Wʜᴇʀᴇ Jɪᴍɪɴ ɢɪᴠᴇs ᴜᴘ ᴏɴ Jᴜɴɢᴋᴏᴏᴋ ᴀғᴛᴇʀ 4 ʏᴇᴀʀs

As Jimin laid on the wooden floor of the studio after exhausting himself, he started reminiscing the day he auditioned for Bighit after his teacher influenced him 4 years ago. He was not sure he would get the opportunity but surprisingly for him, he did. Busan was proud of its son.

Not only his dream was on the right path to be fulfilled but his heart was also brought to frenzy by certain someone. The boy none other than maknae of the BTS, Jeon Jungkook.

At first, Jimin did not realize what he felt for the adorable boy but it did not take him long to understand that he had feelings for the youngest. The feelings he debated were platonic or not. Nevertheless, Jimin was fearless and fierce to approach the boy without thinking about the future at all. The hurdle in his plan was Jungkook's shy nature.

Jimin tried his best to express his love not through words. He always bought the same meat that Jungkook liked or he always spent more of their budget on buying banana milk as the younger loved it. He took care of Jungkook in every little way.

It was no different when Jin opened the fridge one day and found stacks of banana milk. "Yah! Jimin-ah."

Everyone was playing the board games in the living room. Jimin stood up and excused himself. "What's is it, Hyung?" He asked with his cute face discerning into concern.

Jin could not yell at him and sighed. "Why did you buy so much banana milk, Jimin-ah? I told you to buy less." Jin spoke calmly.

"Oh, Hyung! The thing is that Jungkook-ie likes it very much. I will take care of it next time." Jimin apologized to the older who shook his head. The bandmates were not unwary of Jimin's behavior but they decided to not read too much into it.

Since that day, Jimin made sure to buy all Jungkook's favorite things with his own money. Jimin came to buy groceries with Jungkook one day. The boy put everything in the trolley and Jimin smiled at him fondly. "You really love these. Don't you?"

Jungkook flashed an adorable grin. They were already at the counter for billing and Jungkook noticed that Jimin paid for his essentials by a different card but he did not say anything as he thought maybe they always used two different cards.

A year passed. One night, someone randomly started talking about porn which made little Jungkook uncomfortable and Jimin realized it. To his chagrin, it also gave Jimin a certain direction or a little nudge to his delved deep desires. That night, he could not keep himself from fantasizing about Jungkook as he touched himself. He now knew that his feelings were not platonic.

Meanwhile, Jungkook loved the special treatment from Jimin and he sought more. He felt a little jealous if Jimin behaved the same way with Taehyung but he could not acknowledge it. He did not know what he felt. He just knew that he did not like sharing the special treatment.

Years passed, three to be exact. BTS was touched new pinnacles of success by each year and the monetary situation also improved. Jimin kept gifting everyone something or the other but he always made sure that anything he got for Jungkook was special. Jimin gave unconditional love to the maknae and the latter received it whole-heartedly without talking about it.

Jimin's thoughts wandered through the beautiful memory lane and now they stopped at the dead end. He patiently waited for Jungkook to get comfortable with him for 4 long years but he could not wait anymore. Lately, whenever he tried to talk to Jungkook in private, the latter ignored the older intently. In honesty, it was becoming frustrating for Jimin as he also realized that Jungkook was ignoring him on purpose. They also practiced at odd hours.

Jimin's hair strands were stuck to his forehead and were drenched in sweat. He ruffled them and rolled them up. He sighed and got up to leave the studio and go back to their new dormitory. The humidity was increasing in the atmosphere and the rains were supposed to follow any day.

As Jimin walked in all hot, he went straight to the fridge to get cool water and his eyes fell on the note from the leader.

Taehyung has hurt his back so we are taking him to the hospital. Nothing big. Do not worry, it is not serious. You may get the take-out for yourself and Jungkook as we will be late.

Jimin's heart skipped a few beats as he realized he was alone in the house with Jungkook and suddenly the man of interest walked into the kitchen with his earphones on and he seized momentarily before he quickly turned around.

Jungkook attempted to run away until he felt a hand on his wrist. He stopped to look back with wide eyes and palpitating heart while removing his earphones. "Jungkook-ie, I said do you have a minute?"

"Y-yes Hyung." He gulped.

Jimin looked around. "No one is at home so we have to arrange dinner. Meet me in 30 minutes? We will go and eat outside. Wear something nice."

No word escaped Jungkook's mouth and he nodded while biting his lips. Jimin smiled before rushing to his and Hoseok's shared room excitedly and threw his small backpack on the table. He washed up and put on his best perfume. Normally it took him the longest to get ready but today, he broke his own record.

He did not even remove the tags from his new shirt and just tucked them under the collar so he could remove them later. After peeking a final and quick glance at the mirror, he wore his prettiest smile and grabbed his wallet quickly.

His heart was jumping in glee as he waited for Jungkook in the living room. The younger did come out 5 minutes later and Jimin adored him in the black pants and yellow shirt.

As they were on the way, Jimin kept looking at fidgeting younger. The driver also could not deny the thick tension. "We will go to Busan in few weeks. Have you planned anything for a break? I was thinking... Maybe we can go to Japan." Jimin initiated the conversation.

For two people living together for years, the formalities were too cumbersome at that moment. "I am not going home in this break." Jungkook replied dryly. This caused Jimin to shut up and gulp. His face was dejected and he was afraid to spill tears.

Soon, they found themselves sitting at the table spread out with fancy food. The waiter brought in candles. "Uh, sir?" Jungkook called the steward as he turned around to leave. "Please take them away." He pointed at the candles.

Jimin cleared his throat. The steward began to take the candles but Jimin stopped him. "It's fine Jungkook, it is dark here. We might end up eating a mosquito or something." He said jokingly.

Jungkook understood why Jimin booked a private table because they did not want the clout, but the fancy date setting was pushing his buttons. He has been constantly avoiding Jimin and now here he was with no escape. He was filled with anger, fear, and annoyance.

They ate in silence for a while. Jimin kept looking at Jungkook time to time and the younger kept his gaze low. "Jungkook," Jimin sighed finally and the younger knew what was coming. "I wanted to tell you this for so long. I am not sure if you have not already noticed that I like you... And it is not just brotherly love. I... I really love you romantically."

Jungkook kept his blank stare at Jimin while his eyes brimmed and his grip tightened on his fork. He wanted to stab the fork either in his own hand or onto Jimin's hand so the talking would stop.

"I am not saying you have to reply now but please think about it. I am really worried about you... And about us. You have started ignoring me lately." Jimin reached his hand over to Jungkook but he pulled back.

"Can we leave?" Jungkook asked in a monotone, dousing all his anger. He did not raise his voice while he kept his gaze straight at the table.

Jimin turned around to call the waiter and indicated for the check while Jungkook only looked down. Jimin was now drowning in shame inwardly. He was feeling like he was falling from a height constantly.

It started to rain outside with thunder. The clouds had turned grey and the howling wind was making it difficult for people to see.

Jimin held the umbrella for Jungkook and made him sit in the car. "Take him home. I am going to be in the studio for a while." Jimin informed their driver who nodded and Jungkook saw Jimin running away from the car.

He rolled down his window and called him. "HYUNG..."

Jimin did not turn back and only ran faster. He disappeared in a moment and the driver began to drive towards the dorm. "Where did Jimin Hyung go?"

"He said that he has something in the studio." The driver replied. Jungkook could not think straight. He was dying in worry for the older. The rain was way too harsh and he was afraid to think if Jimin would hurt himself.

"Please take me there."

**

Jimin looked at Jungkook behind him in the mirror and lost concentration for a moment but he resumed quickly. Jungkook moved closer slowly and stood behind Jimin. The older had to stop the music when he looked at the younger like that. "Go home, Jungkook."

The younger gazed up at Jimin who was not looking at him at all. "No. I- I am here to talk to you."

"We can talk later. This is my practice time." Jimin hit the play button again and his body began to move with the beats.

Jungkook could not bear this ignorance from the one who loved him. Anger surged in his body and he stomped towards the speaker to mute the sound. Jimin's legs stopped. He turned around and glared at Jungkook. "What is your problem?"

"Hyung, can you be not like this? Why are you being rude to me?" Jungkook asked in annoyance.

"I am sorry, Jungkook." Jimin sighed as he looked at the floor. "I guess I should treat you as a band member as we are colleagues. It only makes sense. I will try my best." He flashed Jungkook a smile.

The younger could not take it. He did not want Jimin to be professional with him. He wanted Jimin to be personal. He wanted him to treat him like he always did. "No... Hyung. You can't do this to me. You have given me so much love all these years, you cannot suddenly snatch it all away from me."

Jimin chuckled airily with a smirk. "Nothing is free in this world little one. Your parents love you because they made you and expect the love in return. I loved you... I loved you and I was patient with you in a hope that one day you will grow up and see it, understand my feelings. I did not know you hated me all this while."

"I never hated you. I ..."

"You?" Jimin stepped closer to tongue-tied Jungkook. "Say it..." He asked in a low rasp.

The boy had no answer.

"You love me too." Jimin said slowly and Jungkook looked up at him with eyes brimming.

"No..." He said slowly and shook his head. "I can't. I can't. I am not gay."

"Suit yourself." Jimin smiled sweetly and began walking backward. "We are colleagues and that's what we will be from now on. Don't call me or talk to me about this, ever. Do whatever you want." Jimin quickly picked his bag and left the studio without turning back.

Jungkook stood there, gaping at nothing as realization hit him hard. He was in love with Jimin all this while and that is why he has been jealous over little things. He always made excuses to be with Jimin. Be it in their interviews, shows, or late-night practices. He was too afraid to accept his feelings, too afraid to face that he was gay and if he loved Jimin, it would mean that there was no backing away.

What would the world think? What would the members think and most important of all, what would ARMY think? He was one of the most loved members and he did not want to lose any of it. He now realized that he lost the one who meant the world to him.

He broke down and sobbed on the floor. The room was empty and there was no one to hold him in his arms or wipe his tears away. He remembered that there was not a single time when Jimin did not do that for him. He got up and decided that he had to say it back. It was now or never. He could not hurt his Jimin Hyung anymore.

He called Jimin but the older did not pick. He called again and ran outside. The rain and wind were sending chilled trickles down his spine. He only had an umbrella that Jimin left behind. He kept calling.

The older momentarily brew some negative thoughts and picked the call to ensure that Jungkook was alright. "Hello?"

"Hello, Hyung..." Jungkook spoke.

"Yah!" Jimin was relieved that Jungkook was okay. "Didn't I tell you to not talk to me?"

"I - I am s-sorry, Hyung." Jungkook began to sob and it melted Jimin's heart instantly.

"Gukie... Why are you crying? What's wrong? Talk to me."

"I am sorry, Hyung. Please forgive me. I can't live without you. I love you, Hyung." Jungkook cried some more.

"Jungkook-ie... Stop crying. Where are you? I am coming to get you."

"I don't know where I am." Jungkook said wiping his tears.

"Baby, stay where you are. I am coming to you, okay?" Jimin began to run back until Jungkook stopped him.

"N-no, I will take taxi. Send me your location. I will come to you now." Jungkook immediately stopped a taxi that was passing through and got in.

"I am waiting by the convenience store. I will send you the location too, but please don't cry okay? Don't cry. I am sorry." Jimin's heart was getting heavier to hear the little one sob.

Jimin waited 20 minutes while the cold rain poured down on him and finally the moment was here for which he waited for all these years. He saw Jungkook running towards him after getting out of the taxi and he opened his arms.

Jungkook's body crashed onto him and Jimin stepped back with the weight. Nonetheless, he did not let go. Jungkook kept crying incessantly while Jimin held him close in his arms. He was thankful for the dark night and heavy rain that no one saw them. "You left me." Jungkook sniffled in the crook of Jimin's neck. Both of them were soaking wet.

"Jungkook-ah. Shhh. It's all okay. I was a little angry and I am sorry." Jimin pulled the boy away and looked at his crying self.

He wiped Jungkook's face and placed a gentle kiss on his forehead.

"I am sorry, Hyung... I love you." Jungkook pouted and cried more.

Jimin smiled with teary eyes. "I love you more my baby. Stop crying or I will kiss you on your lips." Jimin teased and Jungkook shuddered after he quickly wiped his face.

"I am scared."

"Me too." Jimin replied and held Jungkook's hand tightly. "But I am here. I will take care of you. We will get through everything, together. "

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Fluff and Angst.

14 Jul 2021

Age gap - 2 years ( JK 18, JM 20)