A blank ceiling. There is nothing to look at it. Though I am staring at it with full attention. My sister was looking at me with full confusion, then started staring in my direction, the ceiling. She found nothing exciting, so she started scrolling through her phone again. Here I am feeling depressed about my life. Then out of nowhere my sister started shouting out loud.

"Y/N a new ff is premiering, and it's about Taehyung and fan meeting. You can take some tips from us you're gonna meet him tomorrow. You're gonna have to do something which will make him notice you."

"I'll watch it later"

I got up from my bed. And went to the balcony of the hotel room to catch a glimpse of the city's so-called Seoul. It was looking ravishing and marvelously beautiful due to the lighting.

"You must be getting ready for tomorrow, Tae. Or you may be are talking with your manager about what outfit are you gonna wear tomorrow." I was busy looking at the night view of the city and thinking that out loud in my muffled mind. I can't even think straight.

"Y/N Let's go out and visit the city for a while as we won't get time tomorrow. We have to buy some chicken too. Let's go out and have supper before it's too late. We have a long day tomorrow. " my sister spoke making me flinch as I was too busy thinking about my useless life and Taehyung.

"O-oh okay, but please calm down your voice is making my ears bleed ."

"Why you are so off today? Your dream is finally going to be true tomorrow. "

I bitterly smiled and got ready to go out with her. We went to Gangnam street, had some street food named 'tteokbokkki'( spicy rice cake), took some snaps. Then we returned to our hotel room.

We came to Seoul to attend a fan meeting of BTS. My bias is Kim Taehyung and my sister's is Jeon Jeongkook. I spent my whole life fantasizing about him as my husband and loved him in that way. Even though I knew I am about to get pain at the end.

As soon as we returned to our room my sister fell harshly on the bed. I got freshened up and wore my pj and again went to the balcony. The gentle breeze of air was passing through me. I looked at the place called Hannam-dong. And smiled bitterly. Really my life is moving like a movie. Falling in love with BTS, then Taehyung, printing out his photos secretly, getting scolded by mum for dancing into their songs,fighting with an anti-ARMY,fighting with friends to prove who is worthy of him,kissing his photos, dancing with his ghost, watching fanfictions about him,learning Korean for him,dieting for looking good in front of him,changing my habits and getting habituated into his habits, getting rejected by all of my friends, not involving into any relationships for him. All of these felt fake. A one sided love.

Falling for him everyday in a new manner and in a regular basis, trying to become perfect. All of it will come to an end tomorrow. Cause he will treat me as an ARMY. He won't even look at me in a loving manner.

Everything was quite,the night,the roads,everything. A stream of warm pain was flowing down through my cheeks wetting everything in it's path. It's the pain,it's time to let go. I guess the DEAD LEAVES of my inner thoughts are falling and BURNING in front of me. After gathering myself together, I went to the table for my last preparation about tomorrow's fan meeting. My confession letter.

Then I went to my bed writing another story of my PAPER HEART. It hurts a lot when you love someone like an psycho but he doesn't even know you or gonna notice you. But you have to let go~~~~~~~~~.

I don't know how was it tell me and this is a picture a snapped today. Hope you enjoy. I was crying while writing this.