"I think... I might be in love with him"

"Oh... wait, him? Not... her?"

in where a boy falls in love with his friend's brother, and another struggles with feelings he really shouldnt have.

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a rewrite of a fanfic i started writing several years ago, because i still love the idea and the plot... it just wasn't executed very well back then. and i also never finished it.

18 year old kevin finishing what 14 year old kevin started... thats crazy (and also 18 year old kevin who now has had alcohol and can describe those things a lot better than little innocent 14 year old me could lmao) (i cringed so much rereading some of this lmao)

info:

arin and yeonjun are twins, im also gonna write arin instead of yewon, idk i did it back then and it makes sense in my brain to do it now too.

i do not ship the real life idols.

getting this fic posted is going to take a long time, it'll likely take at the very least a year but probably maybe 2 or so. i'm just being realistic ToT

i dont have a proper update schedule, yk im a lot busier than i was at 14, but im gonna try to at least get all the previous posted chapters rewritten and posted pretty soon

trigger warnings:

mental health issues; depression, anxiety, thoughts of suicide and self harm

use of drugs (alcohol, weed)

controlling and verbally abusive parents

tiktok 2021 me got inspired by: (by frjungwon)

https://youtu.be/kojqa53FhcU

2025 me is more inspired by other media and shows ive watched, and the only thing the tiktok and song really have given me is... arin and yeonjun as twins and soobin as their childhood friend.

see you soon 👋