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When we got to Mystic Falls Nicky left me and Davina in my house. Everything was quiet outside. Maybe because it was 2 am. The lights were out, and everyone was asleep. Not for long. I opened the door dramatically and said loudly, "Honey! I'm home!" The next moments me and Davina heard a thump from upstairs and a screech. Next thing you know a shirtless Jeremy and a sleepy Jenna came running downstairs.

"Ellie!" Jenna screamed as she hugged me, and I laugh after she pulled away I hugged Jeremy and then stepped out of the way so they could see Davina.

"Guys, this is Davina," I beamed, "Davina, this is my brother Jeremy or Jer-bear, and Aunt Jenna or Jen or Sexy Jenny." I grin.

"Hi, Davina. Welcome!" Jenna says chirpily even though she just woke up.

"She'll be living with us. That's fine, right?" I ask.

"Of course!" Jenna beams, "The more the merrier."

"It was really good meeting you, Davina but I have to go check for broken bones," Jeremy says with a smile and then heads upstairs.

"Drama Queen," I huff and then turn to Davina.

"I'll show you to your room. I'm still going to the boarding house but sleep well. I'll show you around tomorrow." I tell her and she grins.

"Thank you so much, El."

"Don't worry about it." I wave her off. After showing her to her room I went into my room and got dressed in something less car ride more 'I miss you clothes'. Hehe. Then I apparated to Damon's room and I wish I hadn't. I really wish I fucking hadn't.

"Who the fuck are you?" I ask the naked girl (bitten) on the bed. She turns to me and sneers.

"Who the fuck are you?" She asks me.

"Where's Damon?" I ask her.

"Ellie?" Damon exclaims in shock as he's coming out of the bathroom in a towel. I'm numb. I'm staring at him blankly waiting for an explanation. Waiting for the fucking reason he even thought about cheating on me. Because if I'm wrong and the girl is just randomly sitting on his bed naked, then I would love an explanation for that too. "Look I know how this looks but I can explain." He says and then looks at me and doesn't say anything else.

"Explain then," I say blankly.

"She's compelled, I was just having fun and drinking blood-" I stop him in his tracks with a humorless laugh.

"Well, I hope you had your fun. I'm done." I say as I grab the doorknob and step out of his room. I walk downstairs and sat on the couch for a while. I couldn't go home now. If I did I would probably cry and refuse to cry over him. I'm a Goddess for fuck's sake. I sure as hell won't cry over Damon Salvatore.

"Ellie I swear it didn't mean anything." He says as he comes downstairs after me after getting dressed. "I just- I didn't hear of you for a week and I thought-"

"You thought, what, Damon?" I ask and he visibly flinches at the name (I usually don't use it).

"I thought you were with Stefan." He admits and I scoff.

"I thought we had established I'm not Kathrine or Elena," I say bitterly.

"I know, I know, I'm sorry. I swear it didn't mean anything. We weren't even official." He says as he kneels next to me grabbing my hands which I immediately pull away. "I love you, Ellie." And that's when I snap.

"No, you fucking don't. And seriously, we weren't official? We were exclusive for fuck sakes. You were the one to make that stick. So don't you dare throw the 'not official' crap in my face." I say as I get up, "And I told you I hate cheaters. I told you I would never cheat on you. If I had something I wanted to do, I would tell you. I wouldn't cheat."

"I know, I'm so sorry Ellie, I love you." He tells me as he goes up to me.

"I don't know what your problem is, with these abandonment issues and thinking I would go to your brother. Seriously? That just proved what I said when we started. I'm a rebound and that never ends well. You still think of me as Kathrine and I'm not taking any more of your bullshit."

"I know you're not Katherine, Ellie, I know-"

"No, you don't. You obviously don't trust me enough to go on a trip with your brother without thinking I cheated on you. When I fucking told that a) I hate cheaters and b) I think of Stef as a brother. Besides of course you think of me as Katherine. We do look the same. That's the only reason you paid attention to me in the first place." I scoff.

"That's not true Ellie." He shouts.

"It isn't? Then why me? Why not any other girl? You had a century and a half to get with someone. A love relationship and yet the first one you had in that amount of space was with a girl who looked exactly like your ex."

"I do love you, Ellie." He says.

"Even if you do. I won't take your bullshit, Day." I huff but he perks up at the nickname, "I'm not Elena, I won't bend my morals and come back to you. I don't mind the killing – except children – I don't mind the sociopath in you. But I do mind a cheater. And hell if I bend my morals for someone. I'm not that person. I won't play with you either."

"Is that it? You're out of my life now because of one mistake?" Damon asks with honest sadness in his eyes.

"Of course not." I sigh, "I really do care about you, Dames. And we were friends before any of this. You just have to give me time."

"Fine..." He sighs but then comes up to me and cups my face with a hand, "I really am sorry El. I love you. Even if we can't be together I want you in my life." He says and I nod.

"Well, I'm not that easy to get rid of." I smirk even though I'm feeling crappy inside, "But beware the next time I see you I might punch you. Me or anyone really." I say and he laughs even though I can see he doesn't mean it. It's a mask. I truly believe he's an apology and that he loves me. But he still thought of me as another person... "See you later Day." And with that, I apparated to my room. With a deep breath, I laid on my bed and entered the Underworld. I walked through the streets of Lisbon calling out for my mom (Persephone! I'm officially on parents' name basis with both gods. YAY!) I found her sitting on a bench in a tiny square. She looked over at me and ran to me hugging the hell out of me.

"Why are you crying, honey?" She asks and that's when I realized I was crying. I hastily wipe my tears away and try to focus, "Ellie, honey, what's wrong?"

"We broke up," I whisper.

"What? Why?" She asks as we seat on the bench,

"He- he- he cheated on me," I say as I wipe another tear away.

"That asshole." She grumbles and I laugh.

"Right. I told him we were done." I told her quietly.

"As you should honey." She says sternly but then her face softens as she looks at me, "Do you love him?"

"No... I was on my way too, though." I mumble, "It's whatever..." I shrug.

"It's not 'whatever' honey. You two were getting serious, you can cry all you want and be sad all you want. You don't always have to have a strong front." She says and I look at her and starting sobbing into her shoulder.

"I really liked him." I mumble, "Urgh... I hate that face. I hate that he thought of me as someone I'm not." I grumble.

"He's a fool, Alma." She says softly.

"No shit." I scoff, "I want someone who sees me for me, you know. Someone who sees me for me just like I see everyone like themselves." I sigh, "God I'm whining, I sound like Elena." I huff.

"You have the right to whine, honey. It doesn't make you a bad person or Elena Gilbert. It makes you, you. Besides, it's the first time I've seen you cry." She says and I smile.

"Yeah, well, I don't really like crying. Makes me feel weak. I don't think I cried many times in my life. Both lives to be honest." I say, "Maybe something is wrong with me. Is it wrong that I don't like to show weakness?"

"Of course not. We're Gods after all." Mom smirks and I chuckle.

"And yet here I am, crying over Damon Salvatore."

"You're not crying over him, Alma. You're crying over your broken relationship. I don't think you actually blame him."

"That's true. I don't totally blame him. It's my fault. Somewhere inside I knew it wasn't going to work out with me being a copy of his ex and a rebound." I say then we hear footsteps and Persephone flinches.

"WHO MADE MY DAUGHTER CRY?" I hear Hades boom, and I turn to him with a sheepish smile.

"Hey, dad." I wave.

"Who made you cry, Ellie? I will find him and tear out their insides and feed them to themselves and then let Cerberus loose." He growls.

"You will do no such thing, Hades!" Mumsy dearest scolds, "Ellie is fine, is just going to take a while for it to pass. You will not kill the man."

"MAN?!"

"For the Gods' sake Hades. Stay calm. Ellie can handle herself."

"Fine!" He huffs but then turns to me, "But the next time you appear here crying all Underworld will break loose."

"Fine by me dad." I grin at them both, "I better sleep now, I still have to show Davina around tomorrow and then we're freeing the Mikaelsons!"

"Good luck, honey."

"Sleep well, Ellie."

And with that, I was out of the Underworld and back in my bad where I got comfortable under my covers and fell asleep. Honestly, the whole Damon thing didn't affect me as much as I thought it would. I can't be around him for a while but other than that I think it will just take a few days for me to get over my sore (not broken) heart. Urgh, I hated that sentence. So corny. I will, however, take longer to trust the next. I won't go through the same shit. Nu-huh. I refuse. I will be treated like the Goddess I am. Literally. And I sure as hell won't let anyone treat me as less. Or so help me Hades, I will tear them apart.

Now that my rant is over I'll be going to the Valley of Dreams. Night, night.

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I was rudely woken up by Davina jumping on top of me. I groaned as she and Jeremy laughed (apparently he's here too) and sat up in my bed squinting my eyes without fully opening. I was able to make out the blurry figures of my brother and new housemate.

"What!" I said with a groan and a glare. It wasn't even a question. It was just downright murderous, but they knew me so well by now (Even Davina) that they just laughed and I scowled.

"You did promise to take our guest out before going to the Mikaelsons," Jere said and I raised an eyebrow.

"So?"

"By the rate, you're going with that sleep you'll even be late for the Mikaelson's," JJ explained.

"And that starts at four pm." Davina pipes in.

"Urgh, fine! Fine! Let me just get ready." I then proceeded to let myself fall on the floor and crawl to the bathroom as both of them laughed at me. As I was taking my bathroom it suddenly hit me that last night wasn't a dream and I sighed. I'll be fine. It's just a guy.

Just a guy...

Debatable.

What?

It's Ocean eyes.

Am I seriously having a debate with myself?

Yup. You know it's alright, to feel bad.

Uh, who even are you? My mother?

No. I'm your conscience, dumbass.

Fine. I can't feel sad.

You're bottling things up, Alma.

No shit. Of course, I am. If I let myself feel everything I want to feel I will just...

Do an Elena?

Yup. So not doing it. Not until I'm like in my death bed.

You're a Goddess.

You get me so well.

It will come crashing down on you.

Not today it ain't. I already cried last night.

So?

So... I won't cry for like another twenty years.

We'll see.

And with that, I shook my head and got out of the shower. Isn't it bad already that I'm crazy and now I'm talking to myself? Seriously? Urgh. I got out of the bathroom and searched through my clothes. After finding some black but-cut jeans, my black converse, and my cropped Led Zepplin tee I got dressed. Afterward, I went in front of the mirror and decided to do a little change. I'm sick, of looking like a doppelwhore. So I focused on getting my hair shorter. I am now looking in the mirror and my hair is above my shoulders and a lighter shade of brown. I didn't wear any makeup (I usually don't) I just grabbed some hoops and my necklace and got out of my room. When I got downstairs Davina (I'm going to need a nickname) and Remy was waiting for me on the couch.

"You're coming, Remy?" I ask curiously and they turn to look at me and smile.

"You look great Alma," Jere says with the nickname only he uses.

"Why the change, Ellie?" Davina asks.

"I was feeling like it." I shrug and they nod and get up. "Okie. Let's go to the Grill I can introduce you to everyone D."

"Fine by me." She beams. We walk there (cause Jer still doesn't have a license and I hate to drive and it's good for D to know her way around). When we finally get to the grill it's around lunchtime and we get a table for ourselves (no one is here, yet). After ordering we hear someone call us and see Care, Ty, Bon, and Steffy come in. We call them over and they sit with us.

"Guys, this is Davina Claire. She's livening with us now. D, this is Caroline, Bonnie, Tyler and you already know Stefania." I introduce them and she smiles. She's so cute.

"Hey, Davina. Where are you from?" Care-Bear asks politely.

"Uh. New Orleans." D says and I beam.

"It's amazing there. D showed me around the French Quarter and... We need to go there." I say happily and they all chuckle. Assholes.

"You're a witch, right?" Ty asks Davina.

"Uh-huh. I'm a core witch now, actually." She replies.

"What does that mean?" Caroline asks.

"Ellie gave me magic again." She says with a grin.

"Again?" Bon asks and I know she's going to scold me. She's still a bit judgy... But who isn't? Right?

"I may or may not have stripped the witches of New Orleans from their magic..." I mutter quietly.

"What?!" Bonnie asks baffled.

"They were sacrificing kids to keep their powers and connection to the ancestors. So I cut them off." I explain.

"How did you cut off the ancestors?" Care asks impressed.

"Honestly?" I ask them and they nod, "I imagined a piece of fabric with the word witches on one side and ancestors on the other. Then I imagined a scissor cutting it in half."

"That's it?" Ty asks confused.

"No juju or anything?" Care too asks.

"That, was how you cut off the ancestors?" Davina asks in awe, "Just like that?"

"Well, yeah. How else was I supposed to do it?" I ask and they all shrug.

"Aren't you the Goddess of the Supernatural?" D asks and I nod.

"And CHaos and Universes. But we'll stick with Supernatural and Chaos."

"Have you explored what that means?"

"Not exactly... No." I shake my head, "But whatever I'm fine now, I'll figure it out."

"You're going to see Klaus today, right?" Care asks suddenly and I grin.

"Yeah, do you want to come?" I ask and she blushes.

"Is that alright?" She asks and I nod.

"Of course it is, Care."

"How are the others?" Ty asks, "Originals that is. How are they?"

"Oh, they're cool. I guess you'll have to meet them." I shrug as I want fries.

"Ellie?" Stefan asks me over the conversation going on about the Originals, and I hum, "Can I talk to you?"

"Sure, Stephan." I grin and he leads me to the pool tables.

"Are you ok?" He asks and I look at him with a frown, "Damon told me what happened."

"Oh."

"After that, I punched him. I'm really sorry for him. My brother's an ass." Steffy says softly.

"Don't be Stefanie. I'm fine. It didn't work out. It's whatever." I shrug and turn to walk away when he says something else.

"You know, you're not Kathrine." He states, "I'll admit I wanted to know you because you looked like her but you're not. You're Ellie. You're Alma. You're a fucking Goddess El. So don't let my dick of a brother get you."

I smile at him and then hug him, "I know Stef. Thanks."

"You're welcome. I love you, Els."

"I love you too, Cool Jacket. But now let's stop being sappy and go back to the group." I say and he laughs. After this lunch is meeting the Mikaelsons and I can tell you I am really excited. I really want to meet Bekah and Kol and even Finn – I'll tell him Sage is still alive. This time I won't let any of them die. Their bitch of a mother isn't here anymore, nor is their dick of a father. So, yay! Hopefully, when Freya wakes up we can save her too. I also need to rescue Kai. I know he's a sociopath, but I would love to be friends with him. I think D would like him. He loves magic too and is a bit like Kol if I'm being honest. And sadly, cause I shipped them, I think Kolvina isn't happening. She's younger than she was when they met and didn't go through all that shit... Only time will tell. I totally ruined the plot by now. Ooh, that reminds me I also need to kill Silas. As much as I liked his personality he's a no-go.

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