DISCLAIMER : This is a fanfic and it may contain calling famous people with nicknames and all. So plzz don't troll me. Read in the POV of the protagonist. So everything in this ff is basically fictional.

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3 may, 2027

It was a beautiful evening and I could see the crowd surrounding me hooting loudly, supporting their favorite team.
Being an ardent fan of cricket I enjoyed watching cricket live, and what made me more happy was seeing my loved one playing marvelously in front of my eyes.

It was the last group stage match between RCB and KKR, the winner of this match will be qualified into the playoffs. I could feel the tension in the face of each RCBian around me. The target was 45 runs off 16 balls, it was a bit tough but not impossible. The partnership between Dev and de Villiers could easily make the impossible possible.

Like everyone I was also enjoying the match, by the end of the over, the target was 25 of 12. Yes, Dev the man of my dreams hit three consecutive sixes and took a double. Everyone in the gallery was astounded and he was indeed making the impossible possible.

We've known each other for 2 years now. We met at the hospital where I worked when he came there with a leg injury. We could easily connect with each other and we eventually became good friends. Being from the same hometown made us more close. later I was offered a job in RCB's medical team, but I could not accept it. Everyone knew we were good friends and I don't want people to think that I took advantage of that relationship, even though he didn't knew about the offer and had nothing to do with it.

Earlier this year he invited me to watch the IPL. He knew how much I loved cricket. I also knew that every player can take one person along with them and the team will take care of the expenses. So he called me because he wanted me to come. I couldn't deny the offer.

Everything was going on well. I started talking to the team members and their close ones and I became comfortable with them. Rumors spread that we were dating , but it was not true. I loved him from my bottom of my heart but I couldn't confess, what if he didn't felt the same. I won't be able to live facing his rejection. I even bought a ring to propose him but I couldn't. I thought he would shove of the rumors but he didn't, maybe he didn't wanna give damn explanations to anyone.

It's been more than 1 month since I've been with the team. And today was the most crucial day for them they were trying their level best to win, they had been to a lot of finals but destiny didn't let them win . Seeing their hard work I also wanted them to win. They will. My heart assured me.

My thoughts were broken by my mobile ring. It was my mom. I took the phone and went to the washroom as I was sure that I wouldn't be able to talk to her with these noise around me.

I answered her call, the news she told me broke my heart. I couldn't believe that destiny would take such a turn on me. The call ended and I was numb. I took small steps towards the stadium and there in the ground I could see the sad faces of KKR players while the whole RCB crew had a group hug in the middle of the ground.

Yes! they won and Dev scored 107 his highest. I glanced at the screen placed on the other end of the gallery and I could see the happy faces of my favorites. Later I could see Dev walking towards the stage to collect the man of the match and game changer awards.
His smile while accepting them brought a small smile in my face despite the situation.

I was so proud of him, he was achieving great heights. He was such an amazing gentleman. Before meeting him, I admired him as a cricketer but now I admire him for his character. He deserved success.

Soon my mind again thought of what happened a few moments ago. All I wanted to do now was to cry my heart out, but not even a single drop of tear made way through my eyes.

I went down to congratulate all the members but I couldn't just face him. I was angry as hell with God, because if I hadn't met Dev and he was still the same Indian cricketer for me, I wouldn't be in this situation. My heart was beating so fast that I felt it would jump out anytime.

He came near me and hugged me. He had hugged me a lot of times, but this time it felt different. I was crying. Yes the tears that I had held in the whole time bursted out. They betrayed me. He saw me crying and asked me why. I gave a lame excuse of them being happy tears. What a lie. I wanted to tell him everything, but I couldn't.

Later virat ,bhaiya announced that they are holding a party in the banquet hall tomorrow evening, basically today evening. It was 5 minutes past 12. I didn't wanna go but , I knew if I didn't everyone would ask me the reasons. I can't face them and lie. I decided to go for the party.

It was about 12.30 am when I reached my room. I went to the washroom and cried my heart out, I cursed myself for letting myself be his friend, for giving him a place in my heart. I still loved him, but situations took a really huge turn and we can never be together. I couldn't blame him. He didn't even know.

I went out and took my diary or more precisely "Dev diary", it was gifted by him to me on my last birthday, he knew my love for writing. But I didn't know why, I wrote in it only when something happens in my life connected to him. Such days rarely happens. Today was such a day. Maybe the last day of me writing this diary.

I HAD TO LET HIM GO .

Why is destiny so cruel, why can't I be with someone I love. Maybe God didn't wanted me to be happy.

I wrote down all my feelings and went to bed, I was just laying down staring at the ceiling.

I woke up the next day I didn't even know how the day passed. It was evening and I had to attend the success party. I freshened up and wore a casual top and a denim. I entered the hall. The hall was filled with the teammates and other crew and unfortunately (or fortunately), he was the first one I met.

He asked," where were you the whole day. I didn't even met you at breakfast or lunch."

"I went out with one of my friends, she was here in Mumbai and knowing I am here too called me out, so I ate breakfast and lunch from outside" I lied looking around the hall not ready to meet his eyes , I knew that his eyes would make me weak, I will blabber the truth out. I skipped breakfast and lunch because I did neither have the courage to face him nor was hungry. I continued ," and why do you care, I am JUST YOUR FRIEND." Pressuring the 'just your friend'.

I know I am being rude. But I had to. I had to make my heart believe that I didn't care for him, that he is no one to me. I was lying to myself. Before I could speak he dragged me to where everyone stood, everyone greeted me.

I talked to them acted like everything was okay and I am still the same. And suddenly I felt a tug at the waist, it was my angel and princess. Isha, Dhana di's and Yuzi bhaiyya's little boy And VAMIKA Anushka di's and Virat bhaiyya's babydoll.

We three were fond of each other and isha was the one for whom the designer inside my doctor self emerged. I was working on a design for her 4th birthday party.

Vamika was not less, she was the most beautiful and naughty girl I have seen in my life. She was 7 but at times I feel she is 17 she acted so mature. We are more than crime partners, I always helped her prank her dada and his teammates.

Seeing them made calmed my heart which was beating for the last one day. They dragged me out to a dark area. Everyone followed us . The lights were back, and I could see what I wished for the previous 6 months (till yesterday) infront me. He was kneeling down. I couldn't believe my eyes. I felt as if the ground beneath me is breaking down , I felt I was falling into the pit.

Then he started speaking,

"When I met you, I knew I had met my match. It was only a matter of time until we arrived at this moment. How it turns out is all in your hands. When I look into your eyes, I can see a reflection of the two of us and the life I hope we'll share together. I know you're the only one I want to share the rest of my life with. I promise you, no one will work harder to make you happy or cherish you more than me. Life offers many challenges. I know I can meet them if you're willing to face them with me. You deserve the very best, someone who will back you up without limits, let you grow without borders and love you without end. Will you let me be the one? Our past was memorable, can our future be infinite? I found the reason for my smile, the day I found you. Will you let me be the reason for your smile?"

I was speechless. Never in my life I thought that he would propose me in such a dreamy way. If it was 2 days ago it would have been a dream come true. But now it's not, it's worse than a nightmare. My heart was crying. As he took out the ring from the pocket, I glanced at it, it was the same ring he bought 3 months ago in Bangalore.

3 months ago:

I was standing near the hospital gate, when my phone rang, the caller ID showed the name DEV, from the past 3 months simply hearing his name would make me smile, his name had the power to make me happy even when i was in a miserable condition. I picked the call.

hey, how are you? Are you busy.

no, I am actually waiting for a cab.

Okay then meet me at Garuda mall.

why?

I will tell you, first do as I say.

ok.

I took a cab and went to Garuda mall as he said. I found him. He was wearing a hoodie, that's how he visit public places to avoid being spotted. We went inside a jewelry showroom. I didn't know what he was up to.
Me: why are we here?
Dev: okay, I found the one for me. I wanna buy a ring for her. I don't know about the girly stuff so you wanna help me.

My heart broke, he found the one. So US turned to an unachievable yet beautiful dream.

"why me? You could have asked your sister." I asked without letting him know i felt sad.

"You know her right? if asked her she would be like , you and love! Is it a boy or girl? What's the name?.... blah blah blah..'
So I chose you."

My mind was rumbling, I loved him but now he found the one. As someone said in the past, to love is to let go. I decided to let him go.
After a one or two hours we found a ring, it was beautiful.

"do you like it?"
"I love it ." The ring was beautiful. whoever ut is to is lucky, not cause of the ring but the person she gets to live her life with.

The salesman went to pack the ring and he went to pay . I looked at him and thought how nice it would have been if we were together. But I was happy as I could see him happy. I moved my eyes through the showroom and that was when a ring caught my eyes,

My heart said to buy it, and for the first time in my life I listened to my heart.
"can you please pack it and keep aside, and I would come back after a few minutes." I asked to the salesperson as i wouldnt be able to buy it now and lie to dev when he questions me

"WILL YOU MARRY ME?". Dev's voice brought me back to the present.

I couldn't speak. No words made its out of my mouth. I just nodded a no and ran from there excusing the crowd who were eagerly waiting for my answer. I ran as fast as I could I ran up to the terrace and cried out loud, the clouds also cried for me.

I just shouted loudly," I love you Dev, but we can never be together." I cried again, little did I know someone followed up me and heard my confession. I heard a voice calling me.

I turned around and saw, Anu di and Dhana di or as you guys know Anushka Kohli and Dhanashree Chahal I was shocked. They were the ones who I was the most attached to. I felt a kind of motherly feeling from them.

Anu: don't you love Dev?
Me: no.*. I just blurted out blankly*
Anu: don't lie we heard what you said.
Me: I love him, but we can never be together.
Dha: why? Are you scared of the society when they comes to know about your relation? Even I felt the same when yuzi proposed me.
Me: no, I don't give a damn about the society.
Anu: then why? You both love each other and you are going to be a perfect couple.
Me: no, it can never happen.
Dha: it's just your exaggerated thoughts. Everything is gonna be alright .
Me: nothing's gonna be alright. Everything is shattered.
Anu: do you care to explain us why.
I told them the truth. I could see from their faces that they were shocked.

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How is it guys.. hope you share your thoughts. It's a bit awkward to read but I think it will get used to.
I believe that I could convey the emotions. if not plz tell me where I should correct my mistakes.

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jayasri7 I love you di. You are the best. thank you for your support.
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