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It was another day at his house.

Hyunjin had invited Felix over for disney marathon movies because he knows his boyfriend likes that genre of animated movies.

He bought a lot of salty and sweet snacks and tried making a lot of desserts for his boyfriend.

It was the perfect date for Hyunjin to tell  Felix about everything tonight and hope things would end in peace.

All the lights were turned down and the movie was playing where Felix clung to Hyunjin by putting his head on his shoulder, both were cuddling on the couch.

Felix:“I love you Hyunjin”

The model felt like saying those words as a thank you for all the hard work his boyfriend did to make him feel happy and special.

But what Felix was thinking wasn't the same as Hyunjin's.

Hyunjin:“hey...Felix...i need to tell you something...”

He wants to let it out, everything feels fake from dating Felix to him hugging and cuddling him right now.

Guilt couldn't but build up inside him.

Felix:“let me speak first, it has been years since I'm away from my family and you doing this home movie date reminded me of the times where me and my mom used to do the same thing to my sister, thank you Hyunjin”

Hyunjin felt like puking at so much pressure his guilt was adding to him every second.

Hyunjin:“...is...that so...?”

He was able to put on an act for Felix to believe he's okay which he's not.

Again, because of guilt.

Felix:“sorry I talked first, what was the thing you wanted to talk about?”

He looked at Felix for a brief time, he's been trying to break up with me for a long time now but always failed because Felix always managed to steal his heart or be unfair.

So what hyunjin did was bring his boyfriend to his embrace and kiss him on the forehead.

He decided to give up this time.

Hyunjin:“nothing important...now let's watch”

[Next day]

Hyunjin woke up with a really painful headache and tried to rewind all yesterday's events but couldn't remember him drinking something alcoholic.

Hyunjin:“my head hurts...”

He sat up from his bed, looking at the night stand not finding any glass of water... He smelled himself and made a disgust look not really appreciating the smell coming out from but before going into the bathroom, he decided to go make himself something to eat.

Hyunjin had a messy sleeping schedule where he sleeps very late at night with so many fashion ideas coming into his mind and once he wakes up the next he really gets clueless because he jumped from his bedroom to his studio and vice versa.

Felix:“good morning Hyunjin”

Once his legs stepped into the kitchen he could smell something sweet his boyfriend was baking and couldn't wait to taste that.

Hyunjin:“what are you still here? Don't you have a rehearsal for your upcoming theater play?”

He put his elbows on top of the dinning table then he put his head on top of his palm still watching his boyfriend making breakfast for him.

Felix:“I do but I'll go after you have breakfast”

He said just after he slid a plate of Strawberry Nutella crepes in front of Hyunjin whose eyes lit apon see such a beautiful yet delicious dish.

He brought the fork and took a bite, his eyes shut open very amazed with the taste of these crepes.

Hyunjin:“I'm eating, look *eating with a fork* now go and don't be late”

He put the fork down and sat up and walked towards his boyfriend then he started dragging him from his wrist until they reached the doorstep of the house.

And before Felix left he told Hyunjin something.

Felix:“I actually prepared you a cold bath because I know you like that”

Hyunjin didn't want to eat anymore and his legs took him directly to the bath Felix mentioned, he looked down at the water and he heard voices calling him from the depths.

Even if the voices were inside his head but they sounded like someone was in that water calling for him.

The voice sounds like his, Hyunjin was hearing himself calling from underwater.

Hyunjin went into that water, he sat there with his clothes on and just minutes after he drowned himself with closing his eyes where he could hear everything.

"You're a mistake—you are not you—you are your mother's toy—you're a useless nobody—selfish to break Felix's heart—a fool for letting people decide for you"

All of those voices stumble onto each other, making it so loud that Hyunjin was losing his consciousness second by second.

"—just die Hyunjin—"

He opened his eyes just as he heard himself saying that sentence despite he was underwater and unable to speak.

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Felix:“ohh Changbin-hyung, good morning”

He greets, just after he meets up with Changbin at a neighborhood not far away from Hyunjin's house.

Changbin was on his way to Hyunjin but apon destiny, he met up with Felix coming from the same direction that he was taking.

Changbin:“good morning Felix, you stayed the night?”

He took the opportunity to ask him which Felix only nodded with a smile.

Changbin shouldn't be jealous of him, it is true that he has feelings for Hyunjin but Felix knows the designer before him.

Felix:“yeah, we watched movies last night. how about you? why are you here early hyung?”

Felix knows about Changbin being a close friend to his boyfriend so he sees him so much with Hyunjin everyday which he doesn't have problems with it.

Felix trusts Hyunjin and Changbin was his closest friend when he came to korea.

Changbin:“Hyunjin actually called me yesterday to come around this time but I don't know the reason”

Felix nodded his head telling him that Hyunjin was having his breakfast which the older nodded and thanked him.

Felix:“well, I gotta go, see you later”

He waved at him then walked past him and left the neighborhood.

Changbin looked at Felix's sellout disappearing step by step then he sigh, Felix still didn't know about Hyunjin situation which only means that the designer didn't told him yet.

That's why Changbin got a text from Hyunjin yesterday saying to come tomorrow morning cause he has something to tell him.

He rang the bell multiple times and there was no answer, he held the door knob and it was unlocked.

Changbin took a step into Hyunjin's house locking the door behind him.

Changbin:“Hyunjin?”

He called but only his voice echoed answering him, he didn't find him in the kitchen like Felix told him which makes him panic.

He start going to every room looking for the designer.

The next step was the bathroom, and just as he entered he saw Hyunjin in the bathtub drowned with no signs of movement.

Changbin:“HYUNJIN!!!!”

He dashed towards him putting his arms on the water to bring Hyunjin out of the bathtub that was filled with cold water.

Changbin held Hyunjin on his hand who was shivering but wasn't breathing.

Changbin:“wai—why are—WHY AREN'T YOU BREATHING?!!!”

He yelled shaking his friend, maybe Hyunjin was pretending to be asleep or being conscious but when he heard his heart, it was barely beating.

Changbin put Hyunjin on the ground and brought his both hands and put them on top of his left chest just when his heart was barely beating and started doing CPR to him and once every 2 minutes he would check Hyunjin's heartbeat by putting his ear on his chest.

Changbin:“please...no...don't leave me...you can't just die...”

He kept on with his CPR while crying not wanting for Hyunjin to die in his arms.

Hyunjin(coughing):“what the hell—”

Lucky and fortunately, Hyunjin started coughing water out of his lungs and once he did that, he was brought into Changbin warm embrace.

Changbin:“YOU MADE ME GET WORRIED ABOUT YOU!!! YOU A*SHOLE!!!”

He hugged him very tight still crying about the idea of losing Hyunjin just seconds ago, the designer took a minute to realize what he had done and he surrendered to the voices he had inside his head.

Hyunjin melted in Changbin embrace and hugged back burying his face on his thick shoulders and also started crying with his friend.

Hyunjin:“Changbin...*tear up* I really need help... i don't wanna die”

Changbin:“shhh... don't cry... you won't die I'm here and I'll help you”

He comforted him with a soft voice and then Hyunjin told Changbin to carry him up to his bedroom saying that his legs are numb and wasn't able to walk which Changbin did as he told him and lift him up like he weighed nothing and both left the bathroom.