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Trigger warnings ↣ Suicidal themes, bullying, angst

↣ "I'm sorry.."

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"What makes you think I'll ever accept a dangerous supernatural like you?" Teru spat, looking at down you with the same disgusted look he gives all supernaturals. "You said that you've liked me for a year? What nonsense, you're dead, I'm alive and there's a big difference in that."

He grins, pulling out his sword from your shoulder. "I guess I can take pity on you and let you go, but I'll make your dead life a living hell." With a smile on his face, he walks away, completely ignoring your heartbroken and crying form.

You let out a shaky sigh, your knees clutched up against you chest. The memory of him saying that hurts, it really does.

Is this what you get for being School Mystery number 8? All because you're deemed as a 'dangerous supernatural.'

Is it your fault you were bullied to death? Is it your fault someone pushed you off the roof of the school as a mere 'joke?'

Is it your fault you had an abusive family who didn't love you and wouldn't care even if you died?

Is it your fault you were rumored to be a vengeful spirit? Is it your fault you're falsely accused of what you actually are?

Before becoming a supernatural, when you were falling off the roof, you thought you could finally be free from this living hell but no, the world just hated you so much it decided to put you back into hell.

You first met Teru when he was a first year. The two of you happened to have bumped into each other in the library after school ended.

The only reason why he didn't exorcise you immediately was because he promised Kou to let him handle the School's eight Mysteries instead.

As time past, the two of you got along surprisingly well. Although Teru did seem like he still had a love-hate relationship with you, much like with the Mokke.

Ever since you confessed, things went down hill real fast. Remember that threat he made? Yeah, it wasn't just a bluff.

Ever since his threat, he'd often bring a guy or a girl up to the rooftop, usually where you were, and start acting pretty close with him or her because he knew you would get hurt, because he knew you you would get jealous.

Or when you're not on the roof, he'd bring the boy or the girl to the library, another place you'd usually be in to get away from everything, a place you'd go to to seek for peace.

You'd cry days on end in your boundary, 'why' was all you could think of. What did you do to deserve this sort of treatment? Nothing. Why do you deserve this sort of treatment? Oh the answer is very simple, all just because you're a 'dangerous supernatural,' not that big of a deal, oh silly you!

It's been a few months since this agonizing cycle had started, you've had enough of it honestly.

He hates you, right? The solution is very simple! All you have to do is disappear and he won't have to hate you or be disgusted by you, right? Yep!

That's all you have to do to end this pain, that's all you have to do, besides, you're already dead so this wouldn't hurt anyone. It's benefitial for both him and you.

You drew in a deep breath before preparing for what's about to come.

"..Tsukasa."

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Teru was making his way up to the roof, curious as to how you were doing.

He had expected to hear you sobbing and crying but when he opened the door to the rooftop, there was nothing but eerie silence.

His brows furrowed at your absence and decided to look around for you. And he did manage to find you eventually but it wasn't had he had expected.

Here you were, your body sitting in the corner of the rooftop, your back leaning against the fence. Your eyes were shut, it seemed as though you were having a peaceful nap, despite the gaping hole in your torso.

Teru couldn't believe the sight in front of him, his knees felt weak, his body had started trembling on it's own, but why?

Why was he feeling this way? You're a supernatural, he should be happy at the sight right now but he wasn't. He didn't know how he should be feeling right now.

He should either be feeling ineffected or at least happy, right? But he wasn't.

He kneeled down in front of your already lifeless form, examining you to see if he could find any clues as to who could've done this.

The neatly folded piece of paper in your hand had caught his attention, thus making him pick up the piece of paper and unfolding it to find a letter.

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Dear Teru,

I just want to let you know that you were a great friend! It's ashame I couldn't say goodbye to you in person.. haha, sorry about that! I couldn't face you, I'm sorry..

But I mean, good thing is you wouldn't have to see me and be disgusted by me anymore, right? So, congrats! I did you a favor ♡

Hey, but I do mean it though. The time we've spent with you, those were the best moments I've ever felt even back when I was still human! Thank you for coming into my life, Teru.

When I was still human, the only one who's ever loved me was my mom, but she passed away when I was nine and ever since then I'd have to live with an abusive alcoholic dad. Sounds pretty cliché, right?

Well! All that ended when someone pushed me off the school's rooftop as a joke, so now here I am! School Mystery number eight!

When I was falling off the roof, I thought it'd finally be over, I'd finally be free from this living hell but nope! The world just had to put me back.

But hey, at least I'm gone for real now, right?

No matter where I might be now, I'll always treasure the time I've spent with you, no matter what!

In case you're wondering, I had Tsukasa eat my heart so I'm no longer a supernatural, I'm no longer no. 8!

So I hope you're happy about that at least~

I'm so glad I got to meet someone like you, it truly feels like a blessing, it really does. The times we've spent studying together in the library, I'll always treasure those moments.

I'll always treasure the moments we've spent together, even if they meant nothing to you.

You might not even be reading this right now but if you are, hey, I love you and I always will.

I got to love you and that's the best thing I'll ever do.

Well, I guess this is it, huh? I really have to go now. Let's hope we somehow meet again in our next life, Teru! Until then, this is goodbye.

- Love, (Y/N)

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Teru couldn't believe what he had just read. The handwriting definitely was yours, neat and tidy as usual.

You were gone, you're really gone now. Who'll study with him after school now that you're gone? Who'll be there to constantly support him and his decisions?

Who'll be there for him to be disgusted at? No, he never did hate you nor thought you were disgusting.

The way you always made him feel when you were around him, it felt weird, it felt unsual, it felt wrong and that he shouldn't be feeling this way for you.

So what did he do? He masked off those feelings he had with hatred and disgust, he thought this would be a best solution to make for both you and him.

By masking it, he believed he would start getting convinced by himself and that it'd be able to stop this weird and unsual feeling.

He thought you'd start hating him instead but he never thought you'd do something like this intead..

Teru's knees collapsed, with shaky arms, he embraced your lifeless form. Tears streaming down his face as he brought your form closer to his, nuzzling his face into your shoulder as the tears soaked through your uniform.

"I'm so sorry.. (Y/N) I'm so sorry, this is all my fault.."

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Ever since then, Teru would write letters addressed to you. Despite you not being on Earth anymore, he'd still write them in hopes that you'll receive them one way or another.

His letters would consist of get well wishes, his daily life, interesting events that happened to him, etc.

He'd visit the library whenever he could, especially after school. He would sit in the corner of the library, a spot you'd always sit in.

He swears sometimes he could still see you sitting in front of him, smiling and laughing whenever you get an answer wrong. You also had a habit of teasing him for being too smart and he misses that.

He misses all of those times, when it'd just be the two of you in the library spending quality time together with the peaceful silence.

There's nothing he could do now except move on, you were gone and that's it. There's nothing he can do now.

Only now has he realized how much he had taken you for granted. All he can do now is to pray that you're finally getting a well-deserved rest.

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Hope everyone enjoyed this angsty ride! I tried my best to make it as sad as possible- I literally cried for 30 minutes straight as I was writing this

Requested by xiaojunist !

Did anyone listen to the song I put above to amplify the pain? |˛˙꒳​˙)?