all is fair in love and war | tim drake
000 | i feel like a fool
love and war | fleurie

akilah's pov

It has been my honor to serve the League since I was a small child. Over the past eighteen years, I have fought for and served Ra's Al Ghul and his daughter Talia Al Ghul.

They taught me a way of brutality that was branded into me as a young girl. As a result of being trained to kill and torture, an impression was left on my mind. I was forced to learn the ways of the League of Assassins, including their brand of martial arts and their questionable philosophy on justice and mercy. But, their main goal was to teach me to be loyal to Ra's and Talia Al Ghul, and to serve them without question.

They succeeded until I met him.

The Al Ghuls had instilled in me a sense of loyalty and duty that was so strong that it seemed impossible for anything to break. But I found something that was stronger than my loyalty to them: my love for him. I felt like I had found something so real and so pure, something that brought me an immense amount of joy and happiness, which was something that was missing from my life before then.

He made my heart soar in both love and pain. It was like a rose in the desert, a bright spot amidst a bleak and desolate landscape. He lit up my life and made me remember what it was like to be alive and to feel joy in spite of the darkness that surrounded us.

However, that didn't last long like I had hoped. His presence was short-lived, and I was soon back to living in a world of darkness and despair. I was forced to confront the reality of the situation, that I was beholden to Ra's and Talia and that I had to serve them without questioning their motives. In the end, it was a powerful lesson for me in loyalty and commitment, a lesson that I would never forget.

I felt idiotic. How could I have fallen for someone like him? He was so fucking predictable yet I still fell for his stupid game.

He blew up my home, killing my parents and younger brother, waging war upon Ra's and everyone in the league were forced to sacrifice their lives to protect our master.

Yet I still loved him. Tears formed in my eyes as I realized what he had done. But I love him, so how could he have done this to me? I just wanted to be loved but I was betrayed.

I felt so betrayed. He had promised me love, but instead he had taken away everything that I had ever known and loved. I thought he was the one, I thought he was different, but he had proven me wrong.

I had believed in the promise of something better, something that would make me happy, but all I got was heartache. I had been so foolish to trust in the empty words of someone I thought I knew. I vowed never to make the same mistake again.

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author's note !!

i hope you all enjoy this story :)