TW: mention of self-delete

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I explained to Jimmy that I planned to break up with zach after he brought me to see lauren again, that I just needed until friday and everything could go back to normal again. I enjoyed being pampered and spoiled again, but it didn't make me happy. I was still nervous around him and I didn't like it.

soon enough, friday was here and I was getting ready to go see my sister again after what felt like years. except, as I was getting ready, I got a few texts from her. which was odd, to say the very least.

they read:
hey scootie patootie
ur probably busy but
i love u
sorry i was never there for u when u needed me
i won't make that mistake ever again to anyone
i hope you won't miss me too much

I panicked when I read those texts. she was going to kill herself. she was really going to do it.

"zach, we have to go, now," I said as I checked her location. she was heading toward the wool water bridge.

he looked up at from tying his shoes, confused. "huh-"

"she's going to kill herself, zach," I shouted. "we have to go!"

he was quick to get up, and we rushed to his car. unfortunately, he wanted to talk about our relationship in the car.

"so, have you made a decision?" he asked.

I sighed, hardly able to think straight with all the anxiety stirring in my stomach. "I don't know, zach," I answered. "I can't really-"

"if you need me to be better, I will," he promised, turning a corner.

"it's not that," I said. "can we talk about this later please?" I felt like I was going to throw up as I stared at my phone, watching lauren get closer and closer to the bridge.

zach sighed. "fi-" he was cut off when a car behind us rammed into us, sending me flying forward to slam my face into the dashboard.

"agh, dammit..." I groaned, rubbing my forehead. I gasped as we swerved. "zach, I'm going to-" I stopped when I looked over, seeing that zach was unconscious. "oh, god."