Two updates for today lmao because I've been inactive lately. I don't know how to portray Yuishiro(the obsessed little cinnamon) but I tried omp--

I have conflicting feelings about his character because of the manga's ending. (=^=;?) Btch loved Tamayo somu--ashfjgkglyllelrkfj!

But he's a total jerk at everybody lol

Anyways~

Enjoy☆

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"Riri, you're alive. I'm glad." Kagaya-sama's voice drifted as a relieved smile graced his lips and my face morphed into surprise and utter sho--

My eyes snapped open, the moon came to view and my eyes narrowed sharply.

I turned to my left, my right knee raised as my right hand rested on it while my left side remained slack.

"Yuishiro-san, do you need me for something?" I asked tonelessly.

He stared at me with annoyance written on his face.

"Hoshiki Ruri, you annoying woman. What did you do now that made Tamayo-sama so worried and upset?" He said demandingly, his eyes staring at me as if he wanted to wring my neck.

I almost shook my head at how dramatic he was being.

I would never question his devotion towards Lady Tamayo but sometimes it can be annoying. Yuishiro acts as if I'm going to steal the woman away.

He has clearly forgotten that I am also a woman and is only interested in men though I don't have the luxury to feel that way anymore considering my situation.

"Lady Tamayo merely inquired on my visit at the Demon Slayer Corps. Traveling to the base of people who slay demons while hiding from the sun is enough to get worried about. She would have felt the same for you if you went in my stead." I reasoned out, hoping he would fall for it because I did not want to deal with an overprotective Yuishiro.

He was annoying, possessive and downright unreasonable when he gets like that. Not to mention he throws a lot of death threats around like they were harmless flowers.

"Of course Lady Tamayo would be worried but she doesn't need to waste her time by worrying about you!"

I almost rolled my eyes at him.

"Oh quit it. If you like her so much, then just tell her. No need to get jealous." To my surprise, he actually shut up and turned pink at my words.

A look of bewilderment invaded my face at how embarrassed he seemed by my suggestion and a cruel smile left my lips.

"If you don't tell Lady Tamayo, I might just slip someday since she can be quite persuasive--"

He glared daggers at me, a dark aura brewing around him while he repeatedly pointed his finger at me.

"Don't you dare, woman! Or I'll skin you alive! I will--"

I sighed. He was too hopeless it was just too depressing to watch.

I stood up and brushed pass him, ignoring his indignant cries and shouts.

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"Don't give up hope yet. I believe in Kamado Tanjiro. With his help in collecting blood from the demon moons that he has defeated, we would be able to find a cure to turn a demon back into human again." Lady Tamayo's voice is as hopeful and calming as it can be.

She stared at me with hope and worry, no doubt worried at how I am slowly losing my faith that I would once again embrace humanity.

I simply did not want to get my hopes up. It meant that I would be able to see Nemi again.

But I could never show myself to him ever again, not with how ugly I've turned out.

I've become the very thing he hated and sought to destroy. I would not be able to take it if he stared at me with the same hatred and revulsion he gave the demons he encountered.

I don't want to be hated by Sanemi.

Anyone but him.

Though it was ironic to wish for that knowing that I've completely angered him by leaving so suddenly without a proper reason.

But it was better than having him know that his childhood friend was slowly turning into a monster.

"Lady Tamayo, as long as I crave human flesh, I could never hope. I've simply lost my senses and I don't trust myself not to hurt anyone. I am too dangerous so I don't think I would want to be the messenger between you and Kamado Tanjiro. I suggest using a cat instead." I said politely in a way that would not seem rude to her.

"You are not dangerous. You have never even consumed huma--"

I shook my head at her.

"It does not matter." I told her. "I crave it still and with how long I've been avoiding it, being near a human would make me lose my mind."

"You stupid woman. You're too afraid to try, just admit it. You don't need to make excuses so stop wasting Lady Tamayo's time. Don't make her worry over you!"

"Yuishiro-kun..." Lady Tamayo with a look of disapproval while I crossed my arms.

"No, stop. He's right. "I did not want to admit that but I was just too scared. "I'm afraid of myself, of what I'm capable of."

I do not want to hurt anyone. I was too unpredictable in my current state.

"For once, you're actually using your mind." My mouth twitched at his words and I squashed at the sudden impulse to bash his head on the floor.

It won't be good to stain the mats with blood.

"How observant, Yuishiro-san. I'm touched." I responded sarcastically as my eyed gazed at him.

We glared at each other silently. It seemed childish but I can think of no other way to get along with Yuishiro.

"The two of you..!" Lady Tamayo's voice said. "Don't be unreasonable. We are supposed to be working towards the same goal. Fighting isn't going to help!"

I slumped on the floor and lied on my back.

She was right of course but arguing with Yuishiro had always been normal and he was too easily riled up to begin with.

It made me miss the times I could argue and banter with the other pillars and on other times, Genya-kun.

I covered my eyes with my arms.

I miss teasing my sweet little brother.

Genya-kun's last words to me was too close to home and it actually made me consider telling him but a reminder of how demons are perceived immediately stomped on that last bit of hesitation I had.

"You promised to protect Nemi didn't you?! Why are you leaving?! How are you going to fulfill your promise like this?!"

I closed my eyes, my little brother's pained cries resonating inside my head.

"Nee-chan! Don't go!"

And silently he added. 'Don't leave me too'.

I have never felt more guilty than ever in my entire life.