I think that my problem

is that

I cannot articulate my problem

I do not avoid people

or places

or things

because I believe I will dislike them

I am simply afraid

that I love too strongly

and too deeply

and that I will cling to you

so desperately

until one of us breaks

from the pressure

Imagine your first time

visiting a big event

a concert, a convention,

or even just a college orientation

You are overtaken

by good, interesting people

and feelings

and smells

and the tidal wave of excitement

sets your head spinning

Now imagine that feeling

day in, and day out

brought on

simply by the act of living

And by doing that

I hope maybe you can understand

why I so often tell you I am drowning