❝𝐝𝐢𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐨 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐦 𝐈 𝐝𝐞𝐟𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠❞

12th May 2021

The Hill, BTS apartment

↳ JUNGKOOK ༉‧₊˚✧

Since we have been busy the whole week due to 'Butter' photoshoots and right now it is 12.15 a.m. as I entered our apartment exhausted from the whole day.

"Jin hyung, I am hungry," I whined as I carefully went to my room without touching anything, who knows where this stubborn COVID 19 virus has stuck.

"Go clean yourself, we are going to eat everyone is waiting." Hobi hyung told me looking at me.

"Everyone? You all never wait for me and go to sleep. Not complaining though I get to play games till late at night." I chuckled.

"And that is why you are always tired." Hobi hyung scolded me.

As I came out after washing up I came to the dining room in just some pants since it was really hot and I never bothered putting on a shirt. I sat down on a chair at the corner laughing at some of my chats and felt eyes staring at me. I looked up confused and my eyes widened as I saw Yoongi hyung covering Jennie noona's eyes as she struggled with him to remove his hand. Jisoo noona biting her lips hard to stop herself from smiling, Lisa was looking at me with her face paler than ever and my hyungs glaring at me.

Wait where is Chaeyoung? I looked at my side where she sat peacefully and looking at me her eyes boring into mine.

"Go wear a shirt." She said and I realized why everyone was acting weird as I ran as fast as I can and came back wearing a white shirt and quickly sat down.

"It was getting late so we told them to a sleepover." Namjoon hyung explained as I muttered an 'oh' and devoured the Kimchi Jeon. We got up from dinner and it was almost 1.00 a.m. as I picked up my controller but quickly put it down as I saw Namjoon hyung giving me the usual glare as I pouted which he heartlessly ignored. He gestured me towards the living room as I followed like an obedient child.

"Jennie and Jisoo can have our room and Lisa can sleep in Namjoon's room and Chaeyoung can sleep in Jungkook's." My eyes widened at Hobi hyung's words.

"A-are w-we sl-sleeping tog-together?" I asked my voice shaking miserably.

"Why do you want to?" Suga hyung smirked and earned both of us a look from Jin hyung telling us to shut up. "No, we are not going to sleep in our rooms but elsewhere." Namjoon hyung explained.

"WHAT?" I screamed.

"Yeah there is plenty of space in the apartment so find somewhere. There's the couch actually, oh and don't think the other member's rooms are empty for one because I am going to Tae's, Namjoon hyung to Jin hyung, and Hobi hyung to Yoongi hyung's room." Jimin hyung smiled mockingly.

"I- I am going to sleep on the couch," Chaeyoung said.

"You don't have to Chaeyoung ah." Yoongi hyung said.

"Aniyo Oppa, gwenchana. I can't sleep in Jungkook's room, just let me sleep here." She stuttered out. They unknowingly nodded their head but didn't ask her further.

"Chaeyoung-ah" Lili sang, and Chae turned her head raising her eyebrow and I was pretty sure she had done something or else she wouldn't be this sweet.

"Hmm, what?" She queried and Lisa replied, "What are the chances that you will be sleeping on a wet couch?" I furrowed my brows as the other members saw a deep stain on the couch.

"Lisa, did you drool or- "Jennie noona's voice faded away as I rolled my eyes and muttered, "Be realistic" hoping no one heard it.

"No!" Lisa glared at her, "Yeontannie peed." She nuzzled her nose in Yeontan's fur and took him to clean him up. Chae suddenly paled a bit and I didn't realize why until I understood that she had nowhere to sleep and would end up in my room.

"Well then Jk's room is the only possible one but- "Jimin hyung trailed off, why does everyone keep trailing off? Chaeyoung's face regained colour and Jin hyung noticing that said, "Or I, Joon and Kook and sleep there" clearly uncomfortable at the idea of three of us sleeping in my bed.

"What? She isn't any princess to treat her specially, one night Chae would it kill you for one night. Jisoo noona said looking at Chaeyoung as she shook her head giving a small smile to hide her pain.

"And if you have any problem change with mine because it is 2 a.m. and I just want to sleep. "Jennie noona spoke frustrated about the fact that grown-ups were arguing about a bed.

Chaeyoung almost immediately shook her head accepting the fact that she would be sleeping with me, wait that sounded wrong! Anyways we split up as I and Chaeyoung went to our rooms and entered the messy place, my room was more like Jackson's from Hannah Montana except I didn't have the underwear mountain, which would probably be the last straw for Hobi hyung.

Controllers laid everywhere with wires sticking out as I started to pick them up quietly and Chaeyoung helped me keeping them wherever I told her to. Turning in the pillows and making the bed I smiled at her and she smiled back and taking the remote turned on the A.C to cool the room. She went to the washroom to change and came out in a t-shirt and shorts as I changed into a loose t-shirt and boxers, man I was really blind when I was younger even with those big doe eyes as I didn't notice her beauty inside and out. Her weight settled beside me in the bed as I tried to hand her the duvet but being too engrossed in her phone she didn't even see it.

So I smiled and slowly scooted towards her and pulled the duvet over her to her knees. I honestly didn't know why she didn't stop me or what magnetic force was making me do these small, loveable things.

She smiled gratefully and I joked, "Smiling won't help, treat me sometimes with food in a fancy restaurant" trying to cut the tension in the air. "Sure" she giggled the melodious laughter filling the air like the sweetest melody I had ever heard. You know when you love someone they do simple things in other's eyes but in your eyes, those feel special.

We stared at nothing for some amount of time before she asked, "Are you sleepy?" I shook my head as to answer no and even if I was she radiated it all away.

"I usually play overwatch but I just don't feel like it today," I answered honestly looking rounded eyes at her and she broke into a grin and I grinned too. It felt nice just to live in the present and ignoring the past and we not ignoring each other but enjoying each other's presence. But what I did to her I am pretty sure she will never forget. I hit her insecurities, I knew it all, but I still did it. Maybe it is best if I don't pick up that topic, best to keep it low.

"So, how's life?" She asked and I dramatically put my hands over my chest saying in English," You don't know BTS?" She laughed again rolling her eyes affectionately and answered," No, how's your life?" and she plopped herself on her elbows holding her fluffy cheeks. I looked at her face studying her face intently- her soft hair falling on her face, the creaks and curves answering," Quite well so far."

Unknowingly I tucked a strand of hair behind her ear and quickly redeemed my hands but looked into her eyes. Those beautiful orbs, full of curiosity, joyousness, I could sink and drown and die in there. Her cough brought me back to reality as she spoke up, "How about we write some lyrics? Not like any of us have any schedule tomorrow." I quickly nodded in approval as she rummaged her duffel bag and took out a small, black diary, and took her pen in hand.

"So how about- 'I would find you in the darkest-"and that's how we went on suggesting and writing some lyrics for our upcoming collaboration. After the paragraph was finished it went something like-

"I could find you in the darkest of nights because baby does it ever fade, the sunlight

Within you I could find the angel I need the devil or the beast, I need

Because it never fades honey my love for you even if my hands are bloody and heartbroken too

We are way better than Bonnie and Clyde because it's who we are in our tyrant hearts

We could be running through fields, a smile creeping up our lips

We could be in a world where others are merely blood

But our love is forever and ever judging us silently

Because in our hearts we are just the most precious memory

Our tyrant hearts aching in each step way beautifully"

They are really good no wonderful, I thought and she muttered 'thanks'. I looked at her questioningly and she said," Your face speaks a lot."

Her cheeks have dusted the shade of baby pink as she fumbled and put everything in her back, and I regained to look at her face- the face I once thought full of flaws, I never realized the flaws were all mine, not to realize her beauties and accept every flaw. I pulled over the duvet and turned off the lights, the moonlight got blocked by the curtains as the light of the digital clock and I saw again that strand of hair- how time passes so fast- and I slowly removed it from her face and caressed her hair as she hummed contently and before I could remove my hand she held it firmly.

Ok, yes agreed, cliché sowwy. But hey it made you impatient for the next update so my win after all.

Oh and the song lyrics are mine, how are they honestly?

And pretty please comment, it motivates me.