonna ignore me? Ignore this happened? Like you did every other moment we had?" He asks and then kisses me, and God is he a good kisser. "I want this El."

"I want this too, but you're drunk and heartbroken and I refuse to be a rebound," I say as I pull away.

"You're not a rebound, El"

"So this doesn't have anything to do with the fact that I look like her?"

"No. Of course not." He exclaims as he grabs my face again and looks into my eyes. "You know why?" I shake my head slightly, "Cause I fell in love with your eyes. Your personality. You were always there for me. You point out when I'm being a jackass but never tell me to be someone I'm not. You didn't even care when I killed Turner or Tanner or whatever the asshole's name was. That's why I love you. Looking gorgeous is just a bonus. That and your witchy powers."

"You love me?" I ask him in a whisper.

"Of course! Honestly, I've known that since we had that bonding thing in the Tree. You were there for me. Not because I might've been unstable but because I was heartbroken." He says.

"Oh well, I-" He cuts me off with a kiss. A kiss that will be on my mind for a long time. All my doubts and inhibitions flew out the window with the kiss. A kiss that started soft as if he wanted to show me that I wasn't a second choice. But then from soft and sweet the kiss turned to hungry and passionate. My hands were buried in his silky soft hair tugging at it. His tongue grazed my lower lip asking for entrance (which I conceded) while his hands came from my face to my waist to my lower back and under my thighs to pull me up. So I wrapped my legs around his waist, pulling at his hair, and he laid me on the bed kissing down my neck.

"Ahem." I hear Jer clear his throat and I groan.

"What little Gilbert? We're busy." Damon says as I look sheepishly at Jer. Then I put my hands on Day's chest and push him off me.

"Um- you better go home, Day." I tell him, "I'll see you tomorrow."

"Um, sure. Right. Bye." And he's gone.

"What's going on with you two?" Jer asks and I groan.

"I don't fucking know, Remy," I tell him.

"You better find out, cause he'll want an answer." And I groan more. Urgh. Fucking Damon and his blue eyes. Beautiful blue eyes. Hypnotizing really. Urgh. I'm so fucked.

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