❝𝐈𝐬𝐧'𝐭 𝐢𝐭 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞, 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐠𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐬 𝐦𝐲 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐧𝐞.❞

Over the years 2017-2021

Years change, people change, emotions about others, feelings for someone changes. Jeon Jungkook was one of those people. Earlier when he was asked who was his ideal type he had mischievously answered IU, his own noona. His noona had scolded him a lot and he had just grinned because he never to things like love seriously. Never would actually be proper, naïve was his nature, he called himself 'international playboy'.

These gave him pride once when he was young with a premature mind, but over the years he had developed feelings for someone knowing full well she would never reciprocate it back. Starting from her solo stage to her upcoming solo he has every detail about her. But the memory tingling at the back of his head prevented him from doing anything. He could access her really easily since she was in the 97 liner group, but he had let her fall when she was ready to risk it all.

Why did he ever do it? The question was also there in his mind. Was it due to his ego? Peer pressure from friends? He doesn't know, he feels numb, he wishes he could turn back time and stop himself from doing something he would regret his whole life. But one thing he was sure off- he didn't like Chaeyoung because she was famous, beautiful- no! He loved her voice, her talents- the things she noticed in him when they were young and how he hit her like a knife pierced at her heart.

A knife cuts both ways.

Trends change, rumours fly through new skies but Chaeyoung is right where he left her. She loathes him, wants to get away from him but part of her still craves for her friend, to be his buddy, to relive the pranks they did, the conversations they had.

And even if she doesn't admit part of her loves him, questions him why he did that. Her parents had called her insensitive but she knows what she is- crying every night, singing because she has no other way of expressing her feelings. She wasn't insensitive, she was too afraid to show her true emotions to everyone, after what he did to her emotions, burned and ruined them.

너는 내 삶에 다시 뜬 햇빚 (You are the sunlight that has risen in my life).

She lighted his way by being his friend.

어린 시절 내 꿈들의 재림 (The return of my childhood dreams).

He wants to relive his gone childhood with her.

모르겠어 이 감정이 뭔지 (I don't know what this feeling is).

He doesn't know how he feels-

혹시 여기도 꿈 속인건지 (Is this a dream too?)

It feels like a dream

꿈은 사막의 푸른 신기루 (Dream is a blue mirage in the desert).

But it is not!

내 안 깊은 곳에 a priori (deep inside of me, a priori)

Maybe inside his heart-

숨이 막힐 둣이 행복해져 (I can't breathe, I'm happy)

He wants her

주변이 점점 더 투명해져 (the surroundings are getting more and more transparent)

But maybe it is not possible

저기 멀리서 바다가 들려 (I can hear the sea from afar)

He wants her from afar

꿈을 건너서 수풀 너머로 (crossing the dream, beyond the bush)

But it is all a dream

선명해지는 그곳으로 가 (Go to the place where it gets clearer)

He can't find such a place

무지개저럼 (무지개저럼) 지워진 꿈을 찾아 헤맸을까 (Did I wander in search of the erased dream like the rainbow?)

She is like a rainbow appears for a moment

운명같은 흔한 말관 달라 (Different common words like fate).

Is it fate?

아픈 너의 눈빛이 나와 같은 것을 보는 걸 (your painful eyes see the same thing as me)

Once she had fallen for him too

Won't you please stay in dreams yeah

모래바닥이 갈라진대도 (Even if the sandy bottom is cracked)

He will catch her this time

그 누가 이 세계를 흔들어도 (No matter who shakes this world)

But maybe she will not fall again

잡은 손 절대 놓지 말아줘 (Never let go of your hand)

But he wants to feel her

제발 꿈에서 깨어나지 마 (Please don't wake up from your dreams)

But it will only be a dream now

Take my hands now. You are the cause of my euphoria

Yes Park Chaeyoung makes him feel euphoric

Close the door now. When I'm with you, I'm in a utopia

He wants to live in his dreams.

Since y'all are here with me till now the real story or plot starts from the next chapter...