why can't i be perfect?

why can't i be like my cousins?

why am i always so fucking useless?

why is my life so fucking terrible?

why was i born in my family?

why do i exist?

what's the point of life?

what's the point of living?

what's the point of working if i can never be like my fucking cousins?

what's my worth?

do i even have worth?

am i worthless?

am i doing this for attention? I DONT FUCKING KNOW-

am i useless?

why are my grades so low to my parents?

why couldn't i get into that 'better' middle school?

am i supposed to even be on earth?..