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Hyunjin lay on his bed at the studio in the basement looking at the ceiling.

He was taking a break from both fashion school and dating Felix and it started killing him from the inside.

Despite fashion being something he never chooses for himself but he never hated it.

Despite thinking about breaking up with Felix but he can't live without him.

He hid his eyes with his wrist not knowing what to do getting lost in his thoughts then he turned his head to look at his phone that was just in front of his eyes.

He reached his hand to grab it and sat up from his sitting position about to delay Felix'a number but he stopped when reality hit him again so that he couldn't bother his boyfriend while they were having their break.

He slides through the caller ID's until his finger comes to the ID ❝Dwakei Baby❞

He chuckled upon reading this since it was Changbin who changed his name in Hyunjin's phone.

He clicked into the caller ID and waited until the other picked up the call.

Changbin:“Hyunjin? What's up? is something wrong? you want me to take you somewhere to ease your mind?”

Hyunjin bit his lower lips feeling sad that he used Changbin up until now just to feel okay himself, not concerned about the other's feelings about this.

Hyunjin:“I miss you...i want you to be with me right now”

His heart was racing upon saying those words which made him clutch into his chest, having this urge to be held and hugged by his friend.

He couldn't explain why he's feeling like this towards Changbin.

Changbin:“sure I'm coming right away, but I'll take a little long since my gym is quite far from where you live”

Hyunjin wondered if he had customers because he doesn't want to be an obstacle in his workplace.

Hyunjin:“how about the gym?”

He asked with a concerning tone, He hated it when people dropped everything just to give other people attention.

He's not an attention seeker.

Changbin:“i don't have customers right now so don't worry and even if I do...you're more important than them”

He cut before Hyunjin could say anything, he stayed for 3 minutes looking at his phone screen while blushing on what Changbin just said about him being more important than his customers.

Hyunjin:“why would he make me feel like this?!!”

He sat up from his bed and went straight to the kitchen making muffins dough and 3 types of flavored icing, he put the dough in the oven and waited for about 20 minutes to bring out the tray of muffins from the oven.

Then when he was about to do the icing, his doorbell rang.

Hyunjin dropped everything and dashed towards the door opening it quickly for Changbin to be on the other side.

Changbin:“Hyunjin I'm so—”

He couldn't complete his sentence since Hyunjin wrapped his arms around him hugging the hell out of him.

Hyunjin:“you're important to me as well, dwakei”

He called him with the nickname Changbin had put on his ID contact name.

The gym owner smiled along with blushing on receiving a hug from Hyunjin and being called by "dwakei" it made him crush the designer into a tight hug but the other didn't mind since he loves being hugged by Changbin's thick biceps.

Hyunjin found himself melted in Changbin's touch.

Changbin:“I smell something delicious”

Hyunjin blushed looking at him right in the eye thinking Changbin was talking about him being the delicious thing.

Hyunjin(blushing) :“I smell delicious?”

Changbin almost gagged on his saliva because he started having dirty thoughts when Hyunjin just said that.

Changbin:“no...god...i meant the smell of what you baked”

Hyunjin let go of Changbin and looked away still blushing not knowing why he would react to anything from his friend.

Hyunjin:“I baked muffins and was about to do the icing to make them into cupcakes”

He confessed not having the courage to look at Changbin in the eyes because of that awkward situation.

Changbin:“then I'm here to help you with the final touches and eat them after”

That gives the courage to the designer to finally look at his friend in the eye as he chuckled.

Hyunjin:“I baked them for you”

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Changbin:“wanna go to a baseball match?”

He asked just when both cleaned the table after eating Hyunjin homemade cupcakes.

Hyunjin:“base ball?”

He never went there before which made him wonder why would Changbin brought that up who nodded his head with a grin.

Changbin:“yeah, I bought the tickets last week and the match is today, I wanted to go with Felix as well but he is busy modeling these days”

He explained, Changbin always was a fan of sports and Felix always accompanied him whenever there were matches but he never got the courage to ask Hyunjin since he was going through hard times handling himself with fashion school and all.

Hyunjin listens to his friend mentioning he wants to give with Felix which made him think the wrong idea that results in him in saying with a sad tone...

Hyunjin:“I see...so I'm a second choice”

Changbin looked at him with confused eyes moving his lower lip to the side because Hyunjin didn't notice that he wanted to take both of them to watch the match.

Changbin:“i originally bought three tickets so we all can go together but since Felix isn't gonna come with us, I give the third ticket to Seungmin”

He explained, maybe he wasn't direct at first but he managed to correct Hyunjin's idea on him which made the designer realize he was at fault.

Hyunjin:“Changbin I am—”

Changbin:“I love you both so much and you two aren't a second choice to each other”

He cut him before he could say anything.

His love for Felix is different from his love for Hyunjin despite being different but Changbin would never choose someone for the other, they both were precious to him.

Hyunjin:“please don't do that...you know I love you too Changbin”

That confession made Changbin blush, he failed to convince himself for so many times that Hyunjin's “I love you” is not the one is heart is looking for but he always falls for that.

Changbin:“enough with this chit chat, let's go now”

He stood up and looked at Hyunjin waiting for him to wake up himself

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Hyunjin:“it kind of interesting...what are you doing?”

He asked just after when he saw Changbin was looking here and there looking like he was looking for something.

Changbin:“I'm looking for Seungmin, he might be around here”

Hyunjin pouted a little and didn't know why he felt a bit mad knowing Changbin was looking for Seungmin.

Hyunjin:“are you on a date with him or me?”

He said with a little jealousy tone for Changbin to look at him with wide eyes where his cheeks turned rosy.

Changbin:“a date?”

Hyunjin realized what he said and was ready to correct his mistake despite him saying with his own constant and wanting Changbin to look at him and him only.

Hyunjin:“no I meant—”

He was cut off by a broadcaster who announced ❝ladies and gentlemen we're taking a break for our amazing player to rest and in the meantime we're going to access our usual fun game which is THE KISSING CAM❞

All the audience's gaze turned to the big screen waiting who was going to be the target until the camera was switched to two handsome men that most of the females couldn't but admire their beauty.

Hyunjin:“wait...that us—”

He was cut again by another sentence from the broadcaster ❝Congratulations gentleman, you have been chosen for our kiss can...please do any type of skin ship that's involved the lips❞

Changbin waved with his hand refusing the idea to kiss Hyunjin.

Changbin:“no we can't kiss, we're not like that...Hyunjin help me on—”

He turned to Hyunjin to tell him to wave with him but the thing he didn't expect is the designer attaching his lips against his which provoked the audience to make a reaction upon their kiss.

When Hyunjin broke the kiss and looked at Changbin's eyes, their faces were so close to each other for Hyunjin to wide his eyes realizing what he did.

Hyunjin:“ohh my god...WHAT DID I DO?!!”

He shouted while putting his hands on his lips while blushing not believing him and Changbin kissed again.

Changbin:“you kissed me idiot”

He said for Hyunjin to immediately apologize.

Hyunjin:“I'm very very very sorry hyung I didn't know what I was thinking and—”

He started panicking afraid Changbin would be mad at him but Hyunjin's worries all faded out upon receiving a light touch for his friend.

Changbin:“calm down, it's okay”

Hyunjin exhaled letting out the burden he just built in a matter of seconds just by looking at his hyung right in his eyes.

But he couldn't but feel guilty again.

Hyunjin:“no it's not okay...i just kissed you”

As much as Changbin wants to kiss him even longer and deeper than that light kiss but he holds the urge for that.

Changbin:“don't worry about it, maybe you missed Felix, that's why would you do that, come on let go home you seem tired”

He said holding Hyunjin's hand and star dragging him out of the stadium going to Changbin's car.

That's what Changbin thought, maybe Hyunjin saw him as Felix and poured his emotions into that kiss while thinking about him and missing him.

But it wasn't like that...

Hyunjin(💭):«I didn't picture Felix while kissing you...I'm trash for doing this to both of you.. at this rate I will be left out»

He couldn't point out what was wrong with him and why his hearts responded to both names.

Changbin:“you're going to be okay?”

He creased his back for hyunjin to nod but turned to him again mentioning the kiss again...

Hyunjin:“hyung, that kiss—”

Changbin:“I said forget about it, I'm not mad at you...you're going through a break with your boyfriend”

He held his hand while driving which made Hyunjin smile upon seeing his hand being occupied.

Hyunjin:“I love you, so much”

He confessed just when they arrived in front of Hyunjin's apartment house where Changbin unbuckled his seat belt and looked at him with heart eyes and a warm smile.

Changbin:“I love you too, more than you imagine”

Hyunjin looked at those genuine eyes with his heart that couldn't stop racing because of how the time stopped upon hearing those words from his friend.

He couldn't handle staying here anymore so Hyunjin stepped out from the car and dashed towards his house, where he closed the door behind him and slid against the door.

He clutched into his heart and couldn't remove Changbin's heart eyes from his mind, Hyunjin closed his eyes feeling bad for Felix because he was thinking about someone else besides him.

Hyunjin:«I love them both...i want them both...but I know that's impossible and I had to choose only one»

He finally realized recently why his heart always beats fast around Changbin or why he feels happy by hearing or seeing him or on why he always finds his hugs very comfortable...

Hyunjin was in love with Changbin all this time without him realizing it.

Changbin being there for him, supporting him, comforting him, taking him to places to feel better from his depression, and never had any problems with Felix since Hyunjin loved his boyfriend.

The designer start crying because he just found out something he should had noticed long from when did it began.

Hyunjin:“I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry...”

He crunch into a ball putting his face on his arms that was fixed on his knees.

Feeling horrible as ever.