Lea immediately notices her brother's predicament, and dives off the hammock before I can warn her it's too far, she'll die!

I stand frozen, watching the two figures fall and fall. Lea reaches Lee and grabs onto him, holding him tight, but she's too late. 

There's a sickening crunch as they hit the ground, and two more cannons sound. 

I stay there for a few more moments, still frozen. Lea leaped after Lee. They're both dead. Dead. Dead. Dead. 

The word echoes in my mind. I remind myself that this is the hunger games. People die all the time. It's the whole point.

But now I wonder who the other cannon shot was. What if it was Aegis? What if I'm too late, and all my allies and friends ever have just died?

I don't think I'd ever have the courage to jump out of a tree to save someone, even if it's my sister. I've got a feeling that I would freeze like I did just now, and they would be dead. 

Earlier I judged Aegis for freezing in the face of danger, but I see why he did now. It's hard to comprehend what's happening when one of your only friends in the world is killed right in front of you. 

Not that Lee and Lea were my friends. We were only allies. But me and Lea were so close to being friends. Just one word away. 

Like that'll ever happen now. They're both dead. Victor's dead. Aegis's probably dead. 

I realize with a shock that everyone I ever cared about is either dead or probably dead. My dad. My sister. Victor. Aegis. Lee and Lea. 

I try to force the thoughts to leave my mind. I don't want to think about death. But it's overwhelming, and soon I'm a shaking, sobbing ball of sadness. 

The thought of someone hearing and finding me floats around in the back of my mind, but I ignore it. 

The hovercraft find the bodies and pulls them up into the air. 

I look, even though I don't want to. And I notice that even though the sibling's bodies are broken and twisted and bloody, Lea is still holding onto Lee. 

I look away. If I feel this sad at seeing two people I didn't even know very well dead, I can't imagine what their parents must be like right now. 

Now I kind of wish my mother cared about me. When I die I want her to be devastated.

The next morning, I pack up all of Lee and Lea's things and keep moving. I tell myself that it's what Lea would want me to do, but I'm honestly not sure. 

While I'm walking, I devise a plan. I need the rest of these tributes gone, so I can win this thing.

I'll chop down a tree, as quickly as I can. Someone will hear the noise and come running, and I'll ambush them from my spot in a tree. I'll drop my ax on their head, then climb down and retrieve it. 

I tell myself this plan is foolproof, but of course that's probably not true. They could have more than one person. They could know how to use a bow and shoot me before I can kill them. 

There's way too many ways this could go wrong. But I have to try it. 

Plus, if it's the careers, I could follow them back to their campsite and find Aegis. 

I set up my trap, finding a good tree that I can quickly climb. I pick out the tree I'm going to cut down, and make sure I'm ready before raising my ax and hitting it as quietly as I can until the tree is swaying so hard it looks as if the slightest gust of wind could knock it down. 

I climb the tree next to it, getting myself comfortable before throwing my canteen at the tree. 

It's a sacrifice I'm willing to make. If I lose my water bottle, then... well, that's not good. But I don't have anything else I'm willing to sacrifice. Plus, I can always get it back. 

The tree falls, making a noise so loud it makes me wince.

I wait, and soon someone comes crashing through the forest, probably wondering who or what made that sound. 

She peeks into view, and I notice she has platinum-blond hair and a petite body that makes her look somewhat like a fairy. I notice that she's a bit younger than me, maybe thirteen. 

She's barely even a teenager. Older than some of the other children who were roped into this bloodbath, but still much too young to fight anyone to the death. 

She bends down to examine the tree, and I try to ignore the guilt swarming my mind as I throw my ax. 

It embeds itself in her skull and she stumbles, falling forward onto the tree as blood bubbles from her mouth, staining the wood red. Her cannon goes off.

I take a deep breath before scrambling down the tree and grabbing my ax. It seems like only a second after I'm done that the hovercraft comes, silently taking the remains of that poor girl. 

I close my eyes and take another few minutes to steel myself. I killed an innocent girl. I didn't even know her name. 

I don't know how I'll ever forgive myself. 

I hear a laugh coming from the stump's direction and I turn towards the noise, hoping so hard it's not the careers. 

But of course, the odds are not and never were in my favor. Oceania takes a step forward and laughs in my face.

"We meet again, Amethyst."