I wish I could take a psycho portal and enter my own brain

I want to see the world I've created in there

I want to meet the characters I've dreamt up in there

And I want to meet the person who organises my thoughts and tell them to please sweep up a little

Because sometimes they just become such a disorganised, jumbled mess and I can't sleep because it's so noisy

So I'd like to go in there and tidy them up a little

Because everyone says I can't sleep because I watch YouTube and I know that's not the problem

The problem is, my thoughts keep spilling from the shelves I've stacked them on and crashing all over the place

The problem is, no matter how many times I lock the vault, my darker thoughts break out of it

Should I maybe change the lock on it?

Or should I just let them roam around and see what happens?

I can't sleep anyway so it wouldn't make much of a difference

And I almost sort of like the idea of having a voice in my head because I hate being alone more than anything

And maybe the voice would keep the darker thoughts away like everyone else does

I've always liked monsters and that sort of thing anyway

But my head is empty except for my thoughts, so I suppose it's up to me to sort them out

I'm a little scared to remind myself of everything I locked up in that vault, though

Do you think Psychonauts ever feel that way?

Maybe that's why Sasha organises things so strictly

But I'm not that organised, that's just not me

So my mind is a messy jumble of thoughts and plot ideas and an idea for a character drawing and that homework I still need to get done

And I've been writing this and thinking about this for so long that I'm starting to get a headache

I'm going to go drink some water