2 months later:

Delhi, India
11:30am
Sunday

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You know the feeling when you are in a crowd and still feel lonely. This was the condition of noor. Her world was limitless but her heart was limited. It had some hope which shattered , it was now no more happy . Even in the happiest thing it was sad .

It was two months since noor came back new York , it was the end of the month January . Just like the weather her heart was cold too. It stopped responded on any sweet word , no it didn't die it's just lost.

It hurts na when you love someone And they don't , but you know the worst part is that it isn't in our control. She regrets going to new York , she regrets the moment her eyes met his , she regrets that she couldn't control her heart . Earlier it was not easy for her to live but it was not this worse atleast. It was yet another moment in her life when she regretted falling in love.

Why does she always fall for someone she can't have? She kept on questioning herself again and again.

She started staying in a different house away from her parents place after she came back from new York.
It was enough time she gave her parents even when they were busy in thier own life now it was her turn to live her life. It felt alone in her new home but at least it was better than being with a family and then feeling lonely.

Many things happened in the span of two months...her book launched which did amazing more than usual maybe because this book had her heart and soul. Her parents continuous questions for her to get married as she is not getting any younger day by day troubled her too.

Noor Kashyap

I am currently on my way to my parents house , they wanted me to have lunch together with them. I didn't agree first because i knew them very well and their sudden reason of having lunch together but then I did.

I greeted them and sat in the living room.

"See these are the photos of the boys we shortlisted. Choose anyone and we will fix the date for you both to meet" . My mom said as soon as i sat on the couch and that made me loose my calm.

"Why? , Am i asking something from you all no na . I am living on my own , paying my own bills then why do you all want to get married!" I asked trying to maintain my calm.

"It's not like that. There's a certain age to get married , when you grow old you need someone by your side".

"Don't be in This misconception maa . I don't need anyone. Neither i had anyone in the childhood when i needed u both the most and now i don't need anyone in my life. I myself am enough" i said This time a little loudly. I hate how i am showing my vulnerability to them.

"Who said we weren't there? Whenever you needed something we made it accessible . What more do you want?" My mom spatted angrily.

I Chuckled humourisly.

"What i needed was you both the most when i used to get bully by my seniors. I needed u both to stand for me when i couldn't do it for myself , i needed u both to tell me that you are there but ... but none of that happened. Why?
Because you both were busy making your career while your only child at that time suffered. But you know what i am happy I am happy that atleast choti is not getting to see That side of you both which i saw. "

Before they could say anything more i strode out of the house. What did i said and why did i said that? I never wanted this. I cried and cried because that's what i could do at that very moment.

Noor you can't do this... They are your parents you can't talk like that with them . Stop being a kid . My mind was scolding me . I agree that what i did was wrong but why can't they understand that I don't want to get married. I don't wanna get attached to anyone who might break my heart in Future.  I don't want that again.....

I drove back to my home. My place where i can be whatever i like without worrying of anyone noticing me and questioning me.

I realised my life is not what it's used to be. I was no more happy , does his loving me back matterd that much to me . Did he really meant that much to me ? Why am I not able to forget him? I thought that maybe i will forget him within few days but that didn't happen...day by day my life feels like hell . I cried almost every single day . Some days tears came but it soon dried out.

Please god! Don't do this to me . I don't want to be like this. I am hating myself.

Author :

It was two months later after Noor's outbrust on her parents. She apologized to her parents and vice versa. They realised maybe they weren't the best parents for her .  She decided to move on in her life . And this time she did what her parents said was the best for her . And that is to get her married.

She agreed. She had to . She can't still forget the look on her mom's face when she said yes to get married. She has never seen her this happy ever. She thought of giving even this a chance. Anyways , her life had nothing left but just experiments. Her heart did it's own experiment because of which it's still in a corner sad .

You know someone should actually say it to him that it job is to just pump blood , then why the hell it just burn every single time.

She was getting ready in her parents home . Her face didn't had a smile nor did her heart was happy. Actually no one was happy except her parents obviously. But you know how people says that parents can never be wrong , she thought maybe listening to her parents would be the last Choice in her life at this time , and she did.

Cladding herself in a simple saree , she got ready . She was looking absolutely beautiful. Saree's compliment her really well.

She made her walk outside as her mother shouted her name to come outside. She doesn't wanted it to be old school like taking her to the drawing room. She came by herself , her eyes down which was quite usual for her now.

Her eyes went up and met with the most familiar pair of eyes which she was craving to see for months. Her heart started beating fast like really fast. She felt a bile rise up her throat. Her eyes started watering. Not standing there anymore she ran towards her room and closed the door. She let herself down with the support of door. She cried her eyes out. Her heart was out of control. Was it a dream? It was going crazy as if wanting to come out from her body and jump on him .

Finally it was awake.

Abhiraj stood outside the gate knocking.

"Noor come out please". He requested almost pleaded.

His voice.. it was so long since she heard his voice . Ot was almost like honey to her ears. She missed it so much.

"Noor see i am here now. Won't you meet me " he asked.

"Noor please say something". He pleaded.

"Fuck you " she wanted to say badly. But nothing came out of her mouth. Except the cry.

Sighing he sat on the floor his head touching the door.

"Noor i know i have made you cry a lot but i promise now everything will be fine. I will never let you cry again. I was an idiot to let you go like that . But aab jaisa bhi hu tumhara hu . You have to handle me now.

And now i will never ever let you go . Not even when you will ask me too . I will stick with you like a feviquick. Now please let me at least see your face . It's been so long since i saw you."

His every word made her cry more. She got up and opened the door. She didn't wanted to meet him with all cry face but she let herself be like that. Let him see what he actually did to her. Let him see how she cried every day because of him. Let him see her vunerable.

Her tear strained cheeks did something to him . He hugged her tightly without letting any words exchanged.  She hid herself and cried soking his shirt in her tears.

"I hate you" . That was the first word that came out of her mouth after the hug.

"I hate myself too". He answered.

"Why?" She questioned innocently.

"Because I made you cry a lot".

"Yes you did , but that's not the main point. The main thing how are you here ".

"By plane obviously" he joked while she glared at him .

He muttered a sorry and explained how he read the letter but he couldn't come to the airport as he wasn't sure about his feelings and definitely he didn't wanted to give her false hope.  In those 4 month's his family made him realise what he was missing. How his mother scolded him when she got to know about the letter she wrote.

Her face had a smile listening to the story but her eye's had tears thinking about the past 4 month's. Now that he is here it feels like that all was just a nightmare or was this a  dream.

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So here's something i wrote-

"Hii
Zindagi tumhare bina kuchh kash nahi chal rahi ,
Tumhari bina mano sans nahi aa rahi,
Jab mohabbat ki thi tumse ,
Besharte ki thi ,
Chaha tha tum bhi chaho mujhe,
Tumne chaha nahi , wo tumhari marzi thi!
Magar iss dil ko kon shamjaye,
Uske bhikhre huye tukro ko kaise sameta jaye ,
Mana kiya THA dimag ne ,
Kaha tha maat kar mohabbat mere dost
Bhikar jayega,
Nahi maani uski baat
Shayad usi ka nateeza hain jo aisa
Haal hua iska aaj. "

Hope you all Liked it.
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Annyeong twinkles,

I know I made you all wait a lot but believe me when i say this life hasn't been easy. Shifting to a completely different city away from the familiarity
Makes your head go crazy....

First week i wasn't happy..i was literally begging my mum on phone like a 4 yr old to take me back home. But then i realised what i was doing... making my career was my own choice and there was no way i would back off . I know my heart is sad being away from mum but it's okay...she would be proud when I will be back to her after becoming a better version of myself i am sure.

That was too long right!! Sorry hadn't had anyone lately to share the feelings.

Anyways coming back to the story. I hope it was nice. I am sorry if it didn't lived up to your expectations. I tried my best to do the justice. This was the last chapter . A epilogue will come up in the coming week. So please wait...

Don't forget to show your love on this to keep me motivated .

Oh by the way

Happy friendship day  i hope it's today and i am not wrong 😬

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