𝟙𝟝

The next day, Jeongin actually went back to college well not technically since his father dropped him.

He put his stuff and clothes in his dorm and walked down his department because Jeongin had a lecture in less than fifteen minutes.

He kept walking through the big halls that were filled with people here and there, he walked then walked then walked.

Until he bumped into Jisung.

Jeongin could remember last night's events and the way he pulled his anger on Jisung, he was sad and mad and jealous... All of the negative emotions gathered in one that results in him losing control of letting them out.

Jeongin felt bad and wanted to apologize again but Jisung ignored him by walking past him because he was also not ready to hear another apology from the younger.

Jisung can't handle the fact that he can forgive Jeongin so easily without hesitation and brush off all the bad things he said to him through the phone.

the outcast doesn't want to surrender to his feelings again.

So he ignored him and walked far far away from him, letting as much bigger space he could afford so Jisung can't be drowned in Jeongin's fantasy again.

He loves him so much but the other doesn't know it.

Jeongin looked at Jisung's figure disappearing into the crowd of students.

He sighs, Jisung's mad at him and he can't think of another reason to apologize, so he decides after his lecture he'll go give Seungmin a visit.

[𝚃𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚜𝚔𝚒𝚙]

After Jeongin dropped at Seungmin's dorm, he told him everything that happened to him yesterday, about his father and Jisung.

Seungmin:“like seriously, why do you keep messing up everything...”

He knows that Jeongin always messes up whenever he makes friends or gets into relationships. He's always been like this.

Jeongin:“i don't know Seungmin...i didn't mean to yell at him I was really feeling a lot at that moment”

Seungmin sighed, he rolled his eyes again.

Jeongin did it again and not because he messed up because he got used to it.

Jeongin cares about what Jisung thought of him, something he never did to anyone before... Not even him.

Seungmin:“I can't deal with your daddy issues anymore”

He gave up, he's not a therapist to always tell Jeongin what to do and what to not.

Jeongin:“don't call it like that, it sounds dirty...”

He doesn't want to admit that he is going through psychological issues.

Seungmin sighed again, and was able to advise Jeongin.

Seungmin:“look jeongin I love yo—”

Jeongin:“ewww GROSS!!!”

He yelled with disgust cutting Seungmin midway in his sentence and that caused his friend to shout at him to gain his attention.

Seungmin:“YAAA!! LET ME FINISH YOU RASCAL!! how much I care about you but you really need to start seeing a therapist”

He finally told him what was on his mind.

Jeongin:“I don't need one I'm fine without it”

Jeongin thought those signs are something regular that usually happens to most people, but he doesn't see the bad result out of his behavior.

He doesn't know he suffers himself, he doesn't know he often lost control of his emotions,he doesn't know that those nights he spent crying without a reason have a deep meaning to it.

Seungmin:“fine don't go, I'm tired of so many times that I told you to go and you always refuse, but at least apologize to Jisung”

Jeongin:“I don't think he would accept my apology”

Jeongin saw Jisung this morning and he doesn't look like he wanted to talk to him anymore and that scared the blonde.

Seungmin:“why is it so hard for you to explain to him your situation.

It was just as simple as that but Jeongin found it difficult.

Jeongin:“he already knows I'm not in a good terms with my father”

Seungmin:“then tell him the truth that you didn't mean to yell and it was all because of your father”

Jeongin took Seungmin's words into consideration and planned to apologize again.

Well it wasn't as planned because Jeongin kept calling him over the week and there was no response—Jisung wasn't picking up his call.

He decided to go by his lectures but he never found him once—Jisung wasn't attending lectures afraid of meeting up with Jeongin.

Then last time on the last day of the week on Saturday, he decided to go visit him at his dorm.

*𝚍𝚘𝚘𝚛 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚕*

The door was opened revealing Jisung in his hoodie, in his mask, wearing his gloomy look, and the classic haircut like always.

Jisung:“Jeongin...”

The outcast was actually happy in seeing the younger, him yelling at him on the phone asking him to never call him again was long forgotten apon seeing Jeongin in front of him.

Jeongin(faint smile):“hey hyung, you've been ignoring me for the past 4 days”

Jeongin couldn't find any signs of Jisung being mad or angry or even sad so it is suspicious for him.

The simple answer is that Jisung is head over heels for him and he can't be mad at him for a long time.

Jisung(faint tone):“yes...uhh...i needed some time to get used to you yelling at me...”

He found an excuse to tell Jeongin, because all those four days he was in his place thinking of how to approach Jeongin again.

Jeongin:“what's that supposed to mean?”

Jisung:“it just that, I'm not used to you yelling at me, I'm sorry if I ever made you feel concerned”

Jeongin felt bad, it was his fault their friendship got into this big obstacle and here Jisung is blaming himself.

Jeongin:“hyung don't apologize, I'm the one who should apologize”

He doesn't know why but the outcast hates the idea of Jeongin to keep apologizing to him and Jisung keeps forgiving him easily.

But on the other side, his heart says otherwise,Jeongin could keep apologizing again and again and Jisung would always forgive him.

Jisung:“I know and I forgive you”

Jeongin:“yes, I'm sorr—wait what?! YOU FORGIVE ME?!”

How can someone forgive another that easily without hearing the reason.

Jisung:“I don't want to explain this but I really can't get mad or be disappointed at you”

He can't just tell him that he loves him and saw him as an angel, that would only make Jeongin think of him as a pervert.

Jeongin:“how can you say that after I yelled at you”

He still can't accept the fact that his hyung forgives him that easily, it's not fair...

Jisung:“why would you yell at me?”

Jeongin:“because of my dad, he was being strict and controlling again”

Jisung nods his head, it is always the same matter, always his issues with his father.

Jisung:“now that I know your reason, I forgive you Jeongin”

He can't add another issue to him, he doesn't want to see Jeongin suffer anymore.

Jeongin:“so this is it? We made up?”

Jisung smiled at seeing the young dumbfounded with the situation.

Jisung:“looks like it”

Jeongin isn't used to this, he never had a friend like Jisung before, the outcast makes him comfortable and makes him forget about his problems whenever he's around.

The blonde doesn't want to lose him.

Jeongin:“you're weird hyung, do you actually like me that you forgive me easily”

That's a final K.O.

Jisung truly loves Jeongin and he is precious to him but he can't easily say that.

Jisung:“haha very funny, here...”

He gives him the therapist business card that he talked about days ago but when Jeongin saw it, he refused to take it.

Jeongin:“I said I don't need—”

Jisung:“just go and give it a try, if you don't like it on the first day, you can stop going there”

Jeongin ended up taking the business card anyway.