Saw my friend again today, it was awkward with the talk but I was happy to see her so surprised and in shock that I was actually there. The hug was amazing too.

I got the best scores on my driver's ed tests today too

But I have a feeling I need to get an inhaler soon again since its starting to get hard for me to breath, my throat and lungs feel tight and yeah

I've also been feeling light headed and weak a lot lately too but idk if it's because I need water or what

My anxiety with school hasn't gone away either, everytime I step in that school I feel like I'm going to pass out, scream or cry. So I think I'm just going to be staying in home school.

I stopped talking with my close guy friend today...I felt so annoying when I talked to him and I couldn't tell if he was annoyed or not too...The problem is too that I'm starting to like him like him and he's the one I said I wanted to just stay friends with in the past...

I'm realizing now that it was a huge mistake because he would have been perfect...

Plus idk if he still has his girlfriend or if he has a different one now...

I wish I would have said yes... Ugh

I don't even know what I'm trying to make out of life anymore either. I feel like I'm too much of a wreck to be even in this earth basically all my traits conflict with eachother

I don't even have a special talent either besides making people smile or laugh and none of those sorts of jobs that I think about appeal to me

I'm just stuck in the same day and I have been for the past 4 years...

It feels like I'm never going to get out of it

Just a little Gif for how I'm feeling I guess and it looks like me too sort of so bonus I guess