Anu: stop kidding yaar.

Me: I am not kidding , it's true.

Dha: are you serious.

Me: I am damn serious , I am getting married in two weeks. My mom called me yesterday and said that some son of some friend of my father came to my house and said he was interested in me and wanted to get married to me. And what my so called parents did. They just agreed without even asking me.

Dha: have you seen him?
Me: no.
Anu: his name?
Me: I don't know.

Anu: seriously, I have seen people attending blind dates but not blind wedding, it's your life don't make it a joke.

Me: I know but I am just helpless.

Dha: do one thing, you go and accept dev's proposal, call your parents and tell them about your relation and ask them to call your so called fiancee and break this alliance.

Me: it's not easy, if I call my parents to speak about Dev they will question why I hid this from them.

Anu: then tell the truth that Dev just proposed you today.
Me: How can I tell them I accepted his proposal after they telling me about the alliance.

Dha: I will give you an advice, it's your life please don't let anyone take decisions instead of you.
Me: I just don't know , I am helpless. I feel like killing myself. What can I do, at the end of the day I am just an ordinary Indian middle class girl.

Anu: don't let yourself down, you are amazing. I know that Dev loves you for being yourself. And you know him right , do you think he will move on.

Me: I know , and I want you guys to be silent and don't say anything happened here to him.

Dha: what!! he has the rights to know.
Me: please, help me. I should make him believe that I don't deserve him . Please help me . *I begged* at least his hatred towards me will make him fall for someone else. I have to do it.please.

Anu: ok but promise me you'll be happy and will always be in touch with us.
Dha: me too, you can visit us any time you wish.

I gave them a bonecrushing hug. I understood sharing suppresses your pain.After a long cursing session on God for a whole day, I thanked him for the first time for giving such amazing soul sisters.

Anu: so what's the plan?
Me: just silently support my actions.First
Let's go and change, we are drenched.

We went to our rooms and cleaned ourselves and went back to the hall. It was not the same and hour ago. I could feel the tension. I could see him coming towards me. The air thickened. He was infront of me. Our eyes met. He grabbed my shoulders. A chill ran through my spine.

" I know its tough to take a decision. You can take your time. As much as you need it. I know you didn't expect this sudden confession. My mistake. Anyway let's eat you may be hungry." He said, I could feel the care he had in his eyes. He held my wrist and led me to the table. I gained all my confidence and shouted loudly,

"PLEASE STOP CARING FOR ME, I MEAN THAT I DONT LIKE TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU, AND THAT'S IT. I AM NOT GOING TO RETHINK MY DECISION. SO STOP BEING SO CARING TO ME".

His hold on my wrist was now loosened.
I could see his hand moving towards my face, he was caressing me,

"Stop, don't dare to touch me. What's your right to touch me?" I said all this without letting my weakness take over me. I was speaking with my head hung down, I couldn't meet his eyes, it made me weak.

" What's wrong? Why are you speaking like we are strangers. We have been known for two years now. It's our two year anniversary. And I wanted to make it special by proposing you.but you are reacting in such a rude manner why, I know you love me. I felt so in your actions."

Yes ,it was our 2 year Anniversary, how did I forget it. But he remembered the day we met. He felt that I loved him. He was right. But I was just broken.

" Seriously, you felt I loved you, I am your friend just because you are FAMOUS, if you was one of my normal patient I would never be in touch with you. I was just using you fame."

"It's a lie."

" It's the truth which you never wanted to believe. And I am leaving, I can't stay anymore with someone ridiculous like you" , I just left crying, without letting him see my tears. I knew he was broken. I could feel the ones who was so close to me seeing me with disgust, I saw Anu di and dhana di, they pleaded through their eyes, I nodded a no and went towards my room.

Reaching my room, my knees went weak , I took support of the table near me. I threw everything in my room around , I just threw my frustration to my things , I fell on my knees. I was so broken that tears didn't come out .
I couldn't let my pain out. I dreamt a lot. But the people who I held close to my heart just shattered them. Didn't they care? They could have asked about my thoights. I am getting married and I don't know to whom. The most important decision of my life which I wanted to choose was already chosen .

I took my phone out and saw his pictures that I took without his knowledge.
He said he loved me from the beginning and I couldn't see it, was I blind? If I just got one clue, I would have confessed. I held back my feelings just scared that he would reject me. We would be a perfect couple like Anu di said. It was completely my mistake . I should have confessed my feelings.

Next morning , it was the worst morning of my life. I packed all my stuff which was scattered around the room into my trolley, I wasn't packing, I was pushing it into my bag. I saw the the kurti ,

Dev's first gift to me. He always said he loved when I wore it. I wore it to his house during his parents' 30th wedding anniversary. He invited me to almost every special occasion, he didn't invite his other ' just' friends , and I was so dumb to think he felt I was special. He gave me all the clues. He called me to buy the proposal ring to just make sure that I personally loved it when he proposes. He asked me if I loved it, I didn't even think why he will ask me, he called me telling I just needed help him not to choose. But I was wrong. I was damn blind. I decided to wear the kurti, atleast for one last time.

I went towards the dining area to say a bye to the team, I couldn't face them as they were disgusted of my behaviour. But I was surprised by them greeting me with a smile plastered to their faces. Were they mocking me? I looked Anu di.

" I am sorry I told them the truth. I couldn't see them hating you."

"Dev?" I questioned with fear in my words.

" He just left behind you and that's when I told them."

"Where's he?"

"I haven't seen him since e morning. He's so broken, please rethink we can make everything right." It was cheeku bhaiya who answered.

" No bhaiya, it's broken beyond repair."

No one spoke further. I just gave everyone a farewell hug and that's when Vamika and Isha came by.

" Good morning babies". I said.
" Bad morning , beautiful" they said with a sad pout.
" What happened babies, you look sad."
" Yesterday we asked our mammas to bring us ice cream and they didn't brought us so we are sad." Isha said with her cuteness overloaded voice.

" Miss.beautiful, Where are you leaving?" Vamika asked innocently.

" I am going home baby."

" What!! You broke your promise. You promised to attend my birthday. You also promised a birthday dress for me. Now you me me more sad." Isha said with her puppy eyes.

I kneeled to match their height.
"I am sorry angel, I can't attend your party , but I have your gift." I said while passing a box to her. She opened it really fast and took out her dress.

" How is it?" I asked her.
" OMG! It's beautiful... I love you Miss.Beautiful."

I was happy. That's when I saw Vamika looking at me with a sad pout.

" Hey, Babydoll don't make me sad with that pout.I have something for you too."
I handed her another dress I designed.
He was happy too.

" Love you, beautiful" she said pecking my cheeks.

" Okay now you guys go to your playroom and I have to scold you mammas for making my babies sad ."

They squealed in happiness. They once again kissed me and ran towards their playroom with their gifts.

I stood up. " So, bye.. I will miss you."
" Oi hello why are speaking like we are not meeting ever again, I will miss you too but we will meet anytime . Don't dare to avoid me." Anu di said.

I chuckled. I once again glanced everyone's face and gave them a smile.
I dragged my bag and walked towards the exit before he would come. I was walking with slow steps and that was when I heard the voice which I was scared to hear.
" So you are leaving."

I turned back. I saw him in the worst state, his eyes swelled up, pink nose, and tear stains. He walked towards me.
" Leaving without even telling me. Very good."
" I didn't want to inform you." I spoke without looking him.
" Anyway i came here to give you this,"
He said forwarding the same Ring towards me.

" I want you to have this. I bought it just because you loved it, and I have nothing to do with it anymore. Accept it atleast as a token of our friendship."

" Token of our friendship, I wasn't having such a relationship with you, I was just faking it. Are you just giving me this to prove that I am a gold digger. Very nice Mr."

" I can tell you something. Your acting sucks. I know you are lying . So stop this drama."

" I am not acting."

" You want me to believe this. If you were taking the friendship and you just cared about my game, then you would have accepted my proposal which was the easiest way for you to be show off, if you were showing off our friendship you would really accept my proposal.and you told that you was friends with me just because I was famous and you wouldn't be friends with me if I was and ordinary patient. Let me remind you, you treated me like any normal patient, and you didn't want to give me special consideration and didn't wanna be my friend. it was me who pursued you for more than a month into being friends because I damn loved you, I wanted to be your friend. So stop this nonsense."

" You are just imagining things."

" Okay then , tell me you were faking the friendship looking directly into my eyes."

No, I can't do that. He knew it. But I tried gaining all the confidence and looked him. I tried saying" I ..I .w..wwas..." I couldn't ,my eyes swelled up and couldn't hold my tears rolled down my cheeks." Please" that was the only word which came out.

" I knew it, you were not faking then but you are now. Why are you leaving?" He asked me shaking my shoulders.

" I can't tell you."

" Are you going to be happy with this decision and you will never regret it in the future?"

"Yes I am happy." I lied, how can I be happy leaving my heart with you.

" Okay then I'll let you leave , I know you won't take such a decision without a solid reason. But atleast give me a farewell hug , we WERE friends."

I couldn't hold anymore , I just fell into his chest and cried holding him. After a few moments I just broke the hug. If I stayed any longer I will never be able to go back.

" Take this." He said once again forwarding the ring. I couldn't just accept it. Seeing my condition he opened my sidebag and pushed the ring inside it. I gave him a smile and turned to go.

" Bhaiya, please can you give me a dayoff."

I could hear him saying to virat bhaiya. My heart clenched it said to me to go back and be with him. But my brain argued . It told me to go home and get married to the stranger. Who should I listen? Brain or heart?

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This whole chapter was inspired by a scene from malayalam movie godha.
👇👇 Watch this beautiful scene for reference.

About 80% of Indian girl's face the same problem. They are being pushed to a serious relationship like marriage, without even caring about their dreams.
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