A/N: hey guys. been a while, huh? here's 6k for your Sunday that's chocked full of slightly awkward smut and sexual vulgarity from our favorite rebel punk alpha ✨

"How does that feel, angel?" 

The soft, slick walls of Katsuki's cunt quiver around Touya's thick fingers as they work him through yet another orgasm---the fifth one in the last hour, if he's counting correctly. He's sure to thumb his swollen clit in slow and gentle circles, afraid that he's being a bit too rough with him though Katsuki's whimpering mewls of pleasure seem to imply otherwise. "There we go, kitten, good boy~" He murmurs, humming his satisfaction as his lover's slick gushes out around his fingers and onto the nest of soft towels and sheets beneath them. The alpha removes his fingers with an obscene schlick, lifting the soiled digits to his fingers to lick them clean. He feels as though he's been doing fairly well, keeping Katsuki satisfied and making sure all of his needs are met. 

Despite having been absolutely terrified at the start, Touya is quite proud of the way Katsuki's heat is progressing.

He'll admit that the first night was a rather rough one as Katsuki had spent it writhing in agony in their bed. He frantically clutched and clawed and rubbed at the scars on his abdomen, sobbing uncontrollably as he cried into the pillows of his nest. Panicked, Touya had called his mother to ask for help, unsure of what he should do as Katsuki begged for his help. Enji wasn't sure of how to help him either, as that sort of pain wasn't common during heats unless the omega in question didn't have access to heat relief or a partner---neither of which applied to Touya's current situation. 

The only thing Enji could think of was that Katsuki was experiencing pain due to years of having his cycles repressed. This must have been what Keigo meant when he said Katsuki's heat would be rougher on him than most. 

Touya's never wanted to cause physical harm to an omega before, but he'd wanted so badly to punch Tomura right between the eyes. 

It's a horrible thing to think, he knows, because Tomura was just trying to protect Katsuki but the aftermath of those drugs he'd been pumping into him for years was still causing him pain months later. Surely stopping his cycles from coming hadn't been worth the agony, right? 

There wasn't much that Touya could do for him. He'd stripped himself completely naked and held him, knowing that the skin-to-skin contact would be comforting. He'd scented him all night---rather heavily, in fact---and it pretty much served to put Katsuki to sleep for a majority of the night. Touya hadn't slept a wink, wanting to make sure that Katsuki was kept as comfortable as he could be in his condition. He'd made sure he was drinking enough water, keeping his scent glands from swelling, and even wiping the sweat from his skin with a cool tower to keep his incredibly elevated body temperature from becoming too much. Izuku had complained about how much work it was to help his partner through his heats but Touya can't seem to see it that way. Serving Katsuki like this made him happy---to know that Katsuki needed and relied on him. He'd do it all again without a moment's hesitation. 

Around three o'clock in the morning was when things became a bit more like what Touya had initially expected from Katsuki's heat. 

His writhing had been accompanied by needy whining and purring, hands pawing at Touya's cock until he'd somehow gotten the alpha onto his back to suck him dry. 

Touya's never seen anyone so enthusiastic about giving someone a blowjob. 

And then he demanded to be knotted, to which Touya knew very well wasn't a good idea so he'd eaten him out until he cried. 

And when that wasn't enough he'd used toys.

Wands. 

Vibrators. 

The dildo had been quite an experience for them both, Katsuki working himself open as he was penetrated for the very first time. Touya had held it for him---encouraged him as best he could and kept his free hand tight on his hip while he rode it until his legs gave out. He wasn't very surprised when it didn't satisfy him, as it was only as big as a couple of Touya's fingers.

He's well adapted to those by now. 

All that Touya could think to do was make him cum as many times as he could take---make him cum until he was too tired to keep going. He knows that his fingers are much better than those silicone toys were---that Katsuki prefers them more. 

The blonde blinks up at him in a daze, kiss-bitten lips parted with a satisfied sigh. 

"You okay, baby?" 

"Mmmph. Sleepy." 

In other words, sated for the moment. Perfect timing to get them both a moment of reprieve. They're already coming to the end of the third day. He wonders how much longer his heat will last. It may take some time for his cycles to regulate, but Touya does want to get a feel of when to expect them and how intense they'll be so that he can be a little more prepared.

Touya manages a smile. "Alright, babe, that's good. You need your rest. But alpha needs you to drink some more water first, okay? C'mon, baby, I got you." He helps Katsuki sit up straight and reaches over for the unopened bottle of water on the nightstand, twisting it open with his teeth and spitting the top down between them so he could toss it later. He tips the bottle up to Katsuki's lips and encourages him to drink with soft spoken words. 

"Yeah, good boy. Drink it all for me, sweetheart." He hums, pulling the bottle away when he sees the last drop go sliding down the column of Katsuki's throat. Touya's eyes linger there on his mating gland. 

He wants to mark him so badly. 

But he understands that it isn't the right time to do so. 

Katsuki spent nearly twenty years a prisoner, locked in that basement without ever experiencing a single ounce of freedom. Touya refuses to imprison him with a mating bond that Katsuki may not even want in the long run---he never wants his lover to feel regrets whenever he thinks about him. 

Instead, he's got every intention to let Katsuki mark him up in any and every way that he pleases. The thought of walking around reeking of his tiny lover makes his chest swell with pride; he intends to wear it like a badge of honor---for Katsuki to claim him in any way that he likes. It's the least he could do for not being able to return the favor. 

He swallows around the lump in his throat and tears his gaze away from Katsuki's slender neck to lay him back down onto the nest. 

It doesn't take long for Katsuki to doze off and since Touya can tell that he's going to be out for a while, he takes the opportunity to get Katsuki a warm bath and change out the towels in their nest with clean ones. It had felt a little creepy to be bathing him while he slept but Touya was able to get used to it rather quickly. It's not like he's taking advantage of Katsuki by making sure that he's not laying in his own filth for four days straight and, quite frankly, Katsuki seemed rather grateful for the assistance. 

Touya had made sure to keep up his consistency during Katsuki's lulls. Get him a bath. Clean up his nest. Get him a meal. Sometimes he'd only need to wipe him down and, if possible, he'd get him to snack between lulls too. There wasn't much talking between them---mostly because Katsuki couldn't quite form coherent sentences as it were---but Touya feels as though he understands him rather well without it. 

By the time he's finished making sure that Katsuki would be comfortable and fed before his lull came to an inevitable end, Touya's begun to debate whether or not it would be wise for him to try and take a nap of his own. The only real downside to Katsuki's heats that he's experienced so far has been the amount of sleep deprivation. It's not something that he's incapable of handling, napping here and there as often as he can, but it has been a bit of an adjustment for him. He doesn't want to risk falling asleep for long, lest he also risk the possibility of neglecting his boyfriend's desperation for the sake of his own sleep schedule. 

His instincts scold him often and tell him that this idea is incorrect and that he should be getting sleep since he can't exactly assist Katsuki properly if he's half dead and void of energy. He, however, doesn't quite think it's as important as his inner alpha is making it out to be. 

There is nothing that he wouldn't be willing to do for the one that he loves. 

"Touya." 

He startles a bit upon climbing back into the nest, pausing dead in his tracks in fear that he'll be hissed at for touching the nest again but upon looking down at Katsuki's tired face, he realizes that he's not in any immediate danger. 

A moment of lucidity. 

"Hey, cutie. You should be getting some rest, you know." He reminds him, opening his arms in offering as he settles among the organized mess of nesting materials. Katsuki takes the opportunity to cuddle up against his alpha's side and rest his head against his collarbone, nose nuzzling right up against Touya's mating gland. "Yes, love, I will try. I suppose it is just difficult for me to rest properly without you. You have taken a bit longer to come back to me this time." 

"Did I?" 

"Mhm." 

"Sorry. I'll keep an eye on that next time." 

Katsuki chuckles airily. "It is quite alright, Touya. I was not complaining. Just making an observation. I cannot be cross with you about something like that when you are doing it for my sake. That would be rather ridiculous, no?" 

Touya hums a non-committal response. He'd have apologized either way. He doesn't believe that it's his place to tell Katsuki what he does and doesn't have a right to be upset about. His feelings are all relevant, no matter what they may be. 

He turns his head to press his lips against Katsuki's crown in lieu of an actual response, thumb rubbing circles into Katsuki's hips that have got to be sore by now. 

"...Touya?" 

"Mm?" 

"Am I not attractive to you?" 

Touya offers a confused quirk of his brow.

"Why would you think that? We've been over this, baby doll. Of course you're attractive to me. For fuck's sake, I've been sticking my face in your pussy and drinking you like fuckin' water." 

Heat rises to Katsuki's cheeks unbidden. He huffs at Touya's crude wording.

"Y-Yes, you have. But y-you...do not seem to be all that interested in knotting me."

"Well...it's because you're not ready, baby. I don't wanna take advantage of your heat like that to have our first time. I want it to be special. And I want you to be coherent. It's the right thing to do." 

A silence falls over them and, for a moment, Touya thinks that Katsuki may have fallen asleep on him but---

"I am coherent now. And I am telling you that I want for you to knot me." 

Well. 

"Like, right now? I don't know, baby. Your little pussy is still swollen; it looks like it's throbbing. I don't wanna hurt you or do anything to strain you too much. I can kiss it better for you if you want, though." 

"Mmm. Kiss it with your cock." 

To say that Touya had been caught by the ankle would be an understatement; he nearly sprains his neck twisting to look down at Katsuki with that gobsmacked expression bitch slapped onto his face, cheeks blooming a bright and ruddy red. Katsuki doesn't seem to be joking, but there is an awfully amused glint in his eye that hides beneath his otherwise unreadable expression. Where did this raunchy little thing come from? What happened to his polite little kitten?!

"Baby." 

"Alpha." 

"You---I just said---" 

"I heard what you said. I am willing to ignore it for us both in favor of offering you complete transparency. I grow tired of pretending that we do not want to have sex. The kind that will probably make me cry." 

Touya's jaw falls incredulously. 

"Baby! I-I mean, aren't you sore down there? I've been trying to be as gentle as I can but it's still---" 

"Throbbing because I am incredibly horny and want to be fucked. Thoroughly." 

"Katsuki!" 

"What? Asking politely does not seem to get me the results that I want. I am giving you explicit permission to penetrate me, Touya. If you are not ready, however, I will respect your wishes and be patient. You are doing so well for me and I am grateful for how kind and gentle you have been to me. But if I am speaking frankly, my love…" 

His small, dainty hand reaches up to caress Touya's jaw. 

"I would very much appreciate it if you would do me the honor of making love to me tonight. If it is not too much to ask."

And Touya, feeling absolutely powerless to Katsuki's unbridled gaze, is unable to offer little more than a mindless nod. 

Katsuki's lips curl into a smile. 

"If it is alright with you...I would like to start before my heat begins to flare again. I want to feel you while I am still able to appreciate it---my first time with you." 

Or with anyone else.

Touya intends to be his first and his last.

"Y-Yeah, babe, of course. I'd ask you if you're sure but---" 

"I think we both know very well that I am. A more important question to ask is if you are sure. I refuse to make you feel as though you have to do something you are not willing to do. Please do not feel pressured." 

Touya's smile returns as his expression softens. He stretches a long, toned, tattooed arm across the nest to retrieve one of the many forgotten condoms that had somehow ended up tucked beneath a sweatshirt.

"You kiddin' me? Been dreamin' about this for months." He's unsure of why but he's near breathless, forehead resting against Katsuki's own as he leans down to capture those sweet, pouty lips for himself. 

Katsuki responds generously, wrapping his arms around his lover to hold them closer together with a hum. The alpha's free hand grips at the plush skin of Katsuki's thigh to adjust his position, pulling away to rip the condom wrapper between his teeth and spit it onto the floor. Katsuki watches curiously as Touya sits back on his calves and removes the rubber from the packaging, tossing it to the floor as well before he goes about rolling it onto the length of his rather...erm...impressive manhood. 

"That looks...rather tight. Is it not at all that uncomfortable for you?"

"Mm. Sometimes, if they're too tight. They're supposed to stretch anyway but that's bullshit; tight little hole like yours'll pop it as soon as I get it in if it's too small."

"Is it? Too small, I mean."

"No, baby, it's fine."

'You, on the other hand, might be.' 

This passing thought drills itself into Touya's mind as his cock pushes against Katsuki's sopping wet hole only to glide along his slick, sticky folds and press against his clit. It tears a gasp from them both, the alpha's teeth biting down into his lip as he reaches down between them to slide himself back against his lover's opening once more. His gaze flickers back up to Katsuki's own, bourbon eyes burning into baby blue until the feeling of being penetrated forces his attention down between his thighs. 

Touya presses forward with a slow, steady push of his hips. 

His legs tremble as the head of his cock is engulfed by Katsuki's tight, wet heat. 

"O-Oh---Touya!"

"Holy fuckin' shit, baby, fuck. " 

It takes every single drop of Touya's willpower to keep himself composed, hips twitching and stuttering with the urge to simply bury himself balls deep into Katsuki's cunt with one swift push. His fingers are so tight against the soft skin of Katsuki's hips that he's almost certain that he'll leave a few bruises behind but the blonde doesn't complain, nails digging into Touya's forearm as his length slides into him inch by slow and dragging inch. He can tell that Katsuki is having quite a hard time adjusting to his size. It's almost as if all of the foreplay they've done up until now served to be ultimately useless. Not enough to satisfy Katsuki completely. 

Not enough to prepare him for the stretch of Touya's lovemaking.

"Talk to me, baby, you okay?" 

Katsuki can only nod, eyes clenched shut as he tries to focus on maintaining his own breathing---his chest is heaving up and down as trembling hands squeeze and hold onto Touya for dear life. 

Touya watches him carefully, watching every little twitch and squirm for any sign at all that he should stop as he continues to press forward with a shallow roll of his hips. He's almost got it all inside by the time Katsuki's nails begin to border on painful, thighs clenching uncomfortably. 

"O-Ow, it hurts---" 

Touya freezes; he dares not move. 

"Shit---I'm sorry, sweetheart. You need me to take it out? We don't have to get it all inside---" 

"No! I-I can take it---I just need a moment, p-please." He breathes out a shaky whine and Touya can feel the walls of his cunt fluttering around him as if Katsuki's trying to force himself to relax. "You, ah, really want that knot, don't you, baby?" 

Katsuki sighs in relief as he finally begins to adjust to Touya's cock inside of him.

"N-Nothing would make me happier. Not until you mark me and make me your wife…" 

This gets Touya rather excited. 

"Y-You...wanna be my wife?" 

And the omega manages a smile. 

"Of course I do, my love." That soft, gentle voice affirms and Touya feels a sudden tightness in his chest. 

Katsuki's hand slides down to Touya's waist. 

"I am ready now." 

"Are you sure, babe?" 

"Mhm. I promise." 

"And you'll tell me if I'm hurting you?" 

"Of course." 

This small reassurance eases Touya's worries enough for him to press onward, a full bodied shudder forcing its way through the raven as he bottoms out. 

"Fucking fuck, you are goddamn tight, baby. Even after fingering that little pussy open for the last three fuckin' days, it's like I never even touched you." 

Katsuki, flushed from his neck up to his ears, whines and squeezes Touya's dick even tighter. The alpha's hips jerk involuntarily and he presses impossibly deeper, Katsuki's knees reflexively clamping shut around his waist. Touya curses under his breath.

"I know it's a little difficult, baby boy, but I need you to try and relax for me. Can you do that, angel? C'mon, breathe with me. In. Out." 

The tiny blonde follows as best he can, body tense even as he manages to pry his trembling legs from Touya's midsection. Touya's laced their fingers together to give him something comforting to hold onto. 

"I-I am o-okay. K-Keep going---please." 

"Katsuki---" 

"Please move. Oh my God, I feel so full---just fucking move. " 

Touya complies a bit hesitantly, sliding out of Katsuki's cunt with a heavy sigh as it drags against those vice-like walls but he freezes dead in his tracks once more when he notices the blood smeared across Katsuki's inner thigh. It alarms him enough for him to almost yank himself free but he doesn't want to risk hurting him further. It's not much blood at all, really, but the fact that he's bleeding at all still has Touya's heart stuck in his throat. 

"What the fuck?! Oh, no---shit, baby, I'm so sorry. We gotta stop; I've gotta---"

Katsuki's hand grips him by the jaw, gently coaxing him to tear his gaze away from red stained thighs to look him in the eye instead. 

"Touya. Up until a few moments ago, I was a virgin." 

"Well---yeah, no shit. You don't have to make me feel---" 

"A virgin whose hymen was still intact until his boyfriend broke it with his ridiculously big penis." Katsuki reiterates with an exasperated sigh. Touya, however, still looks quite a lot like a fish out of water. 

"O-Oh. Oh. I-I...broke your hymen." 

"Yes. I am alright. You do not have to stop, love, I promise. I've adjusted to the size of you by now---enough for it not to feel as though you are trying to rearrange me from the inside out. Please, keep going." 

Touya's gaze flitters back down to the spot where he and Katsuki are connected but the hand on his jaw redirects his attention. 

"Hey. I trust you, Touya. It is alright. You are not going to hurt me, love. You can move." He encourages him once more and Touya, with a deep and shaky breath, finally pushes forward again with a shallow roll of his hips. Katsuki gasps, the hand on Touya's waist digging into the alpha's inked skin. He's sure to keep his other hand at Touya's jaw---not that Touya could stand to look away anymore. 

"T-There we are, love. Does i-it feel good inside of me? You are so big, Touya---I can feel every inch of you through that stupid piece of plastic that you are wearing."

Touya gives him an airy laugh. 

"I don't like em either, baby. But I've gotta make sure I'm not puttin' any babies in that little tummy just yet, hm?" He starts a slow and steady rhythm, wrapping Katsuki's slender legs around his waist as he looks into those glassy eyes. "If I had it my way I'd have slid right into this pretty pussy without one---wanna feel you gettin' wetter and wetter around me while I'm lovin' on you. You make the prettiest faces when you're feeling good, you know?" 

He drives his point home with a quick snap of his hips; he wants to go harder. 

"You're so fuckin' gorgeous, Katsuki. From that pretty blonde head to those cute, pouty little lips---those perky little tits and those soft fuckin' thighs. The way your hips curve and that ass sits just right---I love it. Don't get me started on that perfect little pussy---just look how fuckin' cute it is stuffed full of my dick, babe. I wanna see that pussy with a creampie so bad."

Katsuki's jaw falls open, toes curling as the head of Touya's cock kisses his cervix with every push---his lovemaking growing less cautious and more fervent. The bed has begun to creak beneath them, the headboard rocking back against the wall. Katsuki's gripping Touya by the waist with both hands, brows knit together as a familiar heat begins to simmer within his gut. 

"A-A...w-what?" 

Touya tries and fails to hide his snort of laughter. 

"Means I wanna cum in you, baby---cream your pretty cunt and fill you up nice so I can admire how fuckin' beautiful it's gonna be to watch it come dripping back out of you." 

"O-Oh---fuck---" 

Katsuki gushes out onto the bedsheets with a gasping whine and Touya picks up the pace in earnest, shuddering at the loud and obscene noises that Katsuki's body makes beneath him---squelching and sloshing and absolutely singing Touya's praises as his dick rubs against a spot that has Katsuki arching up against his alpha's chest. 

"Ohhh, fuck, babe---you got so fuckin' wet! Look at that fuckin' mess you're making. You want alpha to cum all in that pussy, don't you? Naughty little kitty~" 

Katsuki's words fail him so he responds with a mindless nod, incoherent gibberish serving to spur Touya on as he pounds him into the nest with deep, calculated thrusts. His pupils have dilated, Touya notices, and he can tell that Katsuki's lull is coming to an end. 

"H-Ha---arder! Alpha, fuck me harder~" 

"Like this, baby?" 

"Yesyesyesyes---yes! Right there, right there, please---" 

"You don't have to beg me, baby; I've got you. I'm not gonna stop until I give you a nice, fat knot to sit on. You've worked so hard for that knot, huh, baby? But you have to cum for me if you want it, okay? Alpha wants his angel to be nice and satisfied. Can you do that for me, angel?" 

He can only assume that Katsuki's nonsensical babbling is as much of a yes as any other. 

His fingers squeeze at the soft skin of Katsuki's thighs as he pushes them forward, digging deeper with every swivel of his hips until Katsuki's ankles are nearly at his ears. He can't tell which is louder---Katsuki's screaming or the headboard obnoxiously slamming against the wall. 

He's gonna get an earful about that one for sure. 

"Ouuu, look how flexible my kitten is! Yeah, that little lotus flower opened right up for me, didn't it? I'm fuckin' deep in there, too---fuck. Look how tight that pussy's gripping me~" 

Katsuki's crescendoing screams become louder and louder---Touya knows that he's getting close. He's trying damn hard to keep a handle on himself, to keep himself from rabbit-fucking his way to his orgasm even though that wave of ecstasy is climbing much faster than he can keep up with. 

'Shit, has it really been that long since I've fucked like this? C'mon, Touya, you're better than this. Don't you fuckin' cum until he does, you fucker.' 

He's a bit concerned about whether or not Katsuki will be able to handle his knot as it swells, hissing as it catches against his opening. If the stretch of his cock was enough to hurt, his knot would serve a bit of an issue---that's what Touya assumes, at least, but it pops halfway in with seemingly no problem at all. 

Katsuki shudders, blinking tears out of his eyes as the intense pleasure sparking through him begins to border on too much. He's whining, mewling and begging Touya not to stop, clawing at his lower back as he tries to pull him closer---deeper. 

"You're cumming for me, baby? Go on, angel, let it out. Just a little more and I'll give you just what you need." Touya encourages him with as gentle of a tone as he can keep while fighting off his own climax. 

Katsuki's entire body seizes, vibrating with violent convulsions as his legs clamp down around Touya's waist once more---toes curling and eyes rolling back with a choked scream but Touya doesn't stop just yet. His lover begins to sob as he's bullied into delicious overstimulation, nails nearly breaking the skin of Touya's back. 

"C'mon, angel, gimme some more. I know you can push out one more for me." 

He reaches down to thumb at Katsuki's clit and slick comes splashing onto them both like a fountain. 

Thank God for those towels or they'd have made an uncomfortably sticky mess of the sheets. 

Touya finally allows his restraint to crumble, forcing the rest of his knot inside of Katsuki with a rather rough push that rips his orgasm from him with a grunt. His hips stutter uncontrollably as he lurches forward over Katsuki's completely debauched form, a hand on Katsuki's naked chest to steady himself as he fills the condom with his seed. 

"Fuck me, that was so fuckin' good, baby." He chuckles, having an admittedly difficult time catching his breath. The hand on Katsuki's chest raises to brush the sweat-slicked fringe from his forehead.

He's out cold.

"Hmm. Sleepin' already?" Touya hums to himself, lips curling into a smile. "Nothing like a good dicking and a full tummy to put you to sleep, huh? You needed the rest anyway." He's unsure if Katsuki can even hear him but in the case that he can, he feels that one assurance can at least get Katsuki to take an actual nap this time now that he's completely tired out. Now would be the time that Touya would usually get them cleaned up and change the towels in the nest. 

Usually. 

At the moment, however, he's rather exhausted and doesn't think his legs would listen if he tried to make them walk. 

"Got me all weak in the knees like I was the one who got my cherry popped. You're a dangerous little somethin', you know that?" 

He's at least able to readjust them into a more comfortable position, avoiding the wet towels by rolling to his back on the other side of the nest and taking Katsuki with him. He doesn't stir even the slightest as he's held tight against Touya's chest, knot still plugged snugly inside of him. 

"You know. I've never given anyone my knot before so this is a first for me. Buuut that also means that I have absolutely no idea how long it's gonna take for it to go down, either. Do you think it'll be gone before your heat starts flaring up again? If it isn't, will it still keep you satisfied?" He's well aware that Katsuki wouldn't have answers to questions like these, obviously, but talking out loud has always seemed to help Touya piece his jumbled thoughts together. He feels rather fuzzy---like he's floating even though Katsuki is there to keep him grounded. 

"Bodies are weird." 

He gets the feeling that Katsuki would understand that sentiment all too well. 

It's odd. Even though they're so different, he and Katsuki have always understood each other. 

"...would it be too soon to get married, you think? Probably, right? I think about that a lot, you know. It's really scary to think about. Commitment is scary---bein' married to the same broad for the rest of your life until one of you inevitably eats the big one. And people change everyday, you know. One day they love you and then the next, they're...you know. Different. The next, it all feels like a mistake and you're miserable. How do you know who the right person is if they change at the drop of a dime? 

"I've always said I'd never get married because of that. Never wanted to end up like my parents. Or Toshi's parents. Or...or your parents. I've never trusted someone enough that I'd wanna put a ring on their fingers or have kids with 'em. Nothing was worth that kinda headache and heartache. That's the way I've always been...until I met you. Funny how that shit works, right? Does that mean you're the one?" 

He pauses, even though he doesn't actually expect a response. He's uncertain that Katsuki would be able to give him any insight even if he had been awake. But who would he ask otherwise? His father? Toshinori? 

Not as if it matters. 

"Hm. Even if you somehow turned out not to be the one...I don't think I could ever find it in me to leave you. I'm plannin' to stick this thing out until I'm dead and buried. I don't think...that I could live a life with meaning without you in it. Is that weird? Toxic as fuck, I know, but I can't really help the way that I feel. Do you think that you'll love me forever? Or, at least...until I'm dead? Would you let me love you until then? Silly thing to ask; it's not like either of us would know. Guess I'm just curious." 

He's rambling like he tends to do but Katsuki usually listens anyway, even if he doesn't have an answer to quell his worries. He's kind and gentle that way---always takes Touya's feelings into consideration and treats them just as valid as his own. 

He has to be the one. He has to be. 

But even if he isn't...

"I'm gonna...buy a ring. Just in case."